Just got out of the psych ward where I felt safe and judgement-free, happy even. Being around people like me and being understood felt awesome. Now that I'm discharged, I don't want to go back to trying to pretend I'm "normal" anymore. It feels good being me. I just want some thoughts on what it means to be myself in a positive healthy way with "normal" people who don't have a mood disorder. Pic unrelated.
Just be yourself. Don't worry too much about judgements. everybody is different and thus nobody is perfect. Some people will just have to accept you, as long of course you don't put thier life in danger.
>>17971346
Yeah the judgements part isn't something I'm worried about anymore thankfully. I just am really open about having been in the psych ward and my experiences which seem off-putting to some people. Is it wrong to share that? I don't understand why people get so weird about it. Nobody gets weird about people talking about the cancer they survived or the surgery they're recovering from.
>>17971360
Just keep talking to ppl. Figure out what makes them uncomfortable. Think about it from their perspective.
It's good that you're trying to help yourself.
>>17971808
Thanks. I don't want to lose this new found freedom in myself yet I also want to make sure I'm interacting as best as I can in a healthy way with people in general. I just feel more comfortable around others who are "disordered" like me.
>>17971360
It's fear. Nobody's afraid that a cancer patient is going to suddenly "snap" and bludgeon them to death with a chair leg.
But mental illness is associated with "danger" in many people's minds, and in the mass media. The stereotype of the violent lunatic is still pervasive.
That doesn't mean their feelings are justified, of course. It's statistically more reasonable to be afraid of a black man than a depressed man for example, and yet racial profiling is widely considered unacceptable.
Just something to keep in mind.
>>17971878
Ok. So this fear, would it be dispelled by my continuing to be open?
>>17971326
>myself in a positive healthy way with "normal" people who don't have a mood disorder
that never worked for me, i always got anxious around people who i thought were "too cool" or "too normal" because i am/was not able to be like that & always felt i sent out the weirdo-signals and could read it on their faces
so find some group activities you can go to and kind of blend in, i was never able to be the center of attention etc and always like to be hidden on the side
but still it helped me muchly to go out there because surprise, other non-normies are also out there and they don't all sit in their damn rooms playing video games and watching porn
I don't think I'm anxious as much as I used to be. I'm just worried about being comfy as I am only around others like me and I don't want that at all.