Is therapy pointless? Or does my therapist just suck? Or am I

>>17857671
Are you telling the whole truth and nothing but the truth

Most people usually try around like 5 therapists before they find one that clicks with them

Every therapist has a different approach and having the right therapist is immensley helpful

>>17857681
I hold things back in therapy, yes.

It's extremely hard for me to let my guard down and admit to some of the things I think and do.

>>17857692
I know it's hard but it'll only work if you work it. I went through months of therapy not feeling like I could trust my therapist with my darkest shit that I'm scared to write down. My girlfriend convinced me when she noticed I would avoid a certain subject constantly and said, "You don't have to tell me, but you need to tell someone".

The things that we're the most afraid to admit are the often most important things to say

>>17857802
You're right. I'll work on that.

>>17857689
This. My first therapist in a while had this 'tough love' approach that I wasn't particularly fond of. I already beat myself up, I don't need somebody to be a drill sergeant for my life. It'll work for others but not for me.

>>17857671
You have BPD and you will are not even coming CLOSE to telling the truth to your therapist. Not even close. You have not even tipped the very tippity top of that iceberg.

This has nothing at all to do with trust. You could have jesus fucking christ sitting right in front of you and still bullshit him.

You're psychotic. That's a very negative sounding term but not so much as defined. You are under a psychosis while speaking with your therapist. Your brain is firing off so many warning sirens, so many insecurities, fears, and other borderline issues that it fries the rest of mind up. It doesn't know how to handle those dangerous things so you resort to the quickest, easier, most reliable form of defense. Bullshit lies. So much easier than facing the horrors you have put onto others with your incredibly disgusting actions. I'm not saying that to be mean. If you have BPD you for sure do a lot of fucked up shit behind people's backs. You hurt people on purpose. You abuse them in order to make yourself seem better. To feel wanted.

You will never crack that psychosis through therapy online. It's a physical chemical reaction in the mind. Your therapist will need to recognize this and deal with it through medication. Only then will you see benefits through therapy. Only then will your mind even have the ability to process the coping tools you learn in therapy.

anti-psychotics, anti-anxiety, and/or SSRIs. Not all of them just the ones most suited to your bullshit.

Also, twice a month isn't enough. Borderlines and Bipolars need more therapy than any other psychosis besides maybe schizos. Go once a week at least.

You need to have your therapist talk to multiple people in your life. They need to see the truth. Not the delusions you give them.

>>17857689
Not only are the therapists different, but with more experience the person seeking someone to talk to also better develops a sense of what is needed, and their resistance also changes.