I feel trapped. I don't know why. Everything is falling down. I shouldn't feel like this. Nobody understands. Why was I born into a poor family? Why am I not as smart as my peers? Why can't I better myself as a person? I just keep letting everyone down, including myself. I can't keep doing this, I can't. I don't know how to get out. I want out.
For some people, every single waking day of their lives, is exactly like that.
It gets better, just don't stress forever. Life will tighten it's grip, but it wont strangle you. There is opportunity up ahead.
if you keep letting yourself down just lower you expectations
What the fuck do you want advice on? This board isn't just to whine and bitch. Saying "omg my life is so so hard guys omg :(((" will get you nowhere; everyone has tough shit to deal with. Take advantage of what these anons have to say and tell us what you need help on, you autist.
>>17870504
>If you're a shitty, worthless person just accept being a shitty, worthless person.
Yeah I guess that's all I'll ever be.
>>17870501
>For some people, every single waking day of their lives, is exactly like that.
So I'm fucked?
>There is opportunity up ahead.
I missed it, it isn't coming again.
>Life will tighten it's grip, but it wont strangle you.
Very close. Very very very close.
>>17870510
Ok.
My mom's health problems are getting worse and worse, but I'd like to go off to university soon. I feel bad leaving her alone since she's a single parent. I don't want to endanger my education but I'm going to feel like a huge cunt leaving her behind like this. She won't be able to walk without assistance in a few years and she's in constant pain already. She gets stuck on the toilet for pete's sake. No idea how to handle that.
My sisters grew up with me, their older bro, as a father figure. I feel like leaving so early (the youngest is very young) could be detrimental to their development. Even while I'm here, though, I don't know what to do with them. The eldest two are hostile towards me, and the youngest idolizes me because I'm the only one who gives her attention. I want to be a good brother, but we're poor; I can't exactly take them places and show them the world and shit. There are no experiences besides being mugged to be had in the ghetto. The fuck do I do here?
I'm trying to build skills (coding, drawing, writing, graphic designing) on my old, partially broken shitty ass laptop with absolutely no mentoring, no help whatsoever besides fucking stack overflow bullshit and links from the /prod/ thread in /mu/. All of my shit is ass; the things I put time in are bad, and the things I haven't put time in are just so mind numbing boring to learn about that I space out and forget mid self-lesson. How do I proceed? How do I forge dedication/discipline?
Cont.
>>17870528
I kicked my addiction but the temptation is real. It's hard not to smoke. It truly is. Even with no money cigs some how manage to turn up my way. It's uncanny. I've been saying no thus far but its like the cravings are getting worse rather than better. When does this shit go away? How do I keep this up?
I have about 8 months to change myself entirely as a person. 8 months. I just need some advice, a plan that could solve these problems in that time frame. 8 months, literally, starting today. Also, tryna get /fit/ but I can't buy protein filled foods or go to a gym (last time I went I couldn't even lift 100lbs) so that isn't an option.
bump
I'm not sure what I expected. Thanks adv.
>>17870485
Hahaha you too? Hit me up. No one should be alone, especially when killing themselves.
We can go on like a one way hike to the middle of nowhere and off ourselves, it'll be great.
>>17870485
That photo is beautiful.
If I were you I would probably kms, but... your call.