Death

OP, when a friend dies people arent concerned about who gets to grieve more. It doesnt turn into a grieving contest.

Honor your feelings. If you feel sad then you feel sad and you shouldnt fight it. You have a right to be upset. If its more than what your brother is feeling, then so what? Everyone grieves in different amounts in their own ways.

Its not like your brother is going to call you out and say "hey stop feeling more sad than me! He was MY friend more!" Wtf? He would like an asshole. He would never do that

>>18045431
Thank you, I only really got to know him over the past few months, and he was an absolute delight. But I guess in my own way, I'm worried that I'm turning something tragic into being about myself, adding another layer of guilt. I'm feeling alot of different things at the moment.

>>18045466

If youre worried that youre accidentally making it about yourself then youre not. If you were making it about yourself then you would have already made the conscious effort and decision to make it about yourself and wouldnt be worrying about it.

Whatever you are feeling, dont fight the emotions. Embrace them and feel them as they come.

>>18045482
I sincerely thank you for your help, anon. I've been keeping my grief a secret from the family, but I'll try to be more open about it when I get chance.

>>18045489

No problem friend. The good times are just a little ways over the hill.