Am I broken?

>>18070122

>but it does make me sad that this pretty much means I'll never get married

why does this make you sad? its literally what you don't like,
>worrying about someones feelings
>being home at a certain time
>losing freedom

i think the issue here is you realized that you shouldn't obsess with relationships, but you're interpreting that as NEVER wanting to be in one.

someone will come along and impress you and you'll impress her and want to date. but you now realize that life isn't about jumping from one monogamous relationship to the other pretending that THIS one is the special one.

>>18070134

Well, it's pretty much a foregone conclusion that I'm the last chance to carry on my family's name/genes... I have an adopted cousin, a lesbian cousin, and a male cousin who is a complete useless wreck that has still never kissed a girl at 30.

I feel bad for like, my dad, who I have a really close relationship with, who had a close relationship with his dad, who won't ever have a grandson. I feel bad for my mom, who is sick and probably passing soon, whose sister is already a great grandmother while she'll never get to be a grandma.

It's stuff like that, which is tough to reconcile with.

The problem is I'm 30 years old. No one's impressing me anymore, and I feel like I have to go out and hunt for it if I want it. But I haven't had the motivation, since I'm not that interested in relationships.

>>18070166
>blah blah blah other people want me to do shit

who cares, it's your life, you're just going to end up hurting some girl who really wants someone that's committed to a relationship.