I want help

One step at a time: First, complete your education/training for a job. Nothing else matters if you don't do this. A job is the way in which you enter "the world": it determines your social life, how you interact with others, what your lifestyle is, and what you can do going forward. No job, no life.

Second, when you're able to support yourself, get interested in something. A hobby, a subject, a task, anything. Relearn what it's like to be enthused. This will be fulfilling for you, but it will also be a start in making you "well rounded."

Third, no need to dwell on your suffering. Other people don't really care, so why should you? Every moment you spend feeling sorry for yourself is wasted. Every moment you spend hating life is wasted. If you want to start loving life, you have to start by making it something worth loving.

>>17863516
These things determining my worth seem so minuscule in the long run. Getting a job and wageslaving away for the rest of my life seems more wasteful. And I've always been an outcast, joining the workforce will just reaffirm this. I'm always the one people laugh at. I'm basically the Jeb Bush of life

>>17863536
Deep in space, all stars seem miniscule.

Getting a job that means nothing to you can be wasteful, especially if you don't make an effort. But the perfect is the enemy of the good: Getting a crummy job is still better for your well-being than being depressed in bed. The hangups you have with being a loser aren't always imagined, but they are self-reinforced. New coworkers or new friends won't think you're a loser until you do losery things in front of them. And even if they do think that, does it really matter? Eventually you'll probably leave them behind for a new job, too, or you'll get married, or your life will turn out well. Regardless, their opinions have exactly as much effect on you as you let them.

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>>17863568
>the perfect is the enemy of the good
Not OP, but basically a depressed fuck as well. That hits the nail on the fucking head as to why I have always spiralled like fucking crazy all my life. Sometimes I have everything going for me, but a meteor of shit (all the problems I can think of in the entirety of the Universe) hit this shitty ass fan (my mind) and I suddenly freeze up and throw everything I have managed to build away in a heartbeat. Things going good doesn't cut it because life is qualitatively the same fucking awful shit it has always been since the dawn of humankind.

>>17863488
No you need therapy you need to talk this out with a professional who knows what they're talking about it sounds like you have serious depression. That's the kind of thing therapy can help you with. Just go there isn't a shortcut to this you just have to do it.

>>17863488
Find an anonymous online friend or two, people will be willing to listen especially since you're female.

>>17863613
>Therapy
Fucking americans. Good goy.

>>17863661
>>17863613
>>17863516
Thanks. I'll try

>>17863611
I hope things start looking up for you again anon.