Anyone else just bored? There aren't any words in the English language, which is my only language, to accurately describe how I feel. I am not even a real man yet and I fell completely disillusioned. I can't explain, honestly this post is just a sort of cathartic release for me.
Ever read Notes From Underground or listen to Sountracks for the Blind? It's how I feel. And I don't understand.
I'm not sure what I am even getting at.
>>17931730
I get it dude. I've felt this way for a few years. Work, friends, relationships, objects etc just do nothing for me. It's like something is missing or there's something more that I'm not doing but I have no idea what it is.
Babys first existential crisis?
Just keep yourself busy until you die.
We all feel it. But what can you do aside from run from it?
>>17931730
The word you're looking for is the Russian "toska":
>Toska - noun /ˈtō-skə/ - Russian word roughly translated as sadness, melancholia, lugubriousness.
>"No single word in English renders all the shades of toska. At its deepest and most painful, it is a sensation of great spiritual anguish, often without any specific cause. At less morbid levels it is a dull ache of the soul, a longing with nothing to long for, a sick pining, a vague restlessness, mental throes, yearning. In particular cases it may be the desire for somebody of something specific, nostalgia, love-sickness. At the lowest level it grades into ennui, boredom.
>Vladimir Nabokov
Tl;dr: learn Russian, you monolingual fuck
>>17931730
I know what you're saying, things that fix this can include but are not limited to
- practicing a skill
- exercise
- spending time with people, or even just going places outside
- masturbating
- eating
...
the list goes on. I don't think that feeling ever truly goes away during those times where you can't find a way to keep yourself busy. Some people get depressed and some people just feel complete apathy, but that's what makes feeling good... good.
>>17931730
Distract yourself by immersing in hobbies or else you'll end up like me - someone who participates in risky, adrenaline-rushing things just to feel thrill.
Life is essentially just a long march towards death
Nothing has meaning unless we trick ourselves into believeing so
I like that other people are on this long march with me and I stay with them so we can play games and make jokes distracting us from the inevitable end of the line
You have to find what makes the march worth it.
>>17931789
I'm monolingual burgerland scum, and I just wanted to say I find that cool as fuck.
I want to learn Spanish. Or French for Quebecbros.