Ashamed of my Hobby

>>17811957
Continued...

I remember at 17 i decided is get rid of my games and miniatures and focus on study and new hobbies.

Then i began to feel anxious, then shame then like a failure. I saw succesful people around me who were fulfilling their goals.

I always day dreamed and fantasized doing things but when realizing how much time I wasted, I fell into a sunk cost mindsst and fled right back to it.

I dont agree with the

>if its fun its not a waste

Read it, heard it many times. I disagree, it doesnt produce anything tangible. Despite doing it, it makes me a hypocrite, but i find that logic terrible.

My post is in bits but I want to be different but fear its too late.

I am not proud who I am, or my achievements.

I have been blessed with a stable and very loving family and I feel i have let them down and I need to make a jump in maturity and soon.

But i dont know how.

Your problem is not the hobby but your feelings of inadequacy and poor self esteem

Vin Diesel is a successful actor and plays D&D. Stop making uses games as scapegoat for your real issues

>>17811957
I think you should take a long time to think on why you feel shame, are you comparing your life to some standard of what you think life should be?

>>17811992
Yes.

I have had flaws in my habits and lifestyles which, during my teens, should have been challenged and addressed. They werent.

I use and still use video games as my main form of entertainment and as escapism. Recently it has let me meet, as I said some really, REALLY nice people. I dont judge them because they're young and genuinely sound.

My expectations of myself based on the standards of people I have seen who are succesful are career focused, sociable, productive, open minded, and dont waste much of their time.

I do compare myself to my peers. They are mostly doing very well. For the 6 years i spent olaying and obsessing a video game I could have learned a language.

For the hours i poured over memorizing abstract rules, I could have fixed my abysmal math.

I dont know. This is one of the very few times ive tried to put my thoughts down and ask for help but its jumbled.

In short: yes I do.

>>17811983
I would say he is an exception than a rule.

>>17811983
This. A hobby is fine, but it isn't a hobby anymore if that's all you do. Game addiction can be tough to get rid of though.

However if you have enough pride, really enjoy gaming 24/7 and are able to manage financially, there's nothing wrong with it as long as you're happy.

If you really aren't happy and are unwillingfully addicted to gaming, find help/therapy.

>>17812007
Do you really WANT to fix your abysmal math and learn a language?

You need ambition and motivation to do these things.

>>17812007
Well I don't think you need to, the most valuable thing we have is time, and how we spend it is at our discretion. Don't go through life comparing yourself to others, because you are not them. Enjoy your time doing what you love, with the people you love. All else comes second. Shit dude would you really want to live in a world where everyone has the same career, hobbies, escapes, everything? No fuck that. There is nothing wrong with wanting to improve yourself, in fact I would encourage it, but that does not entail comparing yourself to the person a or person b, and feeling bad cause "society says that admirable or cool" fuck them. You got the time you got and don't waste it being sad for petty reasons. The fact that you able to sit here and complain on /adv/ is testament to the things you have that others wish for, foolishly as well.

The only shame here is Game Workshop's ever increasing prices. I think I saw a Terminator squad for like 75 bucks. What the actual fuck, it's five tiny pieces of plastic.