How do I vary on?

I can explain in further detail if needed.

That depends on what you did to hurt her.

The best thing you could probably do is just talk to her. Explain to her that what you did was an irrational decision based around problems you were dealing with and that you're willing to fix things and get back with her.

If things don't turn out how you want them, then oh well. You're just going to have to move on.

It's not worth killing yourself over.

>>17846932
I just don't think she wants anything to do with me, and if I try to talk to her there's I big chance she is just gonna shut me down and I don't want to put her in an uncomfortable position.

>>17846947
Well what exactly happened that would make her feel this way? Tell me more of the story.

>>17846953
Basically she's had a history of people who have ended there lives. And despite that I said I was gonna kill myself if I didn't get better. She tried to talk to me and help me feel different and I just told her to fuck off, and said things to make her feel like shit so she would go away. We talked later and I said sorry, but she already seemed destroyed by everything is said.

>>17846977
It sounds like both of you have a lot of problems. If I were you I'd try to give her some time and space, then get back in touch afterwards. Tell her you'd like to see her again and plan a hang out. Try to start things over with her. I'd briefly apologize again, but try to move the conversation away from whatever happened as soon as possible. Only continue with it if she wants to talk about it. Don't make yourself seem like the victim, that's the worst thing you could possibly do.