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My sexuallity?

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>be me
>be about 5 y/o
>fall in love with a 4 y/o girl.
>First kiss, first french kiss, first time to touch a girl in her private parts.
>a few years pass
>First time experiencing "gay" thoughts. Licks another boys penis on the shaft it wasnt a thrilling experience.
>fast forward a few years
>Have started watching porn, Allowed to touch my sisters private parts. This stops after a few times.
>Porn is becoming a bigger part of my life, and it gets more extreme.
>The Hermaphrodite becomes a central part of my fantasies.
>Porn watching escalates. Chronic masturbation ensues.
>The addicion is starting to grow as I still have never had a real relationship.
>Develop a "Yellow fever", my fetishes now start to root themselves down.
>Too beta to talk to First crush
>Develop a submissive persona.
>Getting more aroused of BDSM and pain inflicted porn.
>Have first encounter with a dominant girl. She uses and abuses my submissivenes. It gets me more turned on. She cant handle it, breaks it off.
>Have second encounter, this time with a control freak. Relationship didnt go very far.
>Starting to explore my options, getting into a bi-curious phase.
>Porn is currently dominated by one side Hetro porn, the other side Hermaphrodite/Shemale porn.
>Have first male encounter, had my fun and games, but it was really just fun and games.
>Porn and sexual fetishes spirals downwards. Getting into more darker parts of the industry.
>Have a sexual crisis
>Decide to not label my sexual orientation i dont understand what im attracted to.
>Have third female encounter. This time its different, she actually makes me feel something inside, possbly hope?
>Fourth female encounter. This girl has anything a guy could ask for in a wifey. For the second time (first was the crush) developing romantic feelings towards another human.
>Porn addiction turned down a couple of notches, fetishes consists of mostly S&M porn With Straight/Bi themes.

Im now 23 y/o and I need help to figure out my shit.
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>>17742156
If you are willingly turning down you fetishes for a girl it's bad. But if it just happens because you really feel something towards her then you are in love. It's not a bad thing. I see it as

>the more fetishes you have the less chances you have to get a gf that you will really like

So you'll probably be happier with you fetishes turned down but with a good gf than with no gf and strange fetishes.
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>>17742683
Basically fetish freak is that what your saying?
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Am I missing something? What are you asking advice on exactly?

Can't you just continue life, and figure your shit out in its natural pace? I'm 32, and I'm still figuring stuff out. Did you end things with your fourth female encounter?
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>>17742969
>What advice do you need
Basically if im just damaged by porn or if my sexuallity is actually changing with time.

>Let time answer it for you
I would like to know myself before growing old

>fourth female encounter
Still ongoing. Im currently trying to figure out if I have true feelings for her, because that would change the playingfield
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>>17742982
>Basically if im just damaged by porn or if my sexuallity is actually changing with time.
That's what its like to be bi. It comes and goes in waves.
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>>17742982
>I would like to know myself before growing old
Growing older = finding stuff out.
It's not like there's a limit you reach, where ok now I know everything there is to know.
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>>17742992
Bisexual? It doesnt give me any satiafaction really..
Ive never felt any attraction to males and when I tried it once the gay guy even said that he feels like an object of my sexual frustration.

That is what is bugging me now
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>>17742994
Yeah I do understand that aspect, however we live in times were things like this creates anxiaty in people.

I have friends who are super scared of doing things they consider "gay" (doesnt even have any sexual context) just because they are afraid that it might mess with their heads.

And now im sitting here thinking what the F i would be labeled as.
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>Sexually ruined a couple people
>"lol it's ok cuz I was a kid, too"
You can go ahead and admit to fapping to CP, you sick fuck.
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>>17742999
That's the point of what makes being bisexual so difficult. Bisexual just means that there are more than a one-sided attraction, in opposition to monosexuality, which is always one-sided. I have never really met any other bisexual that have the same sexual taste as me, what we usually have in common is how our sexualities change. Going from one end to the other, sometimes being more complex or other times being more simple.
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>>17743008
>implying
They turned out fine. Im the one sitting here not knowing what the fuck is going on in my mind
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>>17743011
Okey so basically what you are saying is that because bisexuals have the ability to actually have sex with the same gender without getting a trauma, that they in that sense work as a complex version of shindlers cat were you are both Bisexual and monosexual, depending on certain factors?

The wierd thing about it is that Ive spent years trying to understand why I have certain fetishes, and how theyve affected me when in reality, I just have the freedom of choosing my sexualiy, compared to Hetero- and homo-sexuals
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>>17743027
That's about it, yes. I've gone to bed thinking myself to be gay, only to next day see a woman I became infatuated with. Bisexuality is always a strange journey.

Also, just to add, I don't believe in the whole I needed weirder and weirder porn. Ted Bundy (the serial killer) tried to plead that at his trial, in reality you always were geared towards that weird porn, you just needed baby steps to explore that side of your sexuality.
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