I have a weird taboo of wanting to show my girlfriends nudes

I think it's largely natural. I have the exact same thing. Stuff like painal and girls crying gets me off tbqh.

It's probably due to my early experiences with women being very shitty, my mother especially, if you look at it from a psychological point of view.

But it's not abnormal in any way.

Okay first things first. If you must show them to people, literally show them in person. If a guy decided to be a dickface and upload them online and her face is visible and all that, you can literally ruin her life/career with no end in sight just because she wanted to please you and be a nice girlfriend sending you naughty stuff. You did not choose to get turned on from this but if you consciously choose to risk all that to get your rocks off then you are a disgusting human being.

Secondly, there's different options. You can look for internet communities revolving around sadism, ask them for advice ("ethical sadism") and see if you find stuff there you can work with. You could look for therapy, online if you don't dare to face someone. Therapy doesn't have to cover your full development/personality/life, it can just be aimed at working around something specific that causes issues in your life.
Obviously you could try to opt for a girlfriend who gets off on this stuff right away. Inb4 then it's not real, like with cuckolding intense humiliation tends to be twofold - yeah they get off on it, but that doesn't mean they don't sincerely feel disrespected.

>>18006761
It IS abnormal. Not necessarily "something touched you when you were little"-abnormal, but by far most people want to see their loved one happy and in pleasure and not hurting physically or emotionally.

>>18006750
I have some pretty exploitive thoughts about qt panhandlers on the side of the road. As long as you keep it as a fantasy you'll be okay.

>>18006774
Lol you wish. Deep down we all have schadenfreude. The human condition is to want to see things suffer especially in sexual situations. Why do you think asian girls in general moan like young girls in porn?

On a genetic level aggressive sex is appealing to certain people. How do you explain away the large amount of BDSM porn?

>>18006782
Schadenfreude doesn't mean that at all, it's humor found at the expense of someone else. Particularly it refers to seeing someone you dislike have something unpleasant happen to them.
Wanting to see your loved one suffer is sadism, plain and simple. Schadenfreude is not pretty but innocent as well, it's the guilty chuckle when someone falls over in a dumb way. Not wanting to see your girl cry.

>How do you explain away the large amount of BDSM porn?
A lot of men have things that turn them on that they don't wish to act out with a girlfriend they find loveable and cute. Most men are fine with seeing a porn actor slap their dick in the face of a girl, and don't necessarily want to do that with the girl they're in love with at all. Let alone more hardcore stuff involving real pain.

Even abandoning pain and the Madonna-whore thing itself, most people watch porn of more extreme stuff than would appeal to them in real life.

And it's different with Asian countries, they have a sexual narrative in which it's considered hot when the woman is as passive as possible and sex is done to her. Hence why they "cry" out of discomfort and keep their mouths limp during kissing sometime. They see it as feminine more than as real sincere suffering, it is an exaggeration of a modest woman being exploited.

>>18006768
No I'm not showing anyone but when I'm fapping to the idea the worst sounding the outcome the hotter it sounds. I just don't want to be like this at all and it wouldn't count if the girl liked it and I wouldn't want a girl like that.

>>18006799
Eh, what's in your head isn't really anyone's business. Have you ever had a steady sexual relationship? Do you know/think you could be fulfilled with this just remaining a fantasy?

>>18006798
Of course they want to act it out, otherwise why would they watch the porn?

Unironically I don't care about care about women, and I have loads of friends who lift and are very involved in university life who also don't care about women. We share nudes all the time and laugh at the girls. It's entirely normal, maybe not socially acceptable, but that's why you don't let girls or cucks into your social circles.

People were literally sharing nudes of girls in middle school where I'm from, and then laughing at them. You might dislike it, get triggered by it, cut yourself over it, but it's not abnormal.

>>18006798
Also forgot to add but obviously a lot of people are also into BDSM in real life. The difference is that they want it with consenting partners who enjoy being submissive/masochist.

The reason why most people who like to be hurt like that, is because the adrenaline rush they get makes sex more intense, because it is "dominant" to them, and because the sudden absence of pain deepends the pleasure of the good feelings.

It's not typically because they want to be with someone who wants them to hurt in a bad way. Safe words exist exactly to differentiate between acting out and sincerely not enjoying it - the latter not being the intended goal at all.

>>18006802
Yes I have had a steady sexual relationship one time I made the mistake of starting it and I wish I never did and ever since I've had very powerful urges to do it for some reason I feel like if I don't do it I might not get turned on by sex and won't be able to get hard but I haven't got laid in forever so it's hard to tell what's going on I feel like it channels my sexuality and it's necessary for my brain

I told the girl I like now (but it's serious) that I was gonna show her nudes to my friends and that I did and stuff and now I feel like shit and crazy and stupid over it. I just had another urge to do it before I made this post I'm ignoring and just talking to her.

I honestly wish I could stop this more than anything and sometimes if I do drugs or alcohol I get the urge really bad with no inhibitions and it gets hard to fight. This all started when I started using nude amateur self shot type pictures instead of porn to madturbate for some reason it got me crazy turned on knowing that girl didn't want people to see then I got nudes from girls and my brain just "hmmm, what if...?" It literally makes me so horny my body goes cold and I shake a little and I get rock hard and I can't even stop myself from having an orgasm and sometimes I even stay hard after

>>18006808
Lol no. Look at prior societies and it's obvious that it's a genetic want for extremely aggressive sex, which would in prior societies manifest in rape, however today it manifests in bdsm and fetishes.

The rapists in antiquity would have loads of kids, so of course the genes would proliferate. Of course rape is wrong, but it doesn't mean that there's not an innate desire for aggressive sex by a sizable portion of the male population.

>>18006807
You really don't watch stuff you think is hot to look at/think about but would be gross or too extreme in real life?

Being an asshole is entirely normal in the sense that it's common, sure.

There's also women who make fun of men's performances and dicks etc. There is a word for that and it's cunts.

Still though I'm pretty sure most of those don't literally get aroused from seeing their partner cry. I don't think sharing nudes is uncommon, I just think most get an ego stroke from it or feel like the man for landing that girl and rubbing it in your friends' faces rather than that they get rock hard from the idea that they're disrespecting her.

>>18006817
Aggressive sex doesn't have to be sex that is experienced as unpleasant by the receiving party. Look at how many women have a thing for pretend rape.

>>18006820
You really don't get it. Ruining girls is a common fetish. Why do you think when you go on pornhub there will be videos titled anally ruined and similar, which are very popular.

And of course everyone wants to act out fetishes in real life, they just don't want to deal with the possible repercussions of enacting fetishes.

It's quite common in the homosexual community for bottoms to want to be fucked painfully.

>>18006822
Pretend rape is literally a desire to be raped that manifests itself in soft core due to the possible repercussions in modern society.

In antiquity if you were raped the rapists genes would usually be strong as he probably just finished ransacking your village and killing all the worker drone farmers because he was a part of the warrior class. The genes of this man who just killed all the farmers are obviously in some way superior for your future child, and as such the girl manifests a rape fetish as it was beneficial to reproduction.

It's not because LUL MAN THEY'RE SO MEAN. Human genes are innately mean because in history after you killed someone you would rape their women, which happened very often in every society. 500 years isn't enough to fix this.