It started with a long term fwb two years ago who was originally my sub. Overtime we started getting interested in cuckold, BBC, pegging, etc...and it turned into something more. She would go fuck other people and come home to me and it was incredibly gratifying to fuck her afterward, to smell, etc...
We stopped seeing each other about a year ago but it progressed. Her and I had a MFM once that she had me experiment a bit with the guy, but since then I've went totally off the deep end. I self-identify as straight, and feel upset after I get home, but I've met three guys through various apps that regularly fuck me. They all humiliate me and one is black. It feels hot while I'm doing it, but after I cum I feel disgusted. I'm worried about disease and I'm worried about being able to have normal sex again. These guys only penetrate me-not the other way.
use protection
>>17940224
We use protection with anal but not oral, which I've read is pretty much safe. But I'm more trying to break out of this asap.
>>17939067
So basically your suffering cognative dissonance, because your gay but society has conditioned you to believe that being gay Is immoral and thus your should not do it. Well that's up to you pal, if your religious/Christian you have some thinking to do. Either cum (lol) to terms with your gayness and embrace it, or stop and feel morally superior I guess? Either way I believe morality is subjective and it doesn't fucking matter cause well all be dead soon ish anyways.
>>17939067
>I self-identify as straight
you don't seem very straight to me. come to terms with your sexuality.
You're gay. Deal with it
read a bible, you know you're better than this. ignore the moral relativists in the previous
Breaking news: op is a faggot. Who would have tought.
Op you're as gay as it comes, deal with it
>>17941413
this. no one cares wehat you 'self identify' as OP.
everyone says they are one thing, but actions speak louder than words.
you're bi at best, or perhaps the cuck fetish was just what made you realize you were gay. hard to say.
but you like to be fucked and you like to be humiliated.
my advice? just dont feel guilty afterwards. explain that its okay to have sex and you're playing safe, andi f you want to play even safer, get on PrEP. its more effective than a condom so if you use both you pretty much cant get HIV ever.
pro tip: if you're on grindr than it doesn't matter what you 'self identify' as.