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anyway that didn't deter her at all. this whole thing went on for a couple years. she even wanted to meet even though we live halfway across the country from eachother. I'm not really sure looking back when it stopped or why it stopped and it may have been my doing (I honestly don't really remember my memory is a little fuzzy as it's been a long time). from my best recollection I was going off to college and just dropped the game thinking I would meet some nice girl and actually fall in love (which I thought happened a couple times but didn't looking back on those relationships). i guess in my mind I really liked her a lot but considering the distance and circumstances never considered any kind of a relationship a potential reality despite connecting with her like I've never connect with any other girl (I've had several gfs since then). also it felt the idea of meeting a gf/bf online felt so weird for the time and thought nobody did that. anyway I went back to the game after a couple years had passed and saw she was playing too and at first she was extremely friendly and happy to talk to me but when I tried to ask her about how she had been she just kind of ignored me. I tried a couple times later on different days and she still gave me the cold shoulder so I felt that was that and did my own things.

anyway what I'm wondering is should I send her a facebook message or something of the sort? I've thought about this a few times over the last few years and I'm just afraid it will seem really creepy and stalkerish so I shake the idea and forget about her for months but without fail like a bad relapse one night randomly I will have a dream about her and it will all come back. It's not like I think about her day in and day out. I literally never think about her until I'll have a dream and then the next day or two it may linger on my mind. I've never seriously considered it and probably haven't even thought about her for a year but had the dream AGAIN last night and that's why I'm here. i honestly had a major crush on her then and not sure if she felt similar about me or just felt I was a super close friend but the second she would ever sign on the game or AIM she would be ecstatic to talk to me and we would literally tell eachother everything even things we kept from our close friends. even to this day I remember quite a few of our inside jokes.

here's the thing she never deliberately gave me her facebook even though she wanted to trade but I didn't have one then. only way I found her today is because after one of those dreams I curiously googled her old AIM name remembering she used it a lot and sure enough her deviantart popped up. and even on that page today there are still pictures she uploaded from back back then of just us hanging out in the game.

I'm only worried it would be very awkward to hit her up 8 years after the fact but we were just so close for nearly 2 years spending almost every night up all night with eachother. I've just never connected with someone else on that level. BELIEVE me when I say I want to just drop it and get it out of my head but I can't because in the back of mind I always wonder what if?

so should I just take the leap and do it and if so how do I do it without seeming like a mega creep? I'm not even expecting or looking for a relationship I would just like to be in touch again ya know? I really just wish I had kept a way to stay to in touch back then. I mean she literally feels like the girl version of me. it's weird because we've never even actually met but I just get this gut feeling about her I can't describe and feel like I related much more to her than I have any of my actual ex'es. I can't even believe i'm sweating this so damn much.

I guess my main point is I really want to reconnect with her given how close we were but if doing this will just make me seem creepy I rather not do it at all and preserve the memories of all those good times we shared.

okay sorry for rambling on. truly though for anyone who may be reading this thank you a ton for the time and advice. I'm not the kind of person to reach out but this is something I would really just like some outsider perspective on.

>>17766132
For the love of dear God!
Nobody is going to read your book.
tl:dr PLEASE

Contact her in a friendly manner but prepare yourself there's a good chance she's not single or interested in a relationship after so many years but I doubt she'd be rude to you send her a Facebook message and see what happens

>>17766334
heh yeah that's pretty much the response I expected. I typed it all up and it was longer than I thought after I posted.

>>17766344
Thanks anon. Just didn't want it to seem creepy. Out of all the friends I've ever met online she was certainty the closest and I've kept contact with quite a few. We live apart and I definitely don't expect any relationship but would just nice to be in touch because obviously she meant a lot to me.

I guess I'll just send her a message rather than a friend request and see how it goes because it's been so many years and that may seem a little weird to just try to friend her. Also I never told her my last name because back then I was paranoid about giving that info out online but she will most certainly remember me.

contact her OP. I'm not saying this becuase it'll work (prepare to be disappointed) but instead because it sounds like you'd in the future regret not trying if you just tried to forget about it now. the worst that'll happen is you come off stalkerish and she'll give you the signal to stop

and out of curiousity, what mmo?

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>>17766593
this is how I've been feeling about it too. I just need to get it off my chest and know.

also it was ffxi. funnily enough I know many people who met on that game and got married irl. I know it happens a lot in MMOs but seemed to be extremly common there. that game had some wonderful community though. many of my best online friends I still talk to I met there.

>mfw I lost my screenshot folder that had 1000+ pictures of me and all my friends from our various adventures
lots of them even had text intact cause I used the windower and a good portion were from me and her

>>17766819
>ffxi
yep. a lot of my preteen/early teen years right there too.