i am a fucking asshole, but i dont want to be alone

How about: stop being an asshole, be nice to people and make friends

>>17878630
The problem is that I want to stop being alone, just for my own benefit. I am unable to be interested in others.
>make friends
i have friends and i hate those motherfuckers

>>17878642
Don't cut yourself on that edge OP

>>17878619
This is an appropriate time of year to point out that you have undoubtedly read of seen A Christmas Carol. The way to stop being an asshole is to wake up one morning and decide not to be an asshole any more. It really is that simple.

>>17878619
Just look for other mentally damaged people. There are tons of dysfunctional relationships, so clearly some hope for you!

Or grow the fuck up and stop being an asshole.

>>17878772
Some people are assholes without realizing that they are assholes or just hold really warped worldviews that cause them to justify that behavior. If people with personality disorders or years of abuse could change that easily, the world wouldn't have so many dickish people. But you are right in the sense that the first step towards change is making a conscious effort to achieve it.