Nearly crippling depression. Please help

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I am a young boy and I am bisexual. Once, I was in love with one of my schoolmates but the love wasnt reciprocated and when I told him after 3 years he told me to fuck off in a way, that I had depression 6 months after that.

Then I met a girl, I fell in love and it seemed, she did too. We were together for 40 days (she even convinced me to have sex with her (which wasnt hard for her)), but after we had sex like 4 times, she said its the end and that she only used me for sex. I was really hurt back then.

After this I fell in love with many girls but not a single one loved me back. Nor the boys.

Like 2 weeks ago I realised, that nobody loves me and I strongly doubt, that anybody in the future will and I was crying like everyday for straight 2 hours.

So I thought I can speak to my friends about it. But then I found out that I dont have any friends at all. Everybody who seemed as a friend to me didnt even have time to talk to me. And when somebody did, he just told me he doesnt care about my issues,

I am musician (I play the Flute, saxophone and fingerstyle guitar) but lately nothing seems to be good for me. The flute is starting to bore me, saxophone is becoming hard and guitar is really demotivating, because every single person who plays guitar plays better than me.

Also, my parents just had a divorce and I am going to move from my beloved flat, where I lived for my whole life.

My father is the most disgusting guy I have ever met. He has no feelings and he is rude on everybody. I always tried to avoid being like him, but lately, as I have all of those issues I am becoming more and more like him.

I am afraid that if I dont get somebody to love me, I will stop being able to feel love and become my fathers copy.

Everyday I cant focuse on anything because of this one big depression which is made by the little ones, that are written above.

I really think about suicide or self-injuring, because I am clearly not good enough for somebody to like me.

Please help