How do I restore my brain to factory settings? A lifetime of

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9L2-B-aluCE

>>18052318

I often think I'd like to try this

>Is meditation the answer?
While I tend to encourage anyone to do meditation under any circumstances you shouldnt expect wonders. In the long run it would definitely help, but it definitely won't turn you into an exemplary member of society by itself.

You can't wipe the slate clean, that only works for computers. What you can do instead is change what you have. The brain is changing constantly based on your circumstances, experiences and ideologies (look up neuroplasticity). According to your own words your current state is insecurity, self-destruction etc. You can't simply delete all that (well some people claim they did it, they spontaneously changed their whole lives and personalities, but it's unverifiable and usually involves a lot of mysticism, so even if it would be true you can't replicate it). What you can do is that you can slowly change the way your brain works. I'm not gonna sugarcoat it, it's fucking hard. Especially for someone in your position, since you'll keep trying to sabotage yourself. You will need to be smart about it, you will need to keep an open mind and you will need willpower. You will need to believe in something. A God, a person, an idea, human kindness, change, whatever. But you must have "faith". This is more important than I can explain.

What you must also keep in mind is that all change comes from within. It's your own mind that ultimately decides how and what to do, feel or think. External factors will only offer you opportunities and disadvantages, but they don't have complete control over what happens inside your mind. This is where meditation comes in. It will teach you how to maintain and enrich your positive and constructive thoughts and emotions and how to acknowledge and accept the bad ones without loosing yourself in them.

I suggest you read the following books, preferably in this order:
You are not so smart by David Mcraney
The power of habit by Charles Duhigg
10% happier by Dan Harris
Happiness by Matthieu Ricard

>>18052318
>going with anything medical-related that's older than my grandparents
how about no

these people might be able to help you. http://www.scientology.org/age-of-answers/