Ok so I hope this is the right place to get this off my chest

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Ok so I hope this is the right place to get this off my chest and ask for some advice.

I recently met this girl through steam, I initially added her (didn't know it was a girl until a bit later) for erp and at first she seemed hesitant, over a couple days I give up and stop being thirsty and just talk to her like a friend, eventually I develop a feeling for her, of course this to no avail due me living in Venezuela and her being in Germany, she confesses that she feels something for me too but I don't feel it that way, anyways, she says she's a bit unstable and that she's gone to a psychiatric ward a couple times and I just don't care because I'm falling for her, I would often say that I love her but she's not putting any effort , that I'm just another one of her +100 friends, etc, and today I just broke down and went all in on her, told that I hate her that she's doing it wrong etc etc, I made her cry and now I feel like an absolute mother fucker, I apologized and gave her some time to recover but she threatened to call the clinic and a suicide prevention hotline, plus a couple words about hurting herself, I'm scared that she actually goes through and does something crazy, it's been like an hour since we talked but I'm beyond worried and I can't hold myself cause I fell for her really hard, what should I do? Give her a couple days then ask how she's doing? Or just wait until she messages me back? I will never forgive myself if she hurts herself.

I don't know if I should give more details, she's 18 I'm 20, she's often lazy and perhaps a bit rude, and I know I'm not entitled to being the center of her universe, but sometimes jealously eats me inside out