Prison?

>>17944905

>killing myself is not an option cuz im a christfag

but christ forgives all sins as long as you ask for forgiveness as you die. jsut admit you dont want to kill yourself

>i cant join a monastery because im divorced

actually you can if your marriage is nullified and proving yourself to be a true christfag will make any priest nullify it.

>cant join military cuz already did

yo uare allowed to re enter the military at entry level and can actually join different branches so lon gas you dont have a tattoo in the wrong spot

>i cant holddown a job

maybe work on trying to hold down a job then.

>prison
>structured enviornment

if by structured you mean the exact same thing every single fucking day, yes, it is the exact same thing every fucking day. but structured tends to also refer to wholesome and prison is not wholesome. therei s nothing structured about wondering if today is the day you get gangraped.

>3 square meals a day

also false. prison meals lack nutrition and are shitty as fuck, cheapest meals possible

>a warm bed

false, it is a cold bed, a very uncomfortable one, and often infested with bed bugs or other issues.

>a lot of time to sit and think

nope. you'll have plenty of time to work and plenty of time to fearfully sit in a corner wondering what the fuck is going to happen next, and plenty of time to listen to the never ending yells of all the real prisoners. but not time to think.

just keep applying, then do your job. its that easy. way easier than prison. just because something is forced up your ass doesn't mean its easy to take it.

i havent been to prison but i live in a prison

>Killing myself is not an option because I'm a christfag.
>It's totally ok to kill people in the name of your country

>>17944946

bible says its okay to kill, just not to murder. suicide is a murder of self, not a kill of self.

>>17944937
I know myself and I know what I can't change. I'm a world class fuck up.

>>17944963

uh huh. thats how you survive in the military for ten years. by /not/ being able to do a basic job

>>17944905
>My only concerns

u = clueless

prison is full of hyper aggressive macho assholes and you will be picked on, beat up, ass raped and made somebodys bitch

1/2w 1/2b neither of those groups will want you unless you're willing to prove your chops by stabbing somebody or something like that

instead do search for salvationarmy.org they have gr8 shelters & rehab programs