Life Is Flashing Before My Eyes

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I took her for strolls around the suburbs I lived in, we would go out to eat and she'd come home and watch Spongebob with me until her mom came to pick her up. I'd play her music, like The Beatles and Floyd, and she loved it. She'd sit in my lap and beat on my drums while I held her, showing her all the fun noises she could make with her little sticks. I let her play with my guitars, and she was genuinely interested. That made me so proud. For that brief period of time, 5 some-odd months, she was MY LITTLE GIRL. One day, her mother asked me if I want my name on her birth certificate. Having been indoctrinated by my father about the horrors of child support - I agreed only if a blood DNA test were taken. She got IRATE. Cut off all communication with me, and my family, and I didn't see that child until about a year later. She sends me a text, something like "Hey, If you get a chance, I'd like to talk. Thanks". I put off sending a response for weeks. I was nervous. I didn't know what to do or how to feel. Finally, when I could muster the nerve, we came back into contact. Asks if I still want the blood test - She starts bringing the little one over again, although I knew at this point - not to become so attached, and after 2 months or so of building more quality time with what is more than 90% likely to be my own flesh and blood daughter, I suddenly hear nothing from her mother. Not a text, not a call, not a message on facebook, not a thing. She just, fell off. And thus, I have not seen my illegitimate daughter ever since. It's a few months now. I thought I was okay with this but I'm not. Man I'm just so fucking disappointed in myself and how this all turned out. I feel an emptiness in myself that only goes away with drugs. Every time I hear a pretty song, see a little girl on television, or stories about toddlers, I just want to fucking break down and bawl like a baby. I haven't in a while, but I got real close tonight.

I just need things to be okay again.

>>17687157
track her down and tell her you just want to be a father to the girl. if you are seriously thinking it may be yours and the mother is keeping her from you then talk to a lawyer and hire an investigator

>>17687096
No one wants to read all that shit with no paragraph breaks. Boil it down, make a long story short, and then answer questions, which will keep interest. Is not reading that shit

Track her down anon. I don't know shit abt child custody, but if you care so much for your daughter (blood-related or not) it's absolutely worth looking into

>>17687367
This. We literally can't comprehend what you're typing because it looks ugly.

>>17687157
So let me get this straight, you don't know if this kid is yours - but you don't want to commit to being the father legally, you just want to play with it. Lol.

1. Accept your losses
2. Hire a lawyer, demand a paternity test, court-ordered. You WILL have to pay child support or take custody of the kid.

You don't get access to the kid without being the legal father, sorry you can't have your cake and eat it too.

Y

>>17687461

no, let me explain

>we had a swab test done. came back negative
>she asks if i want my name on her birth certificate out of nowhere
>get suspicious, agree only if a blood test is taken
>she gets PISSED, cuts off contact
>year later - text from her
>she asks if i still want a blood test
>yes
>she disappears

while you do have the first part right, i don't know if this kid is mine or not, it is because of that that i did not have my name put on her birth cert.

she kept asking for my social and shit, real shady shit. i just didn't trust it.

>>17687157
Why did you want to be her father but not her legal father? Are you a fucking idiot?

>>17687502
see >>17687501

>>17687501
Out of nowhere? You were spending time with the little girl and she thought you wanted to play papa. If this is all too rotten to you just knock up some other woman.

>>17687508
good point. i've thought about it, still kinda fucks with me to think about though. meh. anyway