I'm romantically frustrated, what do? >22 >social

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I'm romantically frustrated, what do?

>22
>social outcast
>never had a girlfriend
>never kissed, held hands, had sex, etc.
>somehow out of some strange star alignment I find a girl who's actually interested in me
>feel happiness and excitement for love for once in my life
>she reveals something that's a personal dealbreaker
>try it I find out I can't live with those views
>break it up before it got anywhere
>still never kissed, held hands, had sex, etc.

I was so close. I had it in my hands. The one time I ever got a chance to live a happy normal life gone.

I can't look at people in relationships anymore. All they do is remind me of my frustration and failure. And these things are everywhere. I can't avoid it. Porn saddens me now too, and it used to be a stress reliever. The best way I can describe it is someone dangling something I want in front of my head and pulling back when I try to reach it. And then everyone else telling me "lol its not so hard to grab bro its right in front of you"

I've had this feeling for over a year now. It's practically ruined my life. I'm so lonely and frustrated I don't know what to do. The fact that I got so close too just makes it worse. I probably could have ignored it if I didn't come close.

I also fear that feelings like this make me comparable to Elliot Rodger or something and I don't want to be looked at that way.