How do I find purpose

>>17983362
I relate. It's difficult anon but I remind myself I have a life to live, my family and music. Everyone seems so happy and graduating from college and I feel so stupid and retarded honestly. Having families and I sit here alone at night posting on 4chan. But Idk anon. Life seems so hard.

>>17983362
What do you think you'd be interested in developing a passion for? What are your skill sets? As for the connection with people, that's a necessary thing in order to live life instead of just existing in life. Are there meetups or group activities in your community where you can socialize and make connections with others?

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I didn't find any. I don't play vidya, I browse 4chan instead, sometimes, without reading anything. As soon as I stop, going to sleep, anxiety strikes, as I am not able to escape my thoughts, it repeats every day. I will definitely off myself before 25, as there are no prospects in my life and I know that unconsciously I don't want all these things people seek, although I suffer by not having them.

>>17983616
>live life instead of just existing in life

This sentence hit me like a ton of bricks.

you don't

>>17983362
Get some money and go travelling around the world for 6-12 months. It will change your life.

Hah. You don't. You build it.

>>17983628
Yeah. It hit me hard too when another said it to me. Living life instead of existing in life is hard and painful. Anon, it's worth it though even if you don't feel it right now. I don't feel like living or even like existing sometimes like this weekend. It's hard. It feels like shit. But I believe fighting for living and not just existing is worth it.

>>17983628
anon have you tried anxiety medication? I take gabapentin. anyway its worth a shot.

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>>17983677
Anxiety is not related with disease I might have had, which is fixed by medication, I'd rather say it's purely conditional. I wouldn't worry if, how dull and obvious it sounds, had I nothing to worry about.

>>17983628
>>17983362
Do not worry, my friend
We all have a niche in our world
Dont die, take your role

Find it soon

>>17983362
Some people can live without purpose but other can't.
you sound like me a year ago.
if you are suicidal the whatever Idea you seem to think is greater than yourself, apply it.
It doesn't have to be good, it could be evil.
Hell if you had the views of the average /pol/ack but finally find meaning in your life that's a win

Maybe participate in a team sport?

>>17983677
>eat your new thoughts
I bet they work by reducing the feeling of anxiety, not resolving the cause nor showing a new approach - like psychedelics would.

As for OP, I threw my life out of the window. I was certain that nothing would ever happen that would fix the world or push it to the right direction. I was just gazing at doom and retards who call it progress (just compare the style of architecture today and a hundred or two ago- it represents everything others do to me and everything I love). but the moment I discard my life, EU begins to crumble, USA elects a president who doesn't arm terrorists and seems to be against bombing the free nations.

For progressives to have felt the world bowing down to them for seventy years.. Now they experience their first losses, they tear down and start wrecking up the world.
Why? How disgusting can you be? I'm from a nation that's been slaves for a thousand years. In all my life there have been two positive changes in world politics. I'm so grateful for them, but those creatures had it all for them in the past, yet all they can do is bicker?

>>17983628
>As soon as I stop, going to sleep, anxiety strikes, as I am not able to escape my thoughts
this

I take medication but still can barely sleep. I am very close to dropping out of uni right now yet I feel no motivation to do anything. I feel frustration, self-hatred, anxiety and I don't want to live anymore. I don't know why I am throwing away my life. I don't know why I just don't do anything about my situation. Just a few years ago everything was going more than great. Then I ruined everything and became addicted to escapism. Now my life is in shambles and just keeps getting worse.

>>17983362
Hi anon. There is no need to be driven by something, or achieving anything. No need to love anyone, no need to be close to anyone. Things are just the way they are.
Me, I am kind of chaos. Sometimes I feel like I would need to achieve anything - go for it, get it, feel empty again. Life a while just seeing what's happening. Don't take things too serious. Sometimes I feel like I need to connect to people and at other times I prefer to stay alone.
All in all I am here to see, what's this all about, and the more I look, the more I got the feeling, there is no big purpose or reason or anything.
Things are just the way they are. Sometimes I like to adventure and walk on the mountains, sometimes I just surf 4chan. Sometimes I am having impact on peoples life, and sometimes I am just here.

No idea mate. If a purpose comes up, you will feel it. But it doesn't take any effort to stay alive. Do whatever you do. You are right the way you are.