I am losing my patience.

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Everyday is a continuing stress enhancer. I go to a community college, where I, for the most part, obtain decent grades (A's and B's), save for College Algebra, which I am failing. Basically, if I go under a 2.5 GPA, I lose my funding and will have to find another way to pay for school. I really, really want to move onto University, but I feel like I'm trying to climb a mountain with my bare hands.

I have a job at Starbucks, which is becoming more and more of a tumor in my brain. It took me awhile to understand and train, and my coworkers never fail to be passive-aggressive pricks about it. I have extensively out forth effort in becoming a better worker, and it, in a sense, has paid off. Many of my overheads have noticed and commented on it, and my hours have increased. But still, I am alienated from my coworker's discussions, and do not feel like a part of their community.

Even as I walk around campus, I notice people looking at me, and when I sit down, they tend to move their seats, or move to another seat. I do not make an effort to bother them, so why do they feel the need to avoid me? I am simply trying to get done what I need to get done.

People even, straight up to my face, joke about how creepy I look, about stuff like my eyes, or my teeth, or my hair. I usually make an effort to laugh it off, but it's becoming an internalized source of bitterness and resentment for them, and just people in general.

I'm starting to notice things such as people having loud conversations, doors shutting, people sniffing as I walk by, teachers going on long tangents, becoming more and more of an annoyance to me. I'm growing, to simply put it, increasingly pissed off at my life. I have friends, but I feel like, due to my work and school schedule, am putting up walls between myself and them, and I'm worried that I'm losing them. I've lost a lot of friends already. I need help on how to take care of these issues. I'd appreciate any advice. Thank You in advance.