Its all over.
I keep getting diagnosed bipolar and with anxiety.
I tried to go back to University, this will be my third time dropping out and I'm only 19, my parents pushed me to go back and now I have 25k debt and nothing to show for it. They banked all their hopes on me because my family is poor as shit and my thirty something year old brothers, one married, all moved back in, the one with the wife brought the wife, so its seven people in a one bedroom apartment.
I can't kill myself because my parents might follow suite, also they sacrificed a lot to try to give me a good opportunity to "make it". Have an appointment today with the shrinks.
What do I even do.
>>17709974
Wew, that's some situation, right there.
First off, I'd say you go to da shrink to get the symptoms under control. Once they're controlled you'll be less likely to self-sabotage.
Then you could look for a job/continue studying. Hang in there!
so what the fuck do I do now in terms of not being homeless? Every job I get ends with me being fired within a month for flipping out over something.
>>17710045
Thank you I appreciate it but as soon as I leave University its back into that apartment, with similarly fucked up people, who will keep pressuring me about how my mother and father want to retire and its up to me to make sure that happens.
I'm hoping the new meds work out.
At least you get diagnosed.
My therapist / psychologist kept telling me I was normal. MAYBE slight generalized anxiety. "resilient" they said, but really i think they were afraid of me ODing on medication due to past history.
>>17709974
i don't tell this to just any 4channer so consider yourself lucky. get a job and save a couple thousand. google Tim Sykes and go on an adventure.
>>17710729
I also need a study buddy so consider a correspondence so we can exchange notes.
become my trap maid and let me take care of you & be your daddy 4ever
>>17710738
im not even memeing, this is something im trying to do i just want someone to check me if I mess up.
>>17710749
im not memeing either anon ;)
>>17709974
Wow, 7 people in a one bedroom is tough.
School can be hard with anxiety. I had very bad anxiety as a result of body dysmorphic disorder, and it got really intense one semester. I finished out all my classes and took a year off. I still have professors that won't forgive me leaving for a year and are so rude about it. As if no one ever has mental health problems.
>>17709974
Don't fucking drop out, as much as it sucks push through. If you drop out you're accepting failure, if you push through you can beat it. Get help for your shit and keep pushing. Don't drop out. If you do then you really are a dumbshit.