I can't cry. Help.

watch this alone and in the dark then report back

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6o_2TeVk1tc

forgot link

Sorry Anon, that did nothing to me.
Thanks for trying though. Really, thanks.

>>17652419
what do you think happened?

>>17652450
It's really a drop in a pond of many other things bothering me right now, but think he's ignoring me for some reason. He messaged me earlier today and I only saw it an hour later. Now he won't reply at all. I even PM'd him more than once in World of Warcraft but nothing. I can't see how he could have missed them. They were all in a joking tone, in an attempt to hide my anxiety, but they were still a lot, which might be a big giveaway.

I feel kinda pathetic. This could be something small, but the thought of him being upset with me makes me extremely anxious. And the fact that I sent so many messages to him trying to get him to reply only makes me feel even more like a fool.

As I said, a lot of other things surfaced following this (feelings of uselessness, inadequacy, my extreme dissatisfaction with my current life situation, etc), but it was that one straw nonetheless.

Personally, I hate when I feel sad or that I need to cry. I just end up putting on Death Grips or some other loud music and start yelling and being angry instead. It gets me that nice emotional depletion that I crave.

https://youtu.be/XC36OTUxj3o