how do I go on with my life when I've had memories and anxieties of ostracism since the age of 3 and haven't made a single friend with an equal relationship
find love within yourself
and then make friends
and learn that you do not need to feel alienated
>>17944174
what if I don't even know what love is?
>>17944179
then you are Haddaway
>>17944179
sorry. all joking aside, nobody can really tell you about love, you have discover it
but surely you do know it somehow
any tips?
>>17944193
not sure if you're asking me
but maybe
just ask yourself 'what do i love'? and see what comes up
>>17944200
i dont want to be a drag but i just feel like nothing comes up... its as though i've tricked myself into loving certain things when in reality i don't.
i really feel like i have no clue what love is anymore.
>>17944206
so in reality you love nothing?
i find that hard to believe
maybe the things you think you've tricked yourself into believing you love when you actually don't are actually things that you love; and you only 'trick' yourself when you believe you don't love them
or maybe its something bigger than them
i dunno
same boat OP unfortunately i also haven't found a solution yet too.