I am a terrible person and I look down on most people, hate them

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How do I change myself? Growing up I was in a phase of life where I did have a best friend and I liked and trusted him. Then I moved and we drifted apart. Ever since then I have never been able to trust a single person or feel love towards them; very few.

I consistently act in a manner towards people that is downright hurtful to them. If someone doesn't do something I find moral, I make it my job to sabotage them back or "get back at them". I look odwn on post people and find myself pretending to be interested in people just so they don't realize my true opinion of them.
In my defense I had terrible experience with my family where they looked down upon me and disrespected me my whole life, my relatives who I thought were close to me (my cousin) even they spread rumors about me out of jealous and did hurtful things to me.

As a result now I feel no empathy towards my relatives. I even hate my parents (though I feel bad because I remember when i used to love them and it was a good time in my life). What do I do? even my boss who barely lets me work, and practically hands me money; I hate him because he cheats on his wife and I consider him a weak man.

The only moment of love I ever felt was towards this woman I met about two semesters ago at college, but she turned out to be a whore who was already engaged and sleeping with another man (while flirting with me to use me). Ever since then I see no hope in me ever loving someone or being able to mate for them.

Yeah I don't know what my condition is but can anyone relate? I feel nothing almost, except hatred, greed, disgust and anger. I want to feel love for once and not be a schemy shithead.

Only thing that draws me in is the will to dominate people and be better than them, to compete with them and beat them at whatever they are good at.