I just can't stand life anymore. Every day, except for a few things, feels horrible. I'm almost crying right now, and I'm a "serious guy" for others.
I just understood too much. I feel I know way too much in human nature. I can see human selfishness EVERYWHERE. In my family, friends, TV, street, JUST EVERYWHERE. I can't stand it anymore. And just a few hours ago, a "friend" told my friends in our Whatsapp group that I tried to "steal" his girl a few months ago. He is lying, but the others don't believe me. On monday, when I go back to school (I'm 17), they'll all treat me like shit. But even without all of this, I just feel depressed going to school, seeing the same superficial people, hearing the same bullshit everyday. I can't stand it. This torture is worst than dead. I feel depressed at least half the day, everyday. I'm already going to a terapist and a psychiatrist, but they can't help me. Again, I know too much.
I believe in a "God", as something that created the Universe and its physical laws, but I don't believe that this God has morals, or cares about us. Hell, I don't even think he is a "concious" being.
I'm seriously considering suicide. The only thing stopping me from doing it is my family. I don't want to hurt them, but I can't stand this shit anymore.
Help me, please.
Uh here's a bump for you
Have you found national socialism yet? In a national socialist utopia, no one is selfish because everyone cares about their own and everyone else is their own. I'm also 17 and I would also be very depressed if it wasn't for this dream I have of freeing the world
>>17673967
I believe in natural laws, not "magical" stuff. Nazis were right in that, but I won't join a movement like that. A political party won't change human nature, nor the nature of the world. I learned that a long time ago.
You have to be 18 to post here dipshit.
>>17673954
I remember being 15.
When every thought I had was profound and changed how people think about the world.
Anyways, it doesn't matter. Nothing matters.
Just do your homework and graduate your shit highschool.
Learn how to do electrical work or plumbing or something.
Then you can earn enough money to get drunk every night, like the rest of normal folk
>>17673954
Same dude, sometimes I wish I could go back to the days when I never saw all this. Thing that is currently working for me right now is trying to ignore everything and trying to live life focusing on that as little as possible. It only helps a little, but it's better than nothing
Another emo teenager who thinks he gets the world and understands how everything works.
You are just another little fag who thinks too highly of yourself. You don't get shit and are blaming depression on human selfishness. Fuck off and hang yourself you little shit.
>>17673988 >>17673990
I try. I really try. But I just can't stand it. I can't stand people and nature anymore.
>>17673997
I know about those emo teenagers. I don't want to be compared to them, because in real life I look like a normal guy. I don't have problems attracting girls, I practice sports, go to parties sometimes. But I feel horribly depressed inside. I talked to my terapist, argued with him about human nature, and he couldn't argue back. He was basicly "well, just ignore it and move on". I can't do it.
>>17674005
You'll get over it.
I'm 10 years older.
I'd give anything to be back in your shoes
See, it's like toddlers. Why to babies cry over everything? Because it's the first time they've experience that type of pain.
Same for you.
Now that you know this, use it.
Be better than us.
>>17673954
>I'm 17
That's just you getting in tune with the world, you'll be fine.
I also wish -as I'm 30 (browsing at work for the dank memes)- I could go back to the past to use all the opportunities I missed because I was a stupid teenager too wrapped up in his own misery (so to speak, I never was depressed) and shyness.
People are not so selfish, but they are gullible and must cope with a difficult life as well as you. So they won't check for all the facts and sometimes feel tired, rather preferring the easy way than the hard way, even if it's a mistake.
You still have no bill to pay, no boss to answer to, and a career path you can still choose.