I'm 19 and I didn't really know I was "gay" until recently. Honestly put it off as being bisexuality for two years but I realized that wasn't right.
Problem is I don't really know why I'm gay. I don't think I was gay before like, 14-15, never really felt any same sex feelings.
I've been reflecting on my life and kinda remember when I was really young taking a bath with another boy and kinda doing sexual stuff. Would that be enough to tip the scales? I also think I called a male 'beautiful' when I was 4.
I've been super skinny ever since puberty, being underweight this whole time. Maybe lack of testosterone or something?
Feel really uncomfortable about being gay. I don't think I really appear manly enough to my family or friends. Being 'out' would just make me feel weak or vulnerable.
I thought about having to introduce a boyfriend to my mom and dad and all I could think about is what they would be thinking, like "Oh our son gets fucked by that guy" which really freaked me out.
I also have had frequent arguments with my mother all the time since I was like, 9.
What do I do?
>>18073741
>I don't think I was gay before like, 14-15, never really felt any same sex feelings.
That's because before puberty hits, you don't really have any sexual feelings
>What do I do?
Embrace your faggotry. Be the gayest damn faggot there ever was. No point denying it
start sucking cock
denying your true nature is just doing psychological harm to yourself
>>18073750
I dont want to be a stereotype though.
>>18073756
Then you shouldn't have done all that gay shit that turned you into a fag
>>18073756
Then don't. Just be gay. You don't have to do anything about it. You will still be you, regardless if you date men or women
>>18073763
like what?
>>18073756
Not all gays act flamboyant. Some gays seem like straight guys until they say they're gay. Accept who you are. If you're worried about being perceived as the catcher instead of the pitcher, date a guy smaller than you or lift weights and increase your cal intake
>>18073783
well i'm already not too tall and really fucking skinny.
>>18073789
Really skinny guys can put on muscle too. There's specific programs like "bony to beastly" put together by formerly skinny guys. You need a ridiculous amount of calories to gain muscle when you lift but they make special types of protein powders with high cal for guys like you