What is happening to me?

Not a pro but seems like depression.
How did the first relationship end? Be specific.

Budget your finances, snap your credit card and don't bother with anyone until you get into some drug treatment program. Once your back on your feet embrace your 'don't give a fuck attitude' because caring got you nowhere.

>>17705695
We really liked each other but we constantly argued, it was very toxic for lack of a better word. I hated her but loved her dearly at the same time. We argued one too many times and that was it.

>>17705699
Thank you, I'll try this. Id like to get back on track with everything.

ghost ninja depression.

>>17705711
Maybe you're in denial too. Like trying to convince yourself you don't care, and/or you're over her. You're definitely projecting negative energy and actions towards others. Sounds like you also may not be with the right person. Honestly there's so many possibilities, but really only you can answer your own question.

>>17705728
Sounds quite accurate, it would be dishonest to say I was perfect before my ex, really she just brought out the best in me (and the worst). I'm happier and more comfortable in some aspects but clearly I'm not on the right path. The girl I'm currently with is smarter, nicer, more conservative etc, but I just don't particularly want to be with anybody, like I almost can't be doing with another relationship. I do stupid stuff that gets me into trouble daily because it's funny. I didn't really like my girlfriend at the time, and the girl I'm currently with is pretty much perfect, I'm just being a bit self destructive I think.

>>17705738
You should end your current relationship and focus on improving yourself. If anything it sounds like relationships are affecting you negatively.

>>17705752
I think you could be right. I've heard it all multiple times that I'm a narcissist, I'm arrogant, pompous etc etc. Lord knows what the future holds. I do really like this girl but it's as if I can't yet commit to anything. A lot of my family joke that I'll be the one that's 30 something and single, but I don't think they're quite joking anymore.

>>17705676
How long were you with that girl? Maybe you forgot how you used to be and you're just going back to how you were before her