I just got raped (I think?)

yes, that was rape anon.
I'm actually sorry that happened to you, he pulled a powerplay over you because he knew he could get away with it and that you couldn't do anything against him about it.

it leaves you feeling defenseless, and he knew it. the fact that you tried to stop it definitely means it was not consensual.

It wasn't "some kind of rape", it was rape. You were clear about not being on board. You think he misunderstood your very simple and straightforward communication after he dropped his pants? No, he just didn't give a fuck about what you wanted.

I'm sorry this happened to you. Try to get help if only calling to an anonymous helpline. You might be able to talk with someone there about whether or not you want to take any legal steps.

>>17966304
Hell yeah it was rape.

>couldn't kiss the guy sucking my dick
he raped me

Not an amerifag

No, you weren't raped. You found yourself in a situation which was unsettling for you emotionally and in hindsight maybe also physically, but as you said; you were confused and aroused. You said you played along, which you did. Not playing along is saying "stop that", multiple times, even when he doesn't listen. Trying to kiss him, obligingly (despite reluctantly) giving him head is agreeing to sex, as long as he isn't theatening you or you felt you weren't threathened.

With the current "rape-culture" stuff going on I bet my opinion is impopular. I see how this is awful for you, emotionally and physically. Equal or even more so as a real rape victim, as you were actually there amd regret being used and emotionally and physically. You have some shit to deal with. But I don't see how this would ever hold up as rape. Not if you would confront the guy, nor if you'd take this to court. At the time, you were confused, sorta liked it, were sorta excited, didn't tell him to fuck off and he didn't threathen or beat you into submission because you were fighting for yourself.

Mind you, I would tell the same to my girlfriends in this situation. I do sympathize with you (a lot) but this was a sexual mistake on your behalf, not rape. Please learn from it, learn not to be curious or remotely excited in dubious sexual situations, before you actually end up being raped.

> tldr: OP didn't clearly say no to guy and complied to several sexual actions out of curiousity or confusion. Didn't show clear verbal or physical resistance. Not rape.

>>17966304
How about next time you bit his fucking dick till it bleeds.

Go watch the Shawshank redemption

>>17966397

Naturally this is my opinion on OP's case, not in general. If people are mentally challenged, are intoxicated, have been stalked or threathened before the incident, etc. in a way they can't or are too afraid to resist and say no, it's another story.

Also, not going to enter a discussion about this, just giving OP answer to his question.

I wouldn't say you raped but you were pressured into doing something you initially didn't want to do but had every opportunity to say no to. It's terrible and I'm sorry you had that experience. Stand up for yourself and know you're not less no matter how you feel.

>>17966397
I don't understand reasoning like this. Why is all the responsibility on OP to tell him off "fiercely enough"? Why has the other guy zero responsibility and can he harass, insult and use OP just fine as long as OP isn't braking "no no no" over and over again? They are both adults here.

The guy dropped his pants, asked for bj. OP said no, that's not something I want. Done, denial number one.
Then there's the part where he was "already sucking" OP off. Too little detail but sounds like he just started unbuttoning and went to town.
Then OP said no, I don't want anything anymore. The guy kept fondling OP to keep him hard.

What more should OP have done? How did he not say no "enough"? He said no. Sure, not everything OP did was fully dismissive of him, but the guy really should have stopped right when OP told him no thanks, I only have sex in relationships. That was his rejection and he ignored it and just started touching him even to the point of oral sex.

Also, not sure if you ever experienced this but if you're a healthy young man you WILL get hard if someone touches your dick persistently enough. Even if you are not in the mood to have sex whatsoever. That's biology, we're designed to fuck ultimately.

And I'm not American either.