Any other forever alone hikikomori girls here? I need support
>tfw hate almost everybody
>still lonely
>no friends other than a few internet pals
>everybody irl dislikes you or doesn't care about you because too quiet and distant
>rarely go outside
>had only one real crush in entire life so far
>probs fucked it up already by acting like dumb boring bitch and feeling inadequate
>spend most of the time watching tv series, playing vidya and browsing internet
>try to change but eventually get discouraged and go cry in the corner as usual
>or doesn't care about you because too quiet and distant
I mean I can empathize with that feeling, but what do you expect? I remember trying to reach out to some gal a while ago, and from my perspective she just gave me a cold shoulder. So I moved on, and this apparently upset her since she didn't know how to communicate her feelings. It's good you're acknowledging the problem, but you have to actually act on it.
>>17885620
>try to change
What did you actually try and for how long?
>spend most of the time watching tv series, playing vidya
Why do you even think anything will ever change to the better if you waste your life away like that?
>>17885635
>but what do you expect
nothing obviously
I've struggled all my life and made some progress but I'm still cold and awkward and don't know how to make emotional connections and I hate it
>>17885620
Why has no one created an online service for male and female hikikomori to meet up and be awkward together?
>>17885659
Online dating is a thing. Although being a faggot who self-disconnected from society is not the best starting condition for ... anything.
>>17885647
breh I try to talk to people and make friends. get new hobbies, try meditating, read advice and try to learn something. it lasts from few days to a month until I start hating it or get discouraged. I am weak. later I get sick of my life and start again from the beginning. the cycle goes on and not much changes.
>>17885620
Which vidya is your favourite? What do you play in general?
>>17885677
It's less of being weak but being able to fall back into laziness, because why the fuck not, you can, at least until someone supports your lifestyle.
Cut off the pointless consuming of media and stick to some actual activity, if you get sick of it ... don't fall back to media, eventually you'll get bored enough of doing nothing and will finish something you started.
Also it's better getting some hobbies first, without them, you're bound to be boring. Getting some shitty job would be even better, it'd force you to interact with people all the time and eventually you'd also develop decent enough social skills, although given the current situation, it'd be rushing there too fast.