does being a father get any better

It did for me. I wasn't in your life situation but to me my kids were just pooping machines. My youngest is now 4. Honestly i couldn't see any future without him.

Im a terrible person and it is because I see the world that way. But i don't want him to see it like i do. I will protect him as much as i can but one day he will see it like we do.

Put up a front. Teach him real life. Not this 4chan life of everything sucks and everything lets you down stuff. Please, for our kids sake, show your child the way

>>18038492
stop making excuses for being an ass, your aware that you're being a bad parent and husband so you can change it. having a shot childhood is no excuse for treating your child badly. I was beat and raped as a child but I still love my kids and care for them without being a resentful ass. you sound like a weak little bitch that wants to wallow in you poor potty me act. your on 4chan talking shit on a tiny 3 month old baby, that's pretty pathetic. man up and stop pittying yourself for your past and using it as an excuse to be a pice of shit

Man oh man. I'm pretty sexist already on account of absorbing tumblrina shit.

So I always suspect that fathers, who have no obvious biological trigger to start caring about their own child, can never love children. Fuck.

Thanks for the pain op

>>18038631
Way to shit on a victim of abuse and trauma.
You even managed to make this about your feelings. Fuck man, try being a better person okay?

>>18038492
You know that counseling will help, right?

You did not have the benefit of a great parenting experience. Get some help.

Also, your child will become a person so lovable that you will not be able to imagine having these doubts.

Still, get help to be your best you.

>>18038654
It's not gonna help, babies are fucking gross

He just needs to focus on work and avoid coming home until late when everyone's asleep and repeat that for a few years until it can actually talk

What the fuck is this self pity circlejerk? > woe is me im terrible boohoo!
Nigger how you gonna come on adv and ask some anon to tell you what youre gonna feel. Threads like these piss me off so much holy fucking shit I feel bad for your kiddos, not because you are self diagnosed sociopaths but because youre immature retards.

I'm sorry for what happened when you were five, but you've not five now. Your life isn't about you anymore it's about your kid. What's happened to you has no doubt happened before and probably will happen to someone eventually. Just think about what kind of father your kid will make with a parental figure such as you.

People can be victims of class, genes, biology, or sheer bad-luck. I'm not even trolling, but shitty parenting is a cycle that produces shitty people. You didn't have a good start and it's fucking horrible what you were dealt, but now you've brought another life into the world because society doesn't condone selective sterilization.

Change has to begin with you, anon. A kid can't raise a kid. Good luck.