Ok so I hope this is the right place to get this off my chest and ask for some advice.
I recently met this girl through steam, I initially added her (didn't know it was a girl until a bit later) for erp and at first she seemed hesitant, over a couple days I give up and stop being thirsty and just talk to her like a friend, eventually I develop a feeling for her, of course this to no avail due me living in Venezuela and her being in Germany, she confesses that she feels something for me too but I don't feel it that way, anyways, she says she's a bit unstable and that she's gone to a psychiatric ward a couple times and I just don't care because I'm falling for her, I would often say that I love her but she's not putting any effort , that I'm just another one of her +100 friends, etc, and today I just broke down and went all in on her, told that I hate her that she's doing it wrong etc etc, I made her cry and now I feel like an absolute mother fucker, I apologized and gave her some time to recover but she threatened to call the clinic and a suicide prevention hotline, plus a couple words about hurting herself, I'm scared that she actually goes through and does something crazy, it's been like an hour since we talked but I'm beyond worried and I can't hold myself cause I fell for her really hard, what should I do? Give her a couple days then ask how she's doing? Or just wait until she messages me back? I will never forgive myself if she hurts herself.
I don't know if I should give more details, she's 18 I'm 20, she's often lazy and perhaps a bit rude, and I know I'm not entitled to being the center of her universe, but sometimes jealously eats me inside out
>i'm in Venezuela
>she's in Germany
>we're friends of steam
>i'm falling for her
I had to stop there, man
your feelings are significant, but this situation doesn't seem significant. what's going to come out of this steam relationship?
I guess a steam relationship can be okay, but curb your expectations a little bit
the fact you two are falling in love with each other over steam most likely means you two need to get out more
>>17976409
sorry to be cynical, btw
this is just one person's perspective
>>17976409
I mean, between job, college, living in a piece of shit place and just not being in the mood, she's like the only person that makes me happy, and I don't want to go back to my dull routine, we often share selfies and stuff, so I don't know if that helps. Sorry for the cringe I just need to get this off my chest.
>>17976420
it's not cringe
I was just suggesting that you get involved with society more so that the next girl you fall in love with will be at arms length
I know that's easier said than done. I'm very social and I feel like I'm disappearing/gonna pass out a lot of the time.
>>17976425
I do get involved but no one really catches my attention, I just enjoy her company and the hours long chats, and her personality is intoxicating to me.
>>17976450
I understand that she is special and that you're not connecting with any of the folks around, but I just don't see falling in love over steam as having that big of a payoff
I'm sure lots of the people around you are perfectly loveable, but no connection is being made, for whatever reason.