Do it.

paint the walls of my room black at night

too embarrassed

even as anon

I fingered my sister when I was a teenager and she was only 7 years old.

I'm a huge hebephile.

>>17796825
I spent my 20s brawling, I carry a gun with me everywhere I go, I push the limits of my body in the gym. Everyone thinks its because I'm tough. I live my life in almost constant terror. I'm afraid all the time. Nobody knows because admitting it would change who I am.

Everyone likes me because they think I'm brave and I'll always be too afraid of losing them to correct them.

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>>17796830
the absolute madman

>>17796825
I've probably masturbated to more traps than women

N-No homo

I have phimosis.

I am majorly emotionally damaged due to traumas and have to constatly fake to be a functional adult. Im not sure if this is how most people are or if it's just me since I only have access to my own head.

I have an almost pathological fear of women.

im a male prostitute.

i make between about 100 and 150 dollars letting old dudes suck on my dick. most of them are into being gagged, so i get to work out my frustrations at the same time.

the best case scenario is a guy comes over, and i choke him on my dick, call him a faggot, and cum in his throat within ten minutes, and they drop a hundred bucks on the way out.

>>17796958

Really? XD

>>17796976

ya rly

My grandparents were Nazis, and I am one. Not even my gf knows

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>>17796999

>Trips of truth.

You will feel at home in /pol

>>17796958
I am hetero as fuck and jelly.

>>17797047

its not bad, but its not great. its not something i do for my only income nor is it something id recommend long term. its the kind of thing you do when money is tight or you just need a little extra cash.

you can start out getting three blowjobs a day, and by the end of the month you're lucky if you get two a week.

but if its somethign you just do in short bursts 2 to 3 times a year, you make some good cash.

It's illegal to do so. But nice try, FBI.
YOU'LL NEVER CATCH ME ALIVE MOTHERFUCKERS.
I'M FREE.
I'M FREE.
I'LL ALWAYS BE FREE!

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>>17797065

I wish the worst for almost everyone. Even my friends. Even my SOs.

I want nobody to be better than me or happier than me.

i planted evidence on a guy and then charged him with a felony

>>17797068
GOOD LUCK I'M BEHIND 7 PROXIES

I have been married happily for 5 years. The only reason I'm still with her is because she sat me down on our 1st anniversary and said we needed to talk. My first thought was she is going to tell me she is cheating. I couldn't have been more wrong. She looked me in the eye and said she was afraid of me. I was shocked I have never been violent with her and had never given her any reason to fear me in any way. I asked her why would she be afraid of me. With tears in her eyes she said she was afraid of me divorcing her and leaving her stranded half way across the country from her friends and family with no money no place to live or way to get back to her family. In that moment I realized she was truly the love of my life I would never have anyone in my life that knew me to my core as well as she did. She was right that was exactly what I was going to do to her. I was going to leave her because of something she had done to me years before. I never told anyone I had planned on doing this, never wrote it down there was no evidence I had planned on leaving her. I was never distant or cold shouldered as far as anyone including her knew we where a perfect couple. We laughed, loved and had few fights but she still knew what I had planned. I looked her in the eye and told her that was ridiculous, she had nothing to worry about that I loved her with all my heart. She cried with relief and I held her we have been together ever since.

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>>17797143
cute

I've fapped to blacked in the past

>>17797149
Thanks first time I have ever talked about it. Thought I would take it to my grave but saw the thread and had to get it off my chest.

>>17796862
Same. Unfortunately some of my friends have picked up on the fact that I only hook up with girls who look much younger than they are.
Gonna have to go on a hiatus or they will become even more suspicious.

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I hate Muslims but I am slowly agreeing with them. They control their woman, kill their mentally ill gays and don't put up with this pc shit.

But the other shit they do is fucking stupid

>>17797143
Your post is like seeing a pearl in a sea of shit.

>>17797183
Didn't expect that reaction. It feels good getting it out there. I could never tell her, it would crush her even though that was the original plan I can't do that to her now.

>>17797183
Your life is a sea of shit

>>17797218
Well, kind of.

>>17797212
>Didn't expect that reaction. It feels good getting it out there. I could never tell her, it would crush her even though that was the original plan I can't do that to her now.
what had she done to you that you had that plan?

I occasionally have really violent dreams. Either about a rock slide that never stops, or hacking stuff with a hand axe. No idea what it means, and never felt it was something appropriate to talk about.

I hate my husband, he is an emotional abuser and the only reason I am with him is because I am an idiot that is too attached of him... I am afraid to be alone.

>>17797231
>>17797231
We had been dating off and on for a couple of years we both cared for each other but neither of us where ready to settle down yet. When we where togwther we stayed faithful. If we where separated we would date other ppl but still hang out on occasion and stay in touch, and look out for each other. During one of our off periods she called drunk one night talking about how she was about to fuck some guy. I told her that's fine we weren't together just be smart use protection etc she had given me the same speech before at parties when I hooked up. She went berserk accusing me of treating her like a dumb child etc. I called one of our mutual friends and let her know to what was going on and see if she would swing by and check on the situation. A few minutes later my phone blows up I'm getting calls and texts from multiple friends of ours accusing me of being jealous, over protective, I need to stay out of her business, why should I have any say in who she is with, all kinds of things it was a mess. When the fallout settled she had turned half of our friends against me. My house got egged and someone spray painted a line down the side of my truck. After that I didn't talk to her for two years she was dead to me she tried multiple time to apologize, blamed it on the alcohol, cried, begged. She had hurt me to deep I didn't listen to any of it and never said a word to her during every apology. I eventually move across the country for work.

>>17796841
Nice. I stared at my cousing panties while she was sleeping. She was 13 and I was 20.

Feet are pretty cool

I'm starting to like SOL anime.

>>17796958

tfw I would like to be a prostitute but am too scared (disease, cops, etc) to try. I hate working. It's more degrading than any sex could ever be. (I'm female.) I've thought about finding virgins to fuck for money to take their V card. No std risk, they'll be easy to please, I look cutesy so I can't be some slutty bimbo style prostitute anyway.

Do you regret doing it? How do you find clients, how did you get into this?

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Through long term solitude, porn exposure and masturbation with various fetish exploration I've developed a cuck fetish.

Later while having sex with new gf I would imagine her being fucked by a nigger to get off. Actually, I was finding it hard to come without imagining it.

Now that I'm single again I watch porn and always imagine that the porn actress is my wife.

I even slowly stop being horrified by it, just embracing it.

>>17798535
Not this guy, but I'll respond to it anyway.

That's actually an interesting business idea imo.
I wonder why it isn't being done already by someone.
Depending if prostitution is legalized in your country you can make it more costly "special kind" of service. Virgin guys need special treatement since all dem premature ejaculation and stress erectile dysfunctions. And they would indeed prefer a non-intimidating or putting-off kind of woman which usual whore could be.
This could be actually more demanding than usual prostitution though and you can't be always sure if the guy is really virgin.

>>17797318
You're fucked in the head, mate.

You seriously held that against her for years? A single drunken phone call one night?

holy fuck you must have almost nothing happen in your life if that is what gets you going

>>17798571

It's illegal in my country. I don't fucking get why, stupid puritanism or some shit. It isn't hurting anyone so why the fuck is it illegal? But yeah. I'm just too afraid of cops. It's probably not done because most prostitutes depend on repeat customers, I think?

>>17798535
1k cash i live in nj
24 male
monday or tuesday

>>17798622

I'd need a plane to reach you. Otherwise I'd take you up on that.

>>17798646
Where do you live?

>>17797318
>>17798573

I see both sides of the fences here, he was just looking out for her, even after she was rubbing it in his face she was going to fuck someone else.

And yea, you probably shoulda dealt with it properly, rather then letting it sit over your relationship for that long.

I personally would not meet up with ppl from 4chan.

And prostitution is dangerous business already. You never know what kind of creep you might encounter as a woman, especially without escort.

>>17798673
I've met a girl from 4chan before

If anything, she was the creep

>>17798682
Yeah, that goes for both sexes in here.

>>17798687
Your point is irrational, "creeps" are everywhere not just 4chan

stop cockblocking

>>17796825
My secret: I am happy.

>>17798664

Denver. You want to fly out here and rent a hotel I'll go ahead. But that's too much expense isn't it? Although you could also get a vacation out of it.

>>17798673

Anything is dangerous. Driving in a car is dangerous, walking home is dangerous, meeting a guy from tinder or something is dangerous. Is 4chan that much worse? Are feelposters that bad? Only thing I could see would a channer would be likely to catch feelings, hence some facet of anonymity required. But virgins are cute and they'd probably be gentle.

>>17798726
You are assuming those are gentle virgins lurking in there in the first place.

>>17798535
Not him but if you're in the UK look up adultwork dot com. It's international but afaik not very popular outside of here. Worth taking a look at your local area's listings wherever you are.

You pay to open a profile with some sort of age verification through the staff and it lists you for a set price a day. Put up photos, set your prices. Clients message you and you arrange to meet them with a function of the site; I think it makes the clients put in where you're meeting them and if you don't check in afterwards it calls the police so you're safe (that's just my theory, I don't have a vendor account).

>>17796825
I think of killing myself in front of my parents, because as childish as it is, they're hurting me (the relationship between the two is almost destroyed, and I have deal with fighting every day and act as a sounding board for the two of them) and I want to hurt them back.

This doesn't really fit here but I wanna type it somewhere.

>Default behaviour is to flirt with girls (as long as theyre attractive) all the time
>even when im not consciously doing it, im doing it
>in relationship, so cant flirt with girls
>makes me kinda sad because flirting is fun
>decide to break out of relationship so i can flirt with girls
>the week we break up i fuck two girls i was flirting with already
>start hanging out with, and having occasional sex with one of those girls
>a few weeks later meet another girl in my class
>my usual flirty antiques lead to her breaking up with her (shithead of a) bf and telling me she loves me
>around the same time I begin a polyamorous open relationship the girl i’ve been hanging out with
>friend zone my classmate and keep having casual sex with her (gf doesn’t mind)
>mutual friends of ours are slightly disapproving of how it looked like i lead her on
>a few weeks later me and a girlfriend of a friend/acquaintance of mine start hanging out
>it’s really fun talking to her and stuff
>assume since she’s in a relationship that she’s not interested
>eventually go to her apartment and get high with her
>we cuddle for the whole night, and kiss
>tells me she’s in love with me
>she thought we were flirting and dating the whole time
>”not sure how she feels about her boyfriend”
>tell her she should keep going out with him, and maybe we should distance ourselves
>tells me she wants to keep having nights like the one we had
>pretty sure it will lead to another FWB
>at the expense of a two year relationship and probably the disgust of our mutual friends
>basically a philanthropist at this point

It’s not even like I’m in it for the sex; I just like hanging out and cuddling with these girls, and they seem to want to. What do you guys think about my actions? What do you think I should do? I’m just trying to do things that make me and other people happy but it doesn’t seem to be working out.

>>17798979

Oh, just in case you know who I am; I'm J.S. Feel free to message me on facebook if you do.

>>17796825
I raped my best friend in highschool

>>17798979
and is ony 4chan on a saturday night.

nice try neckbeard faggot

>>17799029

On thursday I got drunk by 11 and by the end of the day I'd drank half a shoulder of vodka, dont 1/2 tab of acid, and a quarter pack of neuyrofen+; then last night I did a full tab of acid at like 7pm (10 hour trip) and didnt sleep till 4am.

>>17799050

My point is im too tired to want to go out, and im not into clubbing or anything so i wouldnt be going out probably anyway.

>>17796999
Do your parents know about your grandparents being Nazis?
Does that mean you'll only marry white/"Aryan" women? Do "Aryan" women only have blonde hair or ist it black dark hair?
Hitler had black dark hair I think?

>>17797074
ArAre you a psychopath or sociopath?

>>17796825

I'm a nigger

>>17798682
Why was she a creep?

>>17799133
Sociopath? Don't mean to sound edgy.

I mean I sympathize with the homeless or kids and all that, but not really anyone at my level. If my friend is trying to get a job I wish him the best, but I secretly don't want them to get it. If my girlfriend wants to try something new, I say I hope she likes it, but I want her to fail and hate it.

I guess I just want everyone else to be beneath me. I want to be better than them.

>>17799012
Why did you do it?
Are they doing okay?

>>17799147
Oh, have you ever talked a professional counseling?

Everyone might be secretly like that? They probably don't admit to it and feel guilty for having those thoughts?

>>17799158
The thing is I don't feel guilty. I think the only thing that does make me feel guilt is when my girlfriend cries; even then its probably just sympathy. I guess its because it makes me feel needed?

I'd get a counselor but seeing as how I want to join Law Enforcement, I'm paranoid about gettung checked out mentally.

>>17799152
I was completely obsessed with her for reasons that dont really matter. That obsession drove me to wanting to own her and control her. So I attempted to ruin her in order to make no one else love her. We are still friends today and says she doesn't blame me for it. Everytime we see each other we end up talking about it. But she seems happy. I'm the one stuck in the past hating myself for doing it but constantly wanting her to crack and submit.

Perhaps I should seek therapy....

>>17799147
>I guess I just want everyone else to be beneath me. I want to be better than them.

Sounds natural to me. I scheme all day to find ways to save 50%+ of my income so I can do all the things normies wish they could, like travel a ton and not have to work, early retire, etc. I like it when they're miserable because they treated me like shit my whole life. I want them to have little ugly shit-throwing kids who kill their dreams and big, heavy mortgages, soul crushing jobs, credit card debt, cheating spouses, fat wives, big fat bills, etc. I want them to live shitty unfulfilling lives while I do awesome shit. They deserve to suffer because they caused me to suffer for the first twenty years of my life. I hope they feel empty, I hope they feel hopeless. I want them to look at me and wonder in awe how I manage to do awesome shit all the time and seem to thrive, while they work themselves to death. Tbh half the reason I voted trump was that it triggers normies. Anything that disrupts their precious little worlds is good with me. I want them to cry and grieve and suffer.

>>17799179
Maybe they are stuck working a pathetic job and married to someone they don't particularly fawn over, but chances are their lives aren't motivated primarily by bitterness and desire to see others unhappy. Even if they were little cunts as kids.

>>17799179
I agree with most of what you said. Wasn't really bullied though. I usually also go for a contrarion opinion because I like to piss people off, but I try to find logic behind the opinions.

My childhood was me living in my brother's shadow. All my relatives would ask about him, never me. Nobody gave a shit about me. My first girlfriend left me for another in front of my face and it made me cry. Years later she apologized but I treated her like shit and said she could shove her friendship up her ass. I guess thats why I don't want my girlfriend to be happy. I want her to need me. As for friends, they brag so much about making money and act like they live top notch lives when they live off their parents money at the moment. Then they give me shit for being cheap since I feel bad using a lot of money that isn't mine.

>>17799166
Go to one, it's illegal for them to tell anyone what you'll tell them. Unless you're a danger to everyone or to yourself.

>>17799190
>primarily by

I have my own pursuits. Seeing them trapped in hopelessness is just a bonus.

>>17799192

I've given up on my relatives. Unless i live the standard life and pop out babies they just give me a hard time. Everything I like they think is stupid or dangerous or childish. I guess typical black sheep problems.

>money

Thing is with shitty spending habits they are in for a lifetime of shit. They will always have some sort of debt and will only do minimum payments. They have slave mentality. Just be smug that they're stupid assholes. Being cheap is good. Properly utilized money is the greatest tool on earth, it can solve any problem you have. Never waste it. Enjoy yourself, but do so smartly. Their "top notch lives" are hollow and centered on consumerism and bragging to others. They spend every cent on stupid shit and at the end of the day have nothing to show for it but some instashit pictures.

Since normies' lives are centered around other people interacting with them, feel solace that we all die alone and they will suffer and despair.

>>17799206
I'm just waiting to move out and rub it in my friends' faces. They are controlled by their parents so much that its sad. They have a say in who they should marry, if they can go out, etc. I mean when you're 21+ its pretty pathetic

>>17796825
I basically ruined a girl's life legally so she couldnt do anything about it
>be me freshman in college
>date this qt, she breaks up with me 4 times and I come back each time b/c I lack self respect
>Im full of rage
>she asks to get back together again
>"Im ready to commit anon'
>say yes and that I love her so much, but secretly plan to crush her
>shower her with love and attention for a couple months, say I love you a lot, do cute couple things like watch a movie or cuddle all night
>the whole time I hate her but am hiding it
>summer rolls around and I take a summer class. My RA that checks me in obviously likes me
>I end up falling in love with her HARD. She was a 9/10 and had a lot of the same life hardships as me
>"you dont have a gf do you anon?"
>"n-no" *sweats nervously*
>I call her and break up with her, she cries hard and Im really happy, everything went better than expected
>it turns out this girl I started dating had destroyed her friendship with two other girls by stealing their boyfriends and then not even dating them
>fast forward 3 years and I hear on the grape vine freshman girl still loves me
>laugh and click wine glasses with 9/10 qt

I'm genuinely scared one day in the near future I'll wake up next to my boyfriend dead in bed with me. His snoring/ gargling/ on-off breathing is so bad I think he's going to choke to death.

It scares/ annoys me so much I think it's making me a bitter person. I have asked him to look into getting help for it but he doesn't see it as a big deal. He gets upset when I haven't slept in bed (I have had to sleep on the sofa sometimes he is so loud/ quiet I can't stand it) but doesn't do anything.

Losing weight doesn't solve it but improved slightly.

I only exist because my parents created me.

>>17797143
stale pasta

>>17799704
Force him to get help. Or buy those sleeping nasal things.

>>17799704
Do you sleep next to him every night? How the fuck do you deal with it? I had to share a hotel room with a classmate with sleep apnea once, and it was three nights of hell. I literally didn't sleep a moment. I like the guy and sympathize with his condition, but I'm not gonna lie, at 4:30 AM I was picturing myself smothering the kid with a pillow

>>17796863
Bravery is when you're scared but you do something anyway. The fact that you're always scared but you find ways to deal with it instead of staying inside crying or something means you are brave.

Is this how lesbians hit on eachother?!

>>17799167
She's lying, in denial. You should kill yourself, you disgusting piece of shit.

It wouldn't have been so bad to have you automatically cursed out unless you are a real POSp

>>17798726
Different guy here. I live an hour away from Denver. I'd be down to drive there if you're serious about your idea

I may start to like boys in their puberty by thinking they will like me more than the last two guys I had
I may want to lure a 14-15 years old (I'm 20)

I've only ever fucked three women - a pair of twins and their mother.

One of the twins I dated in high school into college. After we broke up, I ran into their mom in a bar. We chatted it up, got drunk together, and ended up in bed together. We hooked up on and off for about six months. Later in college, I ended up dating the other twin, who I'm now engaged to.

Neither one knows I fucked their mom. Even had a pregnancy scare at one point.

I stole my neighbors' panties on and off between 13-20, and they were 3 and 5 years younger than me, respectively.

>>17796825
Midas has asses ears

I cheat on my boyfriend a lot. He thinks I'm anti cheating. I'm just anti cheating on me. He's weak and I'll eventually end up marrying my orbiter.

I have successfully manipulated a hot chick with daddy issue to break up with bf, stop seeing friends and move to my city. I just wanted some fun with a crazy. Turned out she's not that crazy after all, I love her, we didn't fuck, and now she leads the game. Irony ftw...

>>17796825
I go to parties from time to time. I'm friends with a guy who's friends with retarded SJWS.
If I get called a "racist" I trash the place and take a sovenir. I have been doing this for a while now.

>>17801173
Fucking scumbag

if i said my biggiest secret, i would probably be arrested or shot

>>17801086
Kill yourself, you are scum.

>>17801195
It's a good thing you're anonymous, retard.

>>17801362
do you realize how easy it is to break through fake ips and hack a persons computer?

I had been dating my girlfriend for 5 years when I began cheating on her over a 2 year period. I don't feel bad about it at all. Sometimes you meet a perfect person who just doesn't have a sex drive. Idiots online will tell you stupid bullshit like "omfg just dump her" but why lose out on a good thing if I can have my cake and eat it, too? A mistress is just there to do the things that your girlfriend or wife won't do. She was definitely enjoying things. I even went on a few dates with her and a few other girls, but it just made me appreciate my real girlfriend. Finding a girl who is interested in SOME kind of career and doesn't want kids is pretty difficult. I swear to God everyone just wants to be a cashier until they can pop out a few babies.

Anyway, my only regret is that I'll have to marry this girl someday.

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>>17801368

It is? Then do it, faggot.

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I've been in a relationship 5 years.
>I dont want to be with her
>only staying until I'm done with this years' studies
>feel bad but know to put myself first
>she knows secrets and could fuck me over any time following so very hesitant to do it.
>completely financially codependant

she'll be devastated.

how fucked am I?

>>17801609
let her down gently and dont burn bridges

maintain a friendship if you can

that said, its a complicated thing whenever you break up with a long term. Dont make it seem like youre throwing them away.

>>17800974
shit, that's crazy

>>17800969

do it, but dont tell anyone.

i was molested when i was 13 years old.

i found the guy outside a bar on an evening about a year ago and me and a friend assaulted him with a metal bar.

I did and now I'm in love

>>17801750
Did what?

>>17798882
You wont have the satisfaction of hurting them when you’re dead, kid.

>My cousin is 14 and overdeveloped, and I would totally fuck when she gets to be legal age in 2 years
>I tell girlfriends I love them but I don't think I've ever felt love, though I've not given up on finding it
>I have never cheated but I've tried to because I have a fucked up sense of self worth and need constant external validation
>The closest I've felt to knowing love was a short lived friend with benefits arrangement that I fell into with an amazing girl, who I still think about near daily despite not seeing her in years and having a gf
>one time I got drunk and had a fight with a girl and then did that thing in the movies where you hold her against the wall and try to angrily kiss her, but it was so fucking cringe in reality and she looked absolutely disgusted

>>17801750
Shared their darkest secrets, obviously.

I wanted to fuck my female friend but she had a boyfriend, who I was also friends with. I bided my time and when she came to me asking for relationship advice, I purposefully gave her advice that would break them up, but made it seem like I was helping. Then I talked to the boyfriend and got him talking about it, and shit talked her as well so he wouldn't want to stay with her. They actually did break up because of me. Unfortunately I never fucked her

I'm 22 with a corporate job, completely financially independent, my own apartment, etc. My work friends are all 22-25 and they all still live at home, paying nothing. I find it hard to relate to them as they seem really childish and spoiled because of this. I also somewhat resent them while also feeling superior to them for being so childish as I was forced to grow up very early.

Cheated on my now wife since the beginning of the sham I call a relationship with her because she's an ugly pig but that's to be expected of gooks. If I could do it all over again I totally would just to publicly humiliate her over and over because we don't share the same social circle it makes it so easy to laugh at her on a massive scale without her finding out.
She's definitely too ugly for me to be proud of or parade around.

Fun fact she's probably the ugliest gook on this planet.

>>17801086
Off yourself you deserve to die

>>17801782
what are you friends reason for living at home?

I let my dog lick my dick and my balls

>>17801808
Literally just "I don't want to pay rent or buy food or cook". It's pretty sad and I feel bad for their parents, but maybe the parents don't mind like mine would.

>>17801826
>I don't want to pay rent or buy food or cook

that is pretty childish. i have friends who still live at home but its for financial reasons as they are in uni atm

>>17796869
That's hardly a secret and easily fixed..

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>>17801796 got any pics? Nudes? Sawse baws

>>17801864
It's a secret, I never showed to anyone.

I was sexually abused by my only friend in third grade. I don't want to get her in trouble, and I don't want to cause turmoil, so I decided to never tell.

>>17798573
Lol at this cuck

I fucked a 15 year old. I was 17 and although the age gap is small, I knew she was 15 and still pursued. I'm basically a pedo.

I was bullied at school and my parents never found out, because i somehow managed to conceal all those problems.
Basically, i've been faking it my entire life.

>>17801925
You're not, pedo is 13 and under.

When I was 8 ( male ), a friend 19 (female) invited me to stay at her place for a night because we had lots of fun.
I slept in the same bed as her and tucked my head under her shirt between her tits, she also had no underwear on.

My best childhood memory and the darkest

>>17801739
story

I have and I am continually cheating on all the men I have ever dated with my ex that I dated in high school. I cannot get over him. Family would disown me if they found out that I still even talk to him.

I can safely say he is the only person I only ever truly loved.

We are through some fucked up shit, including mutual bloodletting and drinking it, branding me, abusing me and he is thinking of selling me off to other men if I am disobedient.

He proposed to me when we were both 18 at the end of school ball. I said yes, but we were separated by our families. We still sneak out to meet and catch up, even though we live so far away from each other.

We have a chemistry between us where we can communicate by glances. We understand each other. We can feel when we are in trouble, we have this psychological bond, this strange sort of bond that nobody understands but us.

We live off hurting each other and it strengthens our love for each other, because we only believe that nobody can hurt you as much as the person who loves you.

And we have been separated three years ago. It has been happening since.

We still hope to get married together.

>>17801949
Jesus, you sound like a movie character.

>>17801955
This is bad of course. Sounds like you thrive in artificial drama.

>>17801869
>pics/vids
Of who the pig? or the sexy bitches I fuck behind her back?

I only come to /adv/ because others misery makes me happy.

remember that time i told your mom that your dog bit me in the face out of nowhere?, well i was lying i leaned into him and he mustve thought i was invading his personal space.
sorry about the hospital bill :)

>>17802098
my life is shit by the way so dont feel mad i got my comeuppance anyway

There's a short form of my name that nobody uses. I used to hate it but now I melt when I hear it

>>17796825
Being adopted.

>>17798882
Instead of blaming your parents work hard and improve as a person. What you're saying is very weak-minded and to be honest I'd usually say to go forth with your plan, but for some reason I have hope that you are strong enough to make the reasonable choice and fight the good fight. Don't off yourself just yet, see what you can do to fix this situation.

>>17800948

Are you clean? I mean at this point I really need money, and I don't mind sex. [email protected]. For the next week I have zero free time to do this though, but after that yeah. You'll also need to buy a hotel room for the night...sorry, if that's okay?

>>17796825
I want to drop out of college and die

>>17796825
i regularly participate in consensual, one-on-one heterosexual intercourse is the missionary position with the lights off and the door closed for the sole purpose of procreation
i know. im a monster. but i just cant stop.

I don't like having sex in a relationship at all. I like watching them jerk off instead and I could be completely satisfied with that but I know the other person wouldn't be. Giving up on seriously dating

Sex doesn't turn me on, I want it because men who fuck a lot of women are considered "cool" in our society

Unless I'm really drunk or haven't fapped in a month I can't get hard when alone with a girl

>>17802797
I did that minus the dying and life is better now.

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I can't stand the idea of someone being better than me or above me. I get really mad when I think about people in power, famous actors, beloved musicians or respected people in general.

I'm not a rebellious teenager that does the opposite everyone says. The thing that makes me so terrified by government or anyone with power is that even though sometimes they made incorrect decisions I still have to obey. Same about respected people - conformists listen to them not because they're right, they listen to them because it's them. They make objectively incorrect decisions just because someone told them that's the correct thing to do.

People respect me, but I'm not an authority to them. It feels really bad and stops me from doing various things. For example, I've had a crush on this (in my opinion) great looking girl with a sweet personality for almost 5 years now, but I never tried doing anything with her just because people around me think that she's mediocre and I'd probably lose a lot in their eyes.

It's not about majority, it's about my aim and trying to achieve it. Even if it means not voicing my opinions for once or trying to achieve my different dreams.

When I was 15 I wanted to change the world.

When I was 20 I understood it's not happening.

Now I'm 22 and I should probably start looking for help.

I understood that the world I'd love to see is unachievable. It's never going to happen and Earth is already a shithole. I want it to stop existing before it gets worse. I just want to see it nuked as I scream edgy slogans, "NO GODS, NO MASTERS".

>>17803144
>I still have to obey
No, you just have to not get caught.

>>17803174
You know they are always watching.

>>17803183
That's what they only want you to think. In reality they are people just as ignorant as yourself.

>>17803174
Yeah, but you know what I mean. Also in a couple of decades they'll be watching everyone.

>>17796825
it's not really a secret but deep down, i'm convinced i will never have the bare minimum level of stuff for me to be happy. i just don't think i'll be able to get there in life.

to get there, i would need a secure, well-paying job, a house, and a car. that's all i wan't to be self sufficient. it doesn't have to be ridiculously well-paying. just enough to pay for my bills, maybe an extra 100~200 for whatever i want a month, that would be more than enough. i would settle for a salary that pays for all of my bills and maybe only like 50 extra if i skimp on food.

at this rate, i don't think i could ever even own a house or a car. and it's not just for material reasons. owning a house is safe, secure. you can lose a rental at any moment. the car would just be so i have transportation all the time.

I have lived an extremely violent life and my father tried to kill me a month ago, would beat me often drawing blood starting around when I was 12, would torment me and confirm all of the things he knew I was the most scared/insecure about and my mother had suicide attempts almost every other day blaming me and I watched my dad light himself on fire and my ex fiance pissed on my face and jacked off to me crying, which I had to let him do for food since he took all of my money, would not let me have a phone, and would not let me leave the house or call anyone over since they (him and my roommate who he was fucking) usually had drugs out

But I dont want a way out because I know it will never end and I dont want to get used to it being normal like I did for 2 years and then my dad snapped and tried to murder me and I lost everything I had for a 3rd time, going into an extremely impulsive state in which I went out of state to do drugs and got pregnant and then had a miscarriage (I am not making excuses, these things were all my fault)

I love my grandparents to death but I will run away when I can because I feel like they will become the same as everyone I have ever gotten truly close to has

I dont know why I did those violent things when I was younger because I legitimately hate myself for it and dont want to hurt anyone
I felt like if I didnt intimidate others they would get me first, and I was so angry about being completely under the thumbs of my parents that I felt powerless and I wanted others to fear me like I feared them

I am glad my parents were they way they were to me though and not my siblings, I never told them because I have a hard time expressing cheesy shit, but I would have way rather gone under it than them and I am glad they have a normal life now that my mom ran away with cult leader and lives in seattle doing heroin with bums (I wish she would stop doing that)

But I dont know why it was only me and only once or twice them

I hate my best friends husband. He's an asshole and he's making her into an asshole. I wouldn't blink if he died. I hope they divorce before they end up having kids. She's the type who will let herself get trapped if kids are involved. I'll always be there for her if she decides she wants me back in her life but I never knew we (her friends) meant so little to her.

>>17803059
They're not cool, so stop worrying about it.

>>17801776
It was going to happen. They were looking for a reason to end it. You're not that powerful.

>>17801998
Everyone likes to point the finger, anon. but just you wait until life rips the floor out from under you.

i think my best friend is making a horrible mistake by getting married too quickly. she is a bit younger than me and has a lot of life to live. i dont even know how to tell her.

I once fucked a loaf of bread at work then put it back on the shelf.

I strangled three cats after a mental breakdown. I still feel like shit and this was 4 years ago

>>17803338
Holy fucking shit

If that's true then I really wish you'll have a good life.

If I were you I'd go on a killing spree.

>>17803661
>cats

Why cats? Strangle dogs, they're disgusting.