Hello /adv/ I have a serious personality defect and I don't know how to fix it.
>in longterm moderately-happy relationship
>hyper sexual, have to get off at least 3 times a day
>hate porn, it does nothing for me most of the time
>GF goes to work on the weekends and I don't have much to do
>download something like whisper and chat and sext with whores, sometimes getting them to send me pictures or video
>feel terrible about it afterward, definitely not worth it
>try to quit, usually last a few months then slip up
It's been 3 months, but I just did it again this morning. I didn't actually get anybody to talk to besides "what are your kinks?", before they just started ignoring me. But I still tried to.
I'm disgusted with myself, however I have been put in a position to have sex with other women without getting caught and I firmly declined and got out of the situation.
I think cheating is a terrible thing to do, I don't want to be that person. But obviously I have terrible impulse control when I'm using my phone.
Am I at risk for physically cheating on my gf in the future? I don't see myself ever doing it, but I don't see myself as someone who sexts with whores.
Also, should I tell my GF about this or would it just scare her away? I want to be with only her, but for some fucking reason I am doing stupid shit and I have not pinpointed as to why.
>>18078496
>Am I at risk for physically cheating on my gf in the future?
Why do you even have to ask yourself that? If you don't want to do it, don't fucking do it. It's not that hard, you're completely over complicating things.
>Also, should I tell my GF about this or would it just scare her away?
No, don't tell her, it will just hurt her. You haven't physically cheated so I honestly think if you still want to be with her this will just cause more damage. Unless there's any chance that she's seen your phone.
Delete all those apps immediately and do not under ANY circumstances go back. If you can do that much you're fine.
In the mean time it might be worth talking to a therapist or something if you can afford it. I know it seems a bit extreme but impulse control and potential sex addiction are things that professionals can help you with
>>18078629
I delete them afterwards