Say it!

I hate myself. Im disgusted by myself. I am shamed by myself. I'm dumb, ugly, delusional, autistic, pathetic, retarded, disabled, mentally and physically. I'm not human, I can't have humanity, I'm an outsider to this civilization who was not invited, is not wanted not deserves to be part of it.

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I don't know what I would do without my dog.

https://youtu.be/2znVkcJIt0s

I shouldn't hold my poops for so long.

Im terrified for my future.

I know I should just let it go, but what if one day I wake up and my family is black? I walk down stairs to a table full of watermelon and fried chicken. Then I look outside and my dad is hanging from our neighbours tree. Keeps me up at night man.

I get too nervous around her in person, for some reason. I see her around quite a bit, but we don't talk in person for that reason. Instead it is via text, and it lasts for a few hours at a time usually.

Though i am the one initiating the test

Ah, you can read me. Aha, aha, aha!
I am proud because I have achieved the unachievable, I turned into a living ghost.
Wherever I am I am not seen, i don't ever open my mouth, I don't talk to anyone and no one talks to me, not even eye contact is a thing. Nobody knows my name. Nobody! Everyone who used to is dead. I can easily walk trough queues and people will not react. People stare through me as if I'm not there. I only exist thanks to government bureaucracy. Maybe you will forget about this post in 5 minutes too, won't you? And I will remain as an outsider anonymous spectator of life.
My ID card is the only record I exist, so I wonder what would happen if I ripped it apart? Would I cease to exist, would I just disappear? How interesting, how mysterious, how amusing!

Constantine the movie good or bad?

>>17603157
good

I'm 19 and I've never shagged anybody even though I'm considered better than average in attractiveness and have had multiple people want to either go out with me or at least shag me. Everytime I just fuck it up because I'm afraid it'll go terribly. I'm worried they'll just get tired of me so I end it before it goes anywhere, I've called off dates with beautiful girls who were into me because I lied to myself that I was happy being alone, all I really wanted to do was avoid connecting with somebody. I need to sort this out or I'm going to end up never getting my hole which would be a disaster. Lads, send your prayers that I may soon grow some hair on my balls, finally shag something and get a gf.

I don't really care but I noticed someone I went to school with deleted me off fb. They are still friends with everyone else but not me. I never post statuses or anything. I wasn't ever really good friends with this person, but they still have kept people they never spoke to. As I said I don't care too much but why the random delete?

>>17603169
Fuck them, not your problem.

>>17603160
Cool :)

Why does it matter if I'm considered a nice and polite person, but have depression, low self-esteem, can't socialize, and thus my company isn't really valued? The assholes are always the ones getting all the attention. People hold them as role models because they are "extroverted" and "assertive" and bullshit like that, when they are simply sociopaths who have no regard for the feelings of others. People should begin to shun these narcissistic trashes instead of praising them. Every day I'm feeling unworthy of love - of any kind - and knowing that these shallow people are the standards of society only makes me feel even worse. I just wish I didn't care about being alone, given how meaningless human relations truly are.

19 and had sex four times. Current girlfriend told me about previous boyfriend being bigger, but didn't have a high libido. I got jealous and started the "jelqing" meme that everyone talks about.

Damaged my dick. It literally has a torsion of like fifteen degrees to the right. Other symptoms include chronic constipation, weaker urine flow, and a steel rod flaccid penis. The problem with the dick goes away if I lay down and relax. Urologist said take a six week rest because he had no fucking idea what happened, and won't do imaging tests until the pain of an erection goes away. I'm on the fourth week of rest, total abstinence.

Erections are still bad, and I can't get it up when I'm standing. Good news is that I don't suffer any pain anymore. I think I fucked up my sex life.

I'm actually going to make a thread about it now. Has anyone heard of this happening before?

>>17603258
>>17603258
All you've got to do is go out and get into situations where you need to socialise. Learn how to have a normal chat. Nevermind loud folk or people who need to be in command because people get tired of them quickly. Just make some friends and do your own thing. That shit that your company isn't valued isn't true either. Everybody I know at some point gets some distorted thinking in their head that everything is going terribly and everyone hates them. Fuck that shit, when you interact, be a good guy, chill out and have a good time that's all I can say.

>>17603143
Hey anon friend. Me again.

Ah, that's probably why texting works better for you, since you see her in person often.
I see my friend only on Saturdays. Texting has proven to be short and uneventful. But in person I can talk to her for hours, and I find it easier to gauge her responses and read her body language. Texting makes me over think things and makes me feel like I said something stupid.

>>17603119
Me too pal.
What's your story?

It's me, the anon who got abandoned by two friends. I was trying to keep myself occupied and ended up playing a game. At one point I realized I was on the same server that one of the friends who blocked and removed me was on (Game requires what software we communicated on, to play, but doesn't take in account if someone blocked you) he didn't know it was me. I keep thinking about it and it's just such a weird feeling

>>17603291
Thank you... I'll strive to live to your advice, specially when my messed up brain tries to deceive me into believing otherwise.

I feel like there is no one on the planet that I can truly relate to. The past few years I've grown up a lot. I've learnt many bad things about the world. I remember having crushes. I used to love fantasising about a certain crush. You know that feeling when you think of someone, and instantly getting a bit happier. Missing a person, wanting to be with him/her. That feeling I can no longer have anymore. I'm currently recovering from a bad depression. I used to see nothing good in anyone, and felt empty since there was no one in my life, or no one even imaginable to "crush" on. Now that I've been doing better, I start seeing more good in people, and even started getting those "crushy" feelings towards a certain friend. That already feels really good, but my problem is that it could never get more than that. I have been disappointed by others so many times before and feel like I have figured out what "true love" really means. Sad thing is that I refuse to believe that any guy I come across with will ever understand it like I do. As soon as I commit to a relationship, I will get disappointed, or hurt at some point. There is always jealousy from both sides, and one is always going to have more sympathy than the other. I simply cannot not start anything serious like this. I don't want to get hurt anymore, but I don't want to be alone forever. How do I deal with this feeling of eternal solidarity?

>>17603388
I feel like I've been in the same boat, but not every relationship in this world is going to be like something out of Disney movie. Every couple has things they like and don't like about each other, the reason they stay is because of compromise such that the pros > cons. Seems like your depression is getting the better of your judgement, if you want to be alone, then you stay alone. If not, then you start by trying to find a relationship (i.e. just talk to him/her without sperging out). "True love," is what you define it as, whether you choose to be optimistic of it and believe that one day, you will find the right person or simply believe that one shortcoming from your partner is a deal-breaker. Don't date to fill a void, but rather to improve your life, because that void won't disappear unless you work on improving yourself first. But this is coming from an anon who recently got out of a relationship, so take what I said with a grain of salt.

I haven't enjoyed my life in a very long time, i lie to my family and friends about being happy, the only thing that keeps me remotely sane and wanting to live is the time i get to spend with the girl i love, which at some point it has started to feel as if she has stopped loving me more day after day. I have no one to talk to about any of my problems, if i say anything about them to family they will all try to get me to go to a psychologist. My family doesn't handle problems well they immidiately try to push them off on to other people, thats why ive always tried to keep my problems to myself instead of confronting them, which has lead me to tend to explode in anger because i bottle eveything up

I took a chance on you even when I was convinced the odds were in my favor and I still lost. And then people ask me why I don't try.

I like the city I'm living in, but I wish I didn't live in the little ching chong. Over half the girls are asian and it makes finding a suitable partner infuriatingly difficult.

>>17603301
Yea.

So It's kinda odd how only I initiate, but she is willing to talk for hours when I do.

>>17603099
im so done with my goddamn life right now i want to end everything, or alternatively start over. i feel like i have no purpose here except to feel like fucking shit 24/7.i feel like ive been dealt "good cards" i have a supportive and normal family and upbringing with money, however i just dont feel like i can make it on my own. im on the cusp of moving out of my parents place, im so pissed that my younger sister did it before me, but my parents paid for a majority anyway. i absolutely do not want to work just to squander money away on shit like apartments, fuck that. i just want a well paying position and a house, and someone who i can be with forever and fuck. but those goals are not in sight for me right now. im taking way too goddamn long to get out of college, all of my friends are out and have good paying work, and wives and i just stuck here part timing just trying to make it. i cant do college and 40h of work fuck that.

Fuck ever falling in love again.

I gave it my everything for 2 years, and I've walked away completely heartbroken.

It'll be a long time before I do this again.

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>>17603258
I don't like people very much to tell you the truth, but for what it's worth, i like those like you better than the high-self-esteem flamingly-extroverted twitter-loving egotistical cunts that seem to be everywhere these days.

If everyone had lower self-esteem maybe they'd be less goddamn annoying. If you ask me, everything old people say about millennials is 110% true.

I seriously don't get it. I can't get any better. I'm too big of a mess physically to even bother, and my mental state isn't much better. I get that. So why the fuck can't I just accept it and let go? Why does failing to be a functioning human still hurt so much? I just want to be okay with it, so that my future isn't just waiting until the sheer fucking pain of it all causes me to off myself.

>>17604062
I'm in the same situation but I'm loving it. Asian girls are my thing, before I moved here I didn't even try to get with girls cause they were all simply uninteresting.

I love you but you think so little of me don't you? I just want to be over you but you show just a bit of kindness and i don't get that anywhere else so I appreciate it more than i should. i hate my weak heart.

I have no talent. No passion. No drive. No friends. No personality. My body is a broken, irreparable piece of shit. My emotions are all a giant mess. My family has given up on me. I've never been loved and never will be, but it's probably for the best, as I can't remember loving anyone either. I don't think I've cared about anyone at all, really, in the past few years, even when I wanted to. It's as though I fail at being a human being on every possible level. Should I even still bother? It hasn't gotten better in six years now. Maybe it's time to just give up and end it. My life is of no benefit to anyone. I'm told to have hope, but it's by strangers who I'm certain would give up on me in a heartbeat if they actually knew just how big of a fuck-up I am. I'm told there is future for me, but it's by people who found success. I'm told there is love for me, but it's by people who have it already. I'm tired of the lies, really. A part of me just wants to hear that I have nothing to live for from someone close to me, get some confirmation, so I can just do it with perfect clarity and purpose. But no one will give me that. They can't, because society demands they try to keep me alive despite it achieving nothing. Even though they gave up on me, they still feel the need to claim I have much to live for and they'd care. About the funeral bill, maybe. Maybe that's it. Maybe I should just leave and die somewhere no one will find me. That way they won't have to worry about any costs. I don't know. I just feel like there's no place for me anywhere. I want to be okay with being what I am, but it hurts every time I think it through. I want to be a good person. I want to be good at being a person at all. But I just can't. What am I even supposed to do?

I want to kill myself

If only you'd given me a chance, we could have flown.

>>17604400
How many chances can a person be given before they stop expecting new chances after throwing away the previous several?

I have the most beautiful "friend". Or at least she says she is one.

I am probably gonna end up my life soon. I fear that she might think she is the reason for it and suffer from guilt, thus prolonging my agony. I also think that she might not even care, and that just brings the barrel closer to my mouth.

I am supposed to be a psychologist and I have so many problems of my own. I am very shy. I feel very easily socially awkward. I am in a long distance relationship for five years and practical problems won't let me be with the person i love any time soon. During periods of stress I tend to do things that better match the behavior of a teen (eg. getting crushes on celebrities).
However, I try my best to become better as time goes by and never let any of my problems or flaws affect the way I want to live my life.
Everyone has problems and everyone has secrets. It's only human.

If you don't start fucking me more than once a week im going to break up with you.
I cant be in a relationship with a guy who wont fuck me. Im a woman with needs.

I'm honestly at a complete loss as to how I'm supposed to make up for several years of a near-total lack of social interaction now. I'm twenty fucking five, I've never been in any sort of relationship nor even felt the need for it before recently. I have no friends, I don't know how even make friends. I don't know anything about social interaction beyond the fucking basics, and now I'm supposed to just fit in like it ain't shit, and no one can even offer me any meaningful advice. It's just 'hurr it's easy m8'.

>>17603099
MAY I shit on your chest? OR NOT

>>17603099
Sometimes I shit myself at night. I don't know why

Saw an argument on facebook about how a bill to give NASA a handful of billions to put humans on Mars. Friend was totally for it, some guy was insulting him because "why aren't we using that money to fix problems here like world hunger? Technology only brings degeneracy!"

While he has a teeny tiny point, he's still a complete fucking idiot. We have the means to end world hunger AND put people on Mars AND build a moonbase and do all kinds of shit, we just don't give a shit about those who refuse to help themselves for the most part.

And besides, let's be totally fucking real here, if Tribe Badjewala in bumfuck nowheresville Africa deserved to be live, they'd have evolved themselves. It's not our fucking job to babysit everyone on the planet and help every person hold hands and be equal and all that stupid shit. If you were worth saving you wouldn't waste time putting giant plates in your lip and you'd learn how to fucking farm or do something useful, that's how humanity has always advanced.

>>17604367
>>17604436

this hits home too close, famalam
would like to play some vidya with you
write me
[email protected]

>>17604114
I think you might have told me, but is your girl looking for a relationship at all? Just in General?
Or is she busy with school and whatnot?

I'm too smart. People call me an insufferable know-it-all but I'm just too smart. I'm smarter than everyone on this board and I failed Grade Three twice because society hates smart people like me. How do I get less smart so I can conform and finally finish highschool. I'm 20 and I'm still in fucking grade nine. I know I'm smart but I pretend not to be so I can impress ladies when they see how smart I am. I'm too damn smart and I don't know what to do.

>>17604710
go fish

>>17604725
I don't like going outside.

>>17604691
I know she is busy a fuck with stuff

Don't really know if she's lookin for a relationship either.

Then again we usually are talking just as friends with no mention of a relationship.

>>17604750
>>17604691
Also, the situation is some what complicated, as a friend of hers may have played a roll in shaping her perception of me. (in a negative way)

>>17603099
Got a crush on this girl at work. Sucks desu.

Can't get her out of my head, she's so gorgeous. No reason to ask her out, trying to figure out how to stop thinking about her

Shit sucks

>>17604819

>No reason to ask her out,

Good because work place romance almost always ends very badly for the guy. You shouldn't pursue it.

>trying to figure out how to stop thinking about her

Only way is to meet someone else outside of work. I suggest you check your local speed dating events.

i wish i'd been successful in not having a crush on you. then, none of this would have happened, and I wouldn't be tormented with all these thoughts now.

goddammit. if you'd just make some plans with me, that'd be great. but i for some reason feel like that's all up to me. fuuuuck. i don't wanna try and fail anymore.

>>17604827
>I suggest you check your local speed dating events.
Because ten rejections in the space of an hour is exactly what I need.
Thanks for the advice though

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I recently went out to celebrate a friends birthday, we buy some booze and go to his friends house, they're a nice enough couple but we don't get along very well.

We drink a little than headout to the party, there we drink even more. We all just sit in some sofa in a crowded room in the third floor.

After a while I start feeling sick, and sure enough I throw up all over myself, than I proceed to run downstairs while EVERYONE on the way down points and laughs.

I just leave and take a bus home alone, me and the birthday boy had plans for today but we haven't got in touch since it happened.

What should I do besides hidding in shame?

This is fucking bullshit. I'm twenty fucking six. Up until now, I've never been attracted to anyone enough to even consider trying to get in a relationship. I didn't even feel the need for one. Not fucking once. But now? Outta fucking nowhere. A week of acquaintance and bam, hook, line and fucking sinker. It's not alright. This level of inexperience isn't something I can just make up for. I don't even know how to deal with actually caring about someone this much, let alone act on that. It's like my emotional development was fucking static for over all those years and now decided to kick in. Fuck this. What do I even do?

>>17604882
Break up and date other woman for experience. Seriously.

The worst part isn't that I'm jealous of my best friend and the relationship he has with people that used to consider me close friends. The worst part is that it's my fault that I'm left out of their shenanigans. I did a horrible thing and I'm done having to pay the price. They'd be better off if I just left.

>>17604882

>I'm twenty fucking six. Up until now, I've never been attracted to anyone enough to even consider trying to get in a relationship.

Absolutely bullshit, only fags use this type of logic to soften their ego. Women were never interested in you and so you put up this defence mechanism so that you don't crash.

>>17604892
> just date other woman
> just go pick a date from the date tree
I really do not belong on /adv/

>>17604899
>>>> under no circumstances are you allowed coping mechanics for your shitty life

Why are you so cruel?

>>17604905

This notion that he was never attracted to a girl enough to try to get into a relationship is just me being honest. We all had crushes on girls who we would love to date, even those autistic quiet kids who didn't say anything at all had them.

Give me a fucking break.

>>17604899
Yeah, nah. You should probably tone down on that generalizing.

I look in the mirror and think I look good, but other people don't treat me like they treat other attractive people

Am I deluding myself? Do I keep thinking that I'm attractive, or force myself to face reality?

>>17604900
Then fuck off and go deal with your problems on your own.

>>17604915
Seek therapy, my dude

Your anger is a little unhealthy

>>17604899
Why does it bother you so much someone might not have interest in relationships?

>>17604892
I really don't see how that'd help, to be honest. It doesn't matter with who I am, I'm still exactly as inexperienced and it's exactly as much of a problem regardless.

>>17604914

Don't use the mirror as a way to gauge how you look. Take a picture from a camera and go from there.

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I'm a pretty happy take it as it comes little fellow. With a nice wife, who loves me and some good kids. Life's not perfect. We have problems. But who doesn't?

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>>17604915

> Asks for advice
> Give advice
> Scoffs at my advice and says he doesn't belong on this board
> Tell him to fuck off from the board with no anger at all
> Is told to see therapy when he was the one freaking out over getting into a relationship.

The irony is delicious.

>>17604921
Oh. Then yeah I'm super ugly

>>17604926
Your "advice" is impossible
I'm also not who you're talking about
You're so bent out of shape.

>>17604927

Fuck it. Post your pic on here and we will rate you unbiasedly.

Who can I even talk to when I get sad now? I don't have my best friend anymore. They don't care enough to make time for me, and I just stopped bothering to ask... I'm not close enough to any of my other friends to come out and say "I'm sad today. Can we do something fun to take my mind off it?"

And I got this pathetic feeling of needing to be loved again. I just want someone to make me feel good and tell me nice things. I want to be able to hold hands and kiss someone again.

>>17604938
I really would rather not
Thanks for the offer though

>>17604920
You'll fuck it up, it will just hurt more because you care more. Just break up and start fucking other women, if and when it goes wrong will hurt less with a girl you care less about.

Please take my advice, I'm speaking from experience. Never too late to star dating.

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>>17604941

You sound like a blubbering mess guy, sack it up and stop complaining. Men move forward when everything is looking bad against them, stop bitching.

>>17604941

Anon why are you getting sad in the first place? Tell us the full story.

>>17603099
When I was 11 I found my grandparents porn. I asked my sis to do one of the things I saw one of the girls doing onto me. I was always so ashamed of it for years. About 10 years after, I told my then GF about it, she had problems as well. She cheated on me multiple times behind my back and told me I was a monster and I should be killed. Am I a monster? Would that be an ok excuse to cheat on me for 4 years basically using me to support her while she found someone else?

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>>17604962

> Incest
> Girlfriend cheated on him multiple times and is still with her
> Told to kill himself
> Am I monster?

Nice bait kid.

>>17604969
No, not still with her.

>>17604949
>men up
Fuck you.

>>17604941

Friends are not forever, I've lost every single kind of close friend over the years, all for different reasons. Try not expecting much "emotional" support from friends, chances are they probably have some problems that they want to get their minds off.

What I'm trying to say its that friends won't always be there for you, you shouldn't wait for help when you are down.

>YEEEEEEEEEEEESSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... and no

a girl i extremely like and hang out with said she has a small crush on me yesterday and ran away embarrassed.

nether her parents or my parents like us being together.

>should i say "fuck them" and pursue it?
>or stop talking to her to avoid a fight between the familys?

>>17604985

Avoid a fight between families.

You sound young so I assume you can't support yourself yet.

I'm at a fucking loss here.
The situation is as follows. Up until now - that being, me at twenty-four - I've been pretty fine with a complete lack of relationships in my life. Call it delusions or whatever, doesn't fucking matter, because the point is, it's no longer the case. Now, therein lies the issue. One, much like the guy up there, I have no fucking clue where to even begin with this shit. Not like there are fucking tutorials, Dating 101 or some shit. Nothing that isn't ridiculous and/or useless and full of 'be confident' bullshit, anyway. Hell, I don't even have friends, like fuck I'd know how to move past that. Problem two: I'm a fucking mess of medical conditions. Surgical scars all over the place, lingering issues everywhere, generally an unpleasant situation. I've got an alright face, but that's where my outward appeal would end. I'm not delusional enough to buy into the whole 'someone for everyone' horseshit, I know very well most would drop it like it's hot. But that doesn't make it better, you know? Problem three: Sex would be pretty fucking hard, since a) medical issues interfering with it, and b) I'm far too self-conscious of my body, what with it being a wreck, to actually do it right.
I liked being able to, I don't know, either not care or convince myself that I don't care and don't need a relationship. But I can't do it anymore, and it's bullshit, because I know the chances of finding someone who's actually into socially inept cripples is pretty fucking low, bordering on non-existent. Just cripples, maybe, but getting experience before finding someone like that is borderline impossible too, so I'm fucked in that area.

This is just bullshit, you know. At this point I'd be fine with a way to fool myself into thinking I'm fine alone again, since I clearly can't actually accept that.

>>17604995
then should i wait until i can support myself and move out to be with her? its just that i really really really like her

>>17605023

Really liking her doesn't pay the bills man, keep it mutual until you have money to get yourself a place.

It fucking hurts that I have to stop loving you so you can learn how to love yourself. I'm sad that I can't be reassured that we will ever have that amazing relationship again like when we first went out, but I guess I have to just let you go on your own way. Until then I'm gonna try my best to pretend that I stopped loving you and caring for you in ways I was supposed to. It hurts so much B, I wish you the capacity to love me again like you did. I just feel weird everyday now like there's this underlying problem that pulsates through my mind like a a fucking plague. It's eating my soul and I wish I fucking wish that things could've just worked. Now I have to wait... I don't even know for how fucking long. I hate how this happened, I wake up anxious again bc of you... I hate that I love you, I hate it so much.

>>17605020

You a chick? Post your tits and I might throw you some advice.

>>17605033
Nope. Dude.
Hell of a way to make that offer sound as unappealing as possible, regardless.

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Im not sure if I should talk about my depression or not.

It's been a few weeks now and it just feels like nothing is getting better.

Life feels stagnant.
My friends are too busy to hang out with me.
Even Vidya is starting to feel worthless to play.

I've always been the tough it out sort of guy.
There's no time to be depressed when others around you are suffering even more right?
But lately it's been getting harder to escape this dragging feeling.
It's gotten to the point to where I'm beginning to fantasize death more often.

Do things get better?
Should I talk to someone about this?

I really don't know.

How do I accept I'm a failure? I can't feel bad about it forever.

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It's weird.

Today, there are three guys messaging me and trying to basically hit on me.

All I want is a message from you. Something that tells me you think of me when I'm not around. I have to shut down these nice people because I'm so hopeful you'll try harder for me.

You give me the most worthless feeling: hope.

You give it in small increments. Just enough to keep me latched on.

Or maybe I should shut you out finally and give someone else a chance.
I just don't need somebody else doing what you do to me, though. I'm scared of that.

I do forget about this whammy: that after a year..when I randomly asked what my birthday and middle name was...you didn't even know lmao. Why am I stuck on you?

>>17604499
Won't humans end destroying the Red Planet, either way...

I hate the whole fucking world so bad. I hate everyone so so so fucking much holy shit ahhhhhhhgggggggggggggggg

>>17604750
>>17604756
Ahh i see. If she's super busy, she probably feels that a relationship is too much for the time being. At least that's the case with mine.
Also, like you, our hiking "dates" are more friendly than romantic, but it's also where I feel we connect the most as we open up to one another as well.

It's funny, our friends sound similar I wonder if we're dealing with the same person. How old is she?

What did her friend say about you also?

>>17605579
>It's funny, our friends sound similar I wonder if we're dealing with the same person. How old is she?

20 almost 21

>What did her friend say about you also?
Don't know. Just have an odd feeling from the way he acts, and the was she acts towards me in his presence

>>17605603
>20 almost 21
Whoa. Err when does she turn 21?

>>17605613
December

Her initials?

I really want to go back to having the amazing friendship we had before. I'm hoping you call me someday soon and we can get high as balls and I can humilliate you on SSB while blasting some nignog musics.

>>17605618
>December

Oh thank God. Lol mine turns 21 in November.

That sucks about her friend though. The fact that he's a guy means he's probably trying to get to her too by putting you in a bad light.
Tread lightly around him.

>>17605628
Yea. Mine is at the end of Dec

I actually have an idea of what may have happened.

>R Tries getting M as a side chick (He had a GF then)
>She does not like that Idea.
>He see's her possibly as being interested in me
>He finds out I asked her out
>He forces way in
>Tries to force a wedge between M and I
>Partially succeeds. Prevents us from being a thing, but not from us atleast being friends

Also, I think that she may have caught on to his toxic ways, and cut contact with him. (She claims its just because both were busy. Too busy to even text? Something seems funny...)

I'm so fucking mad at my spergy friend for making the weirdest "joke" right now... I picked up a bunch of stuff from his appartment, and he messeged me to tell me his girlfriend had hidden something and wouldn't tell him what it was, but that he expected it to be some kind of weapon, or bomb (being friends with wannabe ghetto "anarchists" are so much fun!) and that it could have been hidden among my stuff. He told me i would probably get hurt or killed if i started looking for it (like accidentally setting it off). I assumed the worst and called him and he said he was being sarcastic, and that if i found something like a note or some shit i should give him a call... I have no fucking idea how that constitutes as a sarcastic joke.
The problem is, it wouldn't be below them to actually hide stuff like that. He also thinks pointing unloaded guns (guns are extremely uncommon, except for hunting purposes, in my country) at people is cool and funny. Naturally, i freak out and panick whenever he does this, but it's okay since he got the assburgers and doesn't know about social rules!!1

Glad i'm out of their life now, they can have their little thug lyfe street cool white trash circlejerking bullshit for themselves now. Sorry i'm not mentally a 12 year old that measure self worth by how many times i've peed on a police car or got caught trashing public and private property "because muh anarchy hurr durr fock de sistem lol".

Who the fuck tells their friend a bomb is "probably hidden in their appartment right now"... fuck off. My grandparents didn't flee from war to have me grow up among these retards.

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I am in so much fucking pain of being alone for so many years and I just fucking had my first relationship in years.
Then she left me for no reason and now I am alone again.
JUST FUCK MAN.

I will
with pride now face my faith
King and Queen now lie in state
Fear of life I wear as a ring
I bask in your favor, I have killed the king

If you decide to disappear again for weeks for the umpteenth time...just expect the hate to set in.

Odd. I have a funny feeling that I'll run into her, and well just talk for a little while about stuff. And maybe stuff will slide into place?

I desperately want to like people, but they always end up letting me down by lying or stabbing me in the back or using me. I forgive them, but I never forget and my relationship with them is never the same. I've decided just to stay away from people and stay a loner. People are all the same.

>>17605640
At the risk of sounding beta, I can't stand it when guys who just want a piece of ass try to ruin it for those who legit want a relationship. That guy is a snake and a cock block.

>>17605974
You're also a people you realize that right?

>>17605983
Yep. I came to that conclusion months ago, when I first noticed his ways.

I think that she saw that he just wanted to fuck her aswell. Definitely seems like she caught on, but was unwilling to cut him off at first

>>17605640
>>17605983
Also I've had a similar experience in the past few weeks. Thankfully it was nipped early on.
>S and H are co-workers and fwb
>H was originally gonna go with P (girl I like) to concert, but invited S last minute cuz they're fucking.
>all 3 kick it at concert, and two other times after that
>H notices S asking about P more often now.
>H tells me she thinks S is trying to fuck P now
>P notices his motives though, and assures H that she has no intention of going with him cuz again, she's not looking for anything. Especially a strictly sexual relationship.
>P talks to me about it, but tell her I knew about his intentions already. I had already figured P wouldn't screw over a friend Like that anyway.
>still, I warn her to just watch out for him to avoid any drama

What cracks me to though It's he tells me about the hangouts like he's trying to get a rise out of me. And he'll ask me personal questions about my relationship with her like he's my friend or something.

I try not to bring him up when I'm out with P because I'd rather enjoy my time with her, and from experience, telling a girl that a guy is no good usually draws her more towards him for whatever reason.

I feel like I could only be happy with a girl. At the same time, it seems like I could never be with one.

>>17603099
Fuck fuck fuck, fuckity fuck fuck fuck fuck..... FUUUUUCK I let this happen every time!

>>17606007
Ah. For me, It seems like it kinda was nipped by M. But he was not accepting of her not wanting to fuck him, so he tried something to prevent her from getting with me.

To Anonymous
>>17582477
Happy birthday.

I don't know what the fuck you're playing at.

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I don't really feel anxious about it anymore, but when I'm alone I feel empty and angry about it. Why did we somehow end up on the same server? I could tell it was you, just by how you typed. You wouldn't believe how angry I felt when I realized it was you. I'm kind of glad you didn't know it was me. You just keep me hanging on.

>>17604710
O i am Laffin u fuckn dumbass

>>17605920
Story time

my "friends" don't deserve me, I'm better off all alone

>>17606246
They're lyrics
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5yszaOJHPjA

I hate myself. Everybody just keeps on abandoning me or rejecting me.
My ex wife, my date..
And this voice in the back of my head just keeps telling me it'll keep happening, that I'm not worth it
Fuck..I can't go back to that. I was fine. I was finally looking forward to something..

This girl keeps posting shit on my facebook and liking posts her friends write about how "scared" they are Trump might win, and how "useful idiots" are going to vote for Johnson/Stein.

I really want to comment talking about how retarded 90% of the posts she likes are against Trump or how the fuck she won't even vote since she's part of the uninspired Millennial generation that couldn't even get Bernie elected.

Bitch, you're delusional. Get the fuck out.

>>17606024
Good on her though. P is the same way. Says she's good at avoiding drama headed her way.

But yeah, hopefully M comes around. It would suck to have a snake's word make her miss out on dating you.

I pretend to love you because without you I will be completely alone. Is it preferable to have my soul suffer the loss of morality or to be so lonely?

>>17606573
Yea. Hopefully. I think that all will work out in the end. Just a funny feeling really?

fuck sandals

>>17606614
Yea I get you. Here's hoping.

Two of my grandparents died this year. One was right after I learned to read EKGs and saw him have multiple heart attacks through the night at the hospital. He begged and pleaded to die because the pain was too much. Medical school is a son of a bitch and I can't stop for a minute to breathe. To top it off my girlfriend of six years after having been engaged for a year decided that she wants a break from me to see if this is what she really wants. I have no motivation. Im just fat and depressed now.

Damn I've been killin' it on reddit lately. Got myself an additional 4000 comment karma in the last 3-4 days.

>>17606494
nigga you salty as fuck

I really just want to leave and hate you but you're so perfect I don't understand why you're still here with me. You are more of a girl than me you can't fucking decide if you want to stay or not. I was perfectly happy by myself for the most part I never relied on someone then you came along and I caught feelings. Now I'm stuck in a never ending I do and I do not love you.

>>17606766
This

Sex with my boyfriend is boring and I'm not turned on by him anymore. I want to fuck other men. But I still love my boyfriendn what do?

I realized that I was married for a long time.

My wife's name is "alcohol."

I cant scroll thru feeds of anything (social media, news/sports, etc.) or look at anything in general that has a picture of a female without anxiety overwhelming me and me just selfdepricating/feeling shame of how lame i am.

>>17606766
>>17606920

typical lefties, all memes and tone trolling

I wish I could forget you as easily as you seem to have forgotten me.

I wish I wasn't alone tonight. I feel my heart is heavy and bleeding.

I live in Hollywood so it feels like no matter how smart, funny, confident, or bright I am, because I'm fat men will always find a thinner woman to date.
I keep telling myself that someone will accept me, but I don't believe it.
At the same time, it terrifies me that if I were to lose weight, a good amount of people would find me more valuable because I was lighter. I want to be healthier but I don't want the attention or praise or more catcalling.

>>17607239
Talk to him about an open relationship? Try books and sex toys?

I was physically, verbally, emotionally and sexually abused by my dad... Physically, verbally and emotionally abused by my mum and physically and verbally abused by her boyfriend.
I've been in care since I was 7... The people who I now call my parents are lovely, but I am still sick from everything that happened as a child and my behaviour since.
It's worth noting that my foster dad never really did 'dad' things with me... That's probably why I looked up to and idolised the people I had the most in common with. Murderers

These thoughts used to be more common than they are now, they were subsiding. Now they are coming back.

I never really had any friends or anything, and, my last job I was tediously washing cars all day which wasn't good for my sanity. Now I work somewhere I enjoy, somewhere that I have made friends. I've been more happier than I ever have... Yet I still dream of chaos and the freedom that it brings. Running around in the night with a gun, ending the next person. There are no boundaries... I'll see you niggers on the front page

>>17607286
Former fatty here, can confirm your fears. Lost a shit tonne of weight and realized that people starting treating me much better and I was recieving lots of favorable attention. Looding weight made me really bitter, rather than happy, because it made me realize that appearance means everything. You should still try to loose weight though, for health reasons.

i'm still pretty caught up on my ex which is completely fucked because this new person is interested in me and she's REAL fuckin good to me and i can't be honest and say i can't do a relationship so i'm just sort of sinking deeper and deeper into a relationship with her and feeling guilty pretty much every day because i can't love her 100% the way i did (do?) my ex. what's the point of going into a relationship you see no future in. what's the point of going into a relationship at all if you feel you can't put 100% into it

I just want to scream, this is driving me insane. I feel your pain, your suffering, its like I'm connected to you even when I completly remove you from my life. I don't know what the fuck this is, I can't be there for you and I can't leave you. Maybe your my soul mate I don't know how else to explain it.

>>17606730
Thanks. Now just to figure out how to proceed now.

she speculated the reason why you blocked me first was so that it was in your power. but no, that's just wishful thinking. you really don't want to talk to me - it's been a fortnight without you.
oh well - it's getting easier, i guess. i hope you're doing okay, senpai. but i still fucking hate your guts as well.

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I'm about to get drunk and play some r6 siege on ps4, anyone want to join me and get shitfaced and fuck around? also got rocket league and trackmania, just want to have a laugh and some bants

You left me, you cut me out of your life. I offered you solace during everything you went through and you threw me away over someone who fed your delusions.
Someone so blatantly manipulative.
It hurt so much but pain fades. I'm moving on. I hope you're proud of yourself, cutting off someone who only ever gave you 100% of themselves. It was my own fault for expecting the same.

I really like you, but I don't think we're compatible. I hope you find a better match. I'm obviously shit, so... Gl.

>>17607304
i former former fatty here
nothing changed for me because i was so fucking asocial. you have to get out there while you're still fat, because i swear to high fucking heaven if you don't, and you lose weight and nothing changes you might end up like me and just drink the weight right back on.
it's so fucking stupid but even though i'm fat i get out now and i'm receiving more positive attention than i did in a lifetime because of the work i've done on my attitude and interpersonal skills. Now I'm in a positive place to lose some weight and it's going well.

>>17604949

This is time tested and true. But bitching helps that process a little.

I have come to the conclusion there isn't a single piece of advice that's more useless than 'man up'. Not complaining doesn't solve a problem, what the fuck.

>>17603145
I read you, anon

>>17603099
I love her so much. It hurts to talk to her but it hurts even more to be away from her. I want to die but I'm afraid of death. I'm anxious to go outside and live but suffer panic attackd from staying inside and doing nothing. I am a living juxtaposition and should probably just kill myself

I'm in love. I LOVE YOU. You make my everyday life so bright. Thank you.

Holy fuck I'm a shitty person. It's like I'm a walking detriment to everyone. Why the fuck am I even alive?

Whats the point of my life? Why the fuck am I here? I've got a good brain, I've got above average looks, I've got good social skills and many friends. I've never had a gf and unless some slag chooses to settle down with me after fucking multiple blokes I probably wont ever have one. But I'm not satisified because of all the SHIT I see going on around me. I hate this modern world, I hate how I'm even here to say this, the internet has ruined my social life. Nobody I know goes outside anymore, and when they do its usually only to do drugs or drink. The welfare state has turned this place into a land of the drunk, the lazy and the drugged up. And niggers and pakis come here like maggots on a rotting corpse, feasting on our excess and gloating about it, demanding we stay down and let them pillage us. I wish I could talk about this out loud but no-one will listen and no-one will care.

All I'm waiting for is for something to happen, something which will destroy this modern world and send us all back to the fucking dark ages. If the rest of my life is going to be like this, just kill me now.

J,

I fucking love you and miss you. Therapy has made me realize how my attitude and neediness, which I thought was being affectionate and caring, asphyxiated you. I'm working on learning to get my happiness from and for myself and not others. It has also made me realize that you were prodding my insecurities without realizing it, and you weren't communicative nor understanding either.

My feelings for you have slowly morphed overe these two months. What I had before was love, but also obsession and desperation. I'm slowly shedding these off, but the love remains. I now love you in a more peaceful, tranquil way, and feel content with myself. I'm not going to stop loving you anytime soon, but I feel at ease with you not reciprocating, since now I don't love you so you'll love me back, or due to insecurity or neediness, but love you without any further expectations. While I still believe in us, and would like to give it another try, it's ok if you don't feel the same way. I'd like for us to get back in touch, I really want to know what you've been up to lately. Call me, let's play some vidya.

Love you!

D

>>17603099
I want a gf but I'm really to lazy to maintain one for longer than a day
I don't want to be their fucking entertainer and I want my peace most of the time
but I hate to be alone

I have this indescribably immense desire for you. I want to feel your innocent body with my hands. I want to taste the forbidden fruit. I can't stop thinking about it. I never thought my love for you would leak into lust.

I want to be set free.

After waiting 15 years to see my sister again, and spending about a year with her, I find out shes just really awful person.
Im actually super mad that our family made multiple sacrifices to give her chances and she never used those chances and just them go to waste, and now is bitching how her life sucks and its everyone elses fault. Like youre my fucking sister. I have to live with you forever. I want you to succeed so badly. Do you know how disapointing it is to see that after all our sacrifices and efforts, you chose to do nothing and then claimed to be the victim?

A few months ago she complained how she always wanted a patio but she never has the materials to build one. And then I go out of my way to buy the materials and surprise her. She still hasnt made the fucking thing and didnt even seem to care much after I built it for her.
What do you want out of life!?

What the fuck is wrong with me. I straight up don't find anyone or anything arousing anymore. It's not a matter of porn, as I haven't fapped in a long while (read: over two months) now. It's like my sex drive is straight up gone. I'm starting to get somewhat concerned, here.

>>17608153
She needs too talk to a professional... Stop helping her so much.

>>17608111
Ask them out

>>17608153
Sounds like what she needs is proper motivation, desire to actually act beyond the simple want for things. Either get her to talk to a professional or talk it over with her - though the former is more likely to actually work.

I want a wife.

NEED a wife.

>>17608297
I need a meaningful companion.

Next time you try to get ahold of me, I won't be around. You're a super shitty person. I hope it all turns around and bites you in the ass. Non-confrontational dickhead.

Why the fuck did I waste my time by always being there for you?

I'm dumb and you suck.

>>17608333
That's not a very a good day to start your week..try to forgive the, they're probably really busy, dealing internal or external problems, you never really know..Any ways try not say I hope you gets what's coming to you or the turns around and bites you in the ass or something. Have a good week a head!

>>17607257
>typical lefties, all memes and tone trolling

(You)

I don't want to feel anything. I don't want to feel anything . I can't handle this emotional overload. I don't know what to do. I'm going crazy, Someone help. I can't do anything to better this
.

>>17608370
Well why not try talking to a psychologist? Or is it too much for you?

>>17608376
On a waiting list...

>>17608357
No, it isn't a good start. I normally wouldn't say something spiteful like that, but I'm tired of being played with and treated like I don't exist. Especially after I'm always there for him when he need it.

I honestly want to die

I just told my bf that i think he's only in the army to impress his dad. Response pending. I dun goofed

>>17608393
Oh...well I heard there's "online" counseling? It's free for the first time session?? Or you could TRG 7cupsoftea? there's depression forums chats try see if you find any that people are willing to help you.

At least I have my doggo.

>>17608537
That's good for you anon, be happy with doggo!

I wish I wasn't so insecure.

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I'm so excited to die soon :}

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I don't give a fuck anymore about how many times I post in this thread. Even before this, I would get paranoid and think you guys were ignoring me, or that I did something wrong. My mind would still try to engulf me. Now that you're gone, whenever I'm not being distracted by something, I think of you guys, and practically stress myself out over that and over other things. I'm afraid to get too close to my new friend, for fear that he will do what you guys did to me. Btw, I played with one of you guys on Saturday, without you realizing it was me. I know how to get around blocks.
>Mfw trying to play it cool during this

My brother is seven years older than me, my family is going through some bad stuff right now and I feel pretty bad at this time because I have to go travel away soon.

Me and him went to go eat outside and on that day he showed me a very negative side of him, I thought he was pretty ignorant until I asked him what he would do if there were no consequences and he said "put a bullet through my head''.

I felt pretty foolish that I do barely know how he felt. There's not much more I can say, he needs someone, guidance and love. He never feels truly loved, only vengeful.

I hope that maybe somehow I can help him out. It broke my heart.

I just want to tell my ex that an album I've been listening to is fucking incredible and she'd probably like it because she has good taste. Is that really too much to ask?

I don't have the energy to go through the 'reaching out' process to try and establish a friendship again. Friendships don't start by making ground rules. I'd feel like I'd be making a whole thing out of nothing, if she's over it anyway. Fuck sake.

>>17608559
Agreed.
Just now I saw my crush on Snapchat post a pic of her in class with a guy friend sitting behind her. Nothing romantic in the slightest, yet here I am feeling slightly down about it.

For God's sake we're not dating. She's entitled to friends and more if it comes to it. And I haven't been innocent either.
I just have to keep reminding myself that Whatever happens happens.

I want to die

>>17608603
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J7HpMFm0tBs
same

I miss you. I love you, I feel we are meant to be together. I can't stop thinking about you, I've missed you so much this week. It hurts more than anything. I wonder if you feel the same

I'm torn. On one hand I'm glad to see you happy, going out and meeting new people. On the other I'm destroyed that you don't want me there with you. Please, just don't be too self destructive.

I am envious of you. Envious of your independence. You always seem to be one step ahead in life. Look at you. You got friends. A job. A drivers license. Then look at me. Still at the bottom.

Every attempt I make in proving I'm worthy of being a member of society is kicked in the dirt as the actions of someone else and especially yours prove me wrong. So what am I doing wrong? Does the world have a problem with me or do I have a problem with the world?

Do I even try hard enough?

I know exactly what words will come out of my friends and family the entire time. It's so predictable and creepy. I know. They just want to help, but I don't think they understand the gravity of my situation enough. That's why I like to be by myself. I like me. I (think I) know what I'm doing. I (think I) understand myself better than anyone in my godforsaken life. JUST WHAT AM I DOING WRONG!?!?

I keep asking more questions, and those questions become bigger and different questions, and this goes on and on and on and on until it's all a big pile of questions as big as a mountain. A mountain of enigma.

Outside I might seem calm ad collected but I am always in a battle between myself on the inside 24/7. I don't know what to do. I'm afraid to do. I don't have the strength anymore to climb all the way to the top of the mountain of enigma. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? WHY CAN'T I FIND THE ANSWER!? WHAT AM I DOING WRONG!? WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER WITH THIS AT ALL?

WHY CAN'T I JUST BE AS INDEPENDENT AND PLANNED AHEAD AS YOU!?

had a dream last night where the next morning you can't remember it but you know you liked it. throughout the day I kept trying to remember and eventually did: I attempted to kill myself in my dream. had a gun, pulled the trigger 3 times and it never fired, in the dream i wish it had.

this has me really fucked up right now. I don't know how to feel about it. i hate myself and worst of all I have no one to help me. I've had an awful weekend. everything wrong I have ever done is weighing on me. and just last week I felt great. I'm not going to do it if we're being real. I know this because I'm still going to do my homework tonight. for now I feel like dirt though.

So I wanted to step in and become "normal". Went to one place to study, aññ the friends I could make were girls. I had a hard time making friends with guys. I was still happy that I wasn't a friendless loser. Now I study at a new place, there's only guys for the most part. I haven't felt so out of place in a while. I don't know why but somehow I don't have an easy time, maybe because I'm weak and more silent. I don't exactly want a girlfriend but in a specific way I feel more comfortable working with women and they are generally more ok with my presence.

I don't know what to do.

>>17607487
Now, I need to figure how I can try to work past, or undo what R did

>>17608916
>worthy of being a member of society
yeah, you're scum

Society is trash, and you start off becoming something by rejecting it's command over yourself, and spending more time alone.
Then you have to develop yourself, or otherwise you would get bored to death.

I fall asleep every night to and voice whispering to me that I'm worthless and should kill myself. Antispsychotics also make me feel like shit, they take the enjoy-ability out of life. Have to deal with all of this while trying to get an engineering degree.

I'd do it if it weren't for the people I'd hurt. The lack of sleep is killing me too, the voice likes to command me to wake up occasionally when I'm trying to fall asleep.

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I fucking hate going to the doctor because for whatever reason I feel cornered there, and like I hate having to spend extra time there. Because of this, I haven't told my doctor about something that's long overdue. Kms

>>17609355
I better not be like him now...that would be quite fucked up. :/

>>17609520
What would be fucked up? You being like me when it comes to doctors?

>>17609270
What Did he say about you exactly, assuming you know?

>>17609584
Don't really know. And I probably won't unless I either get with M, or somehow become friends with that bastard


Read this post for my idea. >>17605640

I'm so lonely, and I've never talked about it. I was virtually in love with a girl for a total of 7 years, but have just come off it (though, to be honest, I'm not sure if I've just become distracted with this:). A girl I've had some interest in has shown that she may be interested in me, telling my friends that "I'm awesome" and has made nice gestures to me and has seemed happy to see me the few times I've seen her since she spoke to my friends. I really want to get with her, and have already messaged her online and got a good response. I am worried that I might fail at talking to her in person, as I'm not usually comfortable around really good looking girls. I've also been getting hit hard with loneliness, and self doubt is dragging me down into thinking that I have no chance with her, or that I've been over thinking everything (which I certainly have been), and that she probably isn't interested, that she's just being nice (she's a really sweet girl, and treats everyone really well). I've just been hurting mentally, and want tomorrow to go well when I see her again and try to go even further. I've never had a girlfriend, so I'm totally inexperienced and worried that I will blow this.

Sorry if I've been ranting or explaining everything as if I'm speaking to someone, I've just needed to spew words to try and make myself feel better.

all my hobbies remind me of people who I have hurt because im a horrible person

im rapidly losing an enjoyment for life because of it and I just want to die

I fall in love with the beautiful girl. She so pretty and nice. I can get over with her. I feel like my life is nothing without her. I want her so badly so badly. I dont want her to leave me. I wish i can go back time. Her voice when she sings it gaves me goosbumps. I repeat it everyday just to hear her voice. Just by looking at her face it makes me shy and scared and of course i'm a coward. I tried my best to show her that i love her. I guess she wont notice a thing from me. I tried i tried. Last week i found that my best freind likes her. i dont know how i feel but i have to help him out. And den i realise it was 2 late 2 show her my feelings. She likes my best friend. my heart ache. I'm sad and depressed. Please somebody help me out. Can't do this aynmore. I still love her deep down inside my heart theres still space for her. I always hate myself. I always make worst scenarios in my head. I realise have no chance with my Best friend he so funny , poular and cool too. I'm just me. Not funny. I'm ugl. Not attractable. I lover her. She's sweet and nice to everyone. I know shes always depressed. I tried to help her out as i can. She appreciate me but not alot. Just thinking about her makes me cry. Why is this happening to me? it's the 5th time. I hate it. I hate it. Help me.. I've been hurting mentally everyday , every morning and night. I guess i'm bad doing this kind of stuff. I don't know what to do with my life. I'm heartbroken. It's inevitable. Should i confess? Should i stop liking her? I don't know anymore. I've been asking this for myself everyday. Just her personality and her face makes me happy alot. Inside of me. I'm not worth for her time. I guess i'm nobody for her. I'm a coward. I love her. I love her.

I love you..

>>17609713
Sounds like I'm in the opposite of you, some of the things I like, at the same time remind me of people who hurt me

I'm kind of drunk right now, and I've started sort of seeing a guy recently, I've hung out with him and his buddy a couple times in the span of three weeks, his friend really likes me and the guys are both really fun to hang out with, plus, the guy I'm seeing seems to be really physically attracted to me. I clicked his facebook page (the guy I actually want to date) and thought he and his friend had unfriended me, so I sent them both confused messages asking why because i panicked. Then I realized that I was just being a drunk idiot, and I quickly sent them both lighthearted messages asking to completely disregard the previous messages.

Fucking goddamn it. I really hope I haven't completely screwed my odds with this guy.

>>17609720
I feel awful about it and just want to make things right. Probably just me being selfish though. I hope you feel better anon, don't let them take your hobbies from you

>>17609800
You sound like a good person. Forgive yourself for what happened and try to prevent it in the future. I hope you feel better

I've been in a few threads about people about to end it, and every time I try to turn them away from that, but let them know that I'm aware I can't make them. I ask them questions about why, and what their life was like. It's a weird feeling when you think that some of those threads were not bait.

One of my best friends thinks she's really excelling the gaming industry as a woman and all these famous people on YouTube wanna talk to her but really she just sleeps with whoever who has a large enough Twitter following. You can pretty much draw a direct line from any sort of exposure she's gotten to someone she's slept with.

I'm salty as fuck.

>>17603099
I'm fine with being alone.
I can't trust people. We're all capable of being total assholes and I don't want to play games that run the risk of getting fucked over. I'm tired of people yet I wouldn't mind affection. Loneliness is such an impractical feeling. Even if there are good people, they still wouldn't give a shit unless you gave them what they wanted. Even if they were to help you, they would be doing it out of their own volition. I don't understand friendship, and I especially don't understand how some people bond to the point where they're practically family members. Even then, those people will still be in their own little worlds. No one cares.

Honestly I'm not in pain right now, but this was one of the thoughts that's crossed my mind. Yay for the thread!

>>17609601
There only thing I would be able to conclude would be that maybe he told M that you were just like him; looking for a quick Fuck and Nothing more.

I fucking hate politics. This debate has me feeling lost. I cared so much about solving my own personal issues to benefit my family in the long run, but I feel like now I couldn't give less of a fuck about most of them. (Never has it crossed my mind that differing political opinions would fuck everything up, and the worst part about it is the fact that I don't even care about either of the elects.) I just want to get away from everyone here and live in my own comfort. How do I do this?

I don't currently have a job but I am applying now. Even then, I'll only be working minimum wage and that won't be enough to get out of here. I want to get far away. I don't want them to be able to just drive to my house without at least needing to go hundreds of miles to get there. I really don't want a roommate because I just can't deal with other people right now. What am I supposed to do?

I'm overreacting to a stupid little thing in my head right now, and I should get over it because if I keep thinking about it it'll fuck up my next conversation with you. I irrationally like you for some reason I don't understand yet so I'd love to get to know you more, so I will do my best for ,first and most importantly, my sake and yours as well to not let the old hyper self aware me come out.

Writing this out helped, thanks /adv/

>>17609878
who is she?

I have a test tomorrow and I can't focus. My laptop is missing and I doubt whoever found it is going to want to give it back, even if I offer a reward. I just want to punch something right now. Fuck me.

>>17610085
I know the feeling man. I'm not sure what to say besides it'll get better.

I'm sick of being on my own but I can't figure out how to meet people my own age. I'm not really socially awkward, I like to chat, I greet people I don't know.

I just have trouble finding anyone my age who I ever see more than once to get to know them.

Life is fucking scary man

I have a lot of friends but I don't feel like I can reach out to any of them at the moments when I really need somebody.

Doesn't help that those moments are at 1 in the morning, when they'd either be asleep and not able to talk, or even if they were awake they'd probably think I was fucking insane for begging them for emotional support at this time of night.

I'm needy and I hate it. I can't stop feeling needy and I can't grow close enough to anyone who can give me enough attention and quality time to satisfy me. I thought I had one friend who could, but it turned out that I misjudged her and she can't.

please God please somebody something take this fucking back pain away. I feel do lucky to have been Abel to kick heroin and other opiates. thanks k fully I didn't get too deep into yet just 6 months of smoKing heroin on foil plus the weak pills they gave me before and after surgery. I relapsed once been bout 2 months since then tried going back to work a month ago part time to ease back in time after 4 months no work went ok for 2 weeks then back started beijbg stupid again sitting here drinking and smoking weed randomly crying saying I'm lucky. I kicked the opiate habit. smoking grams exerting 3 or 4 days plus the pks they rxed me. now I'm thinking I'd rather take a bullet or 12 in the head before starting opiates again just for temporary relief before wanting to kill my self again from pain or withdrawal

>>17603115
You definitely shouldn't. I have an anal fissure and it's ruined my life.

>>17610345
I'm in the same boat somewhat, but it sounds like you are expecting way too much from people

I hate myself.

I love you Sophie, and I know that you know it. quit teasing me, it hurts.

I still love you Megan, but I don't think I could ever forgive you. Let me see Zoey sometime

I hate myself

>>17610383
I'm aware of that. It's part of the reason that I don't reach out to people more, I don't want to reveal how shitty I am.

Existence is way different from what I thought

We didn't ask to exist in first place

>>17610400
Well anon I don't think you're shitty. You can talk about anything here that you'd like. :- )

fuck u b.m. for ruining everything, being a fuck, and genuinely being the most horrible thing to happen to e yet

>>17610091
Thanks. At least there's someone in this world who at least acts like he cares.

I have a hard time building relationships with people, the only qt3.14s i see are either jailbait/taken.

It appears that the more socially isolated i keep myself, the closer i come to gazing into the abyss.

I shod hit up the neet thread and see about fixing social retardation.

>>17603099

At the age of 22 I have had sex 3 times. I feel as though I will somehow stay this unsuccessful no matter what I improve in my life and that I am pretty much fucked no matter what. It is killing me slowly

I don't want to be as lazy as I am but I don't know how. I've tried being active, and sometimes it keeps me going but most of the time I just end up doing only that thing and then crashing hard at the end of the day.

I gotta stay away from 4chan for awhile.
I feel it's ruining some things for me.

Great. Now I can't even sleep.

I keep fucking things up. I found out I was pregnant and tried to kill myself. I fucked that up too and now I'm afraid I did damage to the baby. I know financially and everything it's not the right time for this, but getting an abortion just isn't an option. I'm so nervous to tell my parents and be seen as a social disappointment, I'm only 20. My boyfriend is super supportive and everything, but I'm just not ready and I'm so so scared of everything.

Im a veteran of 4 years, served stateside at a training base. Job was demanding and required full attention.

Now im a civilian of 2 years, been going to school on the gi bill. Am in 3k debt to govt because they over payed me one semester, couldnt pay back because fathers house that is also in my name was going to be lost. Savings went from 10k to 1k in 6 months to keep the house afloat and dad off the street, he was going through process of disability. I have been living off credit card and am 12k in debt. Was going to pay off gov debt and most of credit debt once school started this year. Moved to anither state during this house crisis coincidently. Since january been barely scraping by off 1100 a month, my rent is 600$ that includes everything. Just started school to use gi bill to pay off more debt but school turns out to be anti veteran and are charging me instate tuition of 10k, and ive already started classes. I am 3 days from final deadline to drop with a w and im considering dropping it all for now, and re apply for school in jan when im considered in state. Thinking of working a second job part time to cover debt, would bring my income up to 2k.idk what to do.

I just got a diploma for a crappy /gd/ course I took and I came home to take a closer look at it. Turns out my last name is misspelled, something minor that I couldn't notice at a first glance, but kinda irks me because in the future there's a chance someone would fucking ask for it and regardless of how rare my full name is it's probably going to raise a few eyebrows. These guys also took a whole 5 fucking months to give me my diploma. I'm usually the kind of anxious person that has trouble asking not to get fucked so I'm not sure about asking for it to get changed and I don't know the magnitude of this problem.

I mean it's like "Andersen" instead of "Anderson" only with a much more uncommon last name.

I'm really fucking angry with my bf.
Once on christmas, two years ago, he was upset because we went with a group of people/friends through the city to go to a bar and just for a moment I talked to some other guy but my bf was walking in the back, not joining in and acting like I left him behind.

So he told me that and I apologized, he thought I had eyes for that guy, after two fucking years he still gives me shit for it and plays the fucking victim even though I tried to make him understand for so fucking long.

I'm really so pissed for his trust issues, he mentions things that had hurt me, I was in abusive relationships before and he never realizes that he's now doing the same thing to me.

I'm just so fucking tired of his shit, I honestly just want him to die so he can finally go to hell and see how much he has hurt me.

I honestly fucking try my best to be good to him, but he threatens to leave me, calls me a slut/whore and never ever fucking trusts me. I have to send him fucking pictures wherever I go because that's how insecure he is.

I fucking hate this, I don't want to meet anymore people like this. I want him to suffer like I did. I feel nothing, but foolish for putting up with this.

Women ruined my life. I am a natural social, but somehow women see that and crush me under their metaphorical heels. No way I can't deal with their aggressivity, they basically always show hate towards me, maybe it's me the problem. Maybe it's them. I don't know. But they ruined my life for sure.

>>17610047
That does make sense. But just how much did she buy it?

I have really serious trouble accepting my girlfriends past hook up. Even though it's only one.

Just got my dream job, scared as fuck because I'm really rusty and haven't really worked at it for a few years after my dad died. Everybody else is saying I'll do fine, but I don't think they seem to 'get' it and how difficult this work can be. Also feeling guilty as fuck because I know a lot of other people who have more skill than me and probably deserved the opportunity more.

>>17610865
It will be always rough at the beginning, there's nothing much you can do against that.

Also I get the same kind of reaction when I get into something new as well "you'll do fine, you're smart, you're capable" yet I really struggle at the beginning. Only advice is to not give up early on and you'll do fine -later-.

I don't know if what i'm feeling constitutes as being an overachiever or having OCD, but it's the closest i can think of. Mother was never happy with anything i did, i could always do better. Even when i excelled, i wasn't good enough, some little details were always missing, and we had daily fights about me being lazy, dumb or being purposely sloppy. Now as an adult i realize she had mentals problems of her own and was projecting her own insecurities and unhappiness with her life on me. She didn't want me to end up like her (overworked and underpaid with a job she hates). She also didn't get me the proper treatment or care that i needed for my severe problems with ADD/ADHD as she believed no child had greater difficulties doing certain things than others. I was "Just like the others, just lazy."

As a 24yo now living on my own i can't shake this mentality, and the smallest mistake make me break down into tears, anger and rage. I can't even do the fucking dishes without flipping my shit. Cleaning anything gives me mad anxiety, and i have to sort everything i own into perfectly categorised systems. It's all or nothing. Just brushing my teeth takes 15 minutes. Every little detail has to be accounted for, every nook and corner has to be perfectly clean. It's so meaningless and achieves nothing in the end. I just want to be able to do normal shit without having constant anxiety and a lump in my stomach, without making a fucking project out of washing my hands, or divide every action i take into perfectly alligned little systems in my brain. My need for control is beyond managing at this point. It's become such a huge deeply ingrained part of me, while also being completely unmanageable. It destroys me. I don't know how to break out of this cycle, being aware of it and trying to do things in a more simple way solves nothing, it just replaces one bad habit with another. It's min-maxing either way.

Hitler was right

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I'm supposed to meet this girl i've known online for the last five years offline in the next couple of weeks and it's fucking making me sick to my stomach.


I've always met girls ive been interested online since middle school and it's always went south EVERY single time. I've done a lot of growing up since middle/high school, but I still have tons of insecurities that I can't handle and it's making me so stressed out thinking about meeting this chick and having to bare everything in front of her.

I legit want to die thinking about it, thinking about how she might not find me attractive after years of communication, how she can nitpick every little flaw i've got offline, just thinking about how everything can go wrong has me feeling sick

The 6 hour drive i'm going to be making to see her just might literally kill me, senpaitachi.

i really hate being ugly and i hate having crushes

but i also hate my job so tomorrow i'm going to ask my work crush out so i can get fired

Time is going by so fast
I can't decide wich path in life I want to go in
Who are the people I want to impress, be influenced by, relate to?
What do I want to work for? Money, success?
I'm at a crossroads. Do I want to delve more into religion? Culture?
Where do I want to be in 5 years?

Do I think it would be necessary to see a therapist? Should I really put more effort in socially?

>>17603099
I have a problem and I will have to do a lot of things in order to get rid of it

every single time i want my husband to be attractive me i will have to get him to do this dog and pony show where he pretends to be an actual man and not the pale shadowy beta submissive that's had me obligated to be the domme for the last 5 years

i really crapped out on sex in this life
i'm a big gangly ugly woman, i look and act more like a man that's why my husband loves me

but he's a good guy, he's a good dad. so like i said, i fucking rolled snake eyes when it came to sex in this life. never really had good sex. never really felt desired. but whatever fuck it. life's a shit show and then you die. if you're a pretty girl life has some sparkly moments from 20-29 and then it's a shit show again.

i dont' fucking care we're all going to ROT

>>17603281
>Current girlfriend told me about previous boyfriend being bigger

you're an idiot for asking, she's an idiot for telling

yes, everyone knows jelqing is bad for your dick. i can't believe you haven't heard of that

I'm so tired of going out to eat by myself.

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Just wanted the world to know that i found pic related today, took it home, cooked it and ate it. Shit was delicious. Would do again

>>17603099
Im pretty sure I cant feel emotion besides personal gain and personal loss.

Fear that i will die this isolated person. Im 21.

>>17610840
That all depends on how well she knew you at the time.
Women are odd like that. You May come off as friendly, cool, respectful, etc. But if M had that mentality of "guys just want me for my body", and he told her that you were no different from the rest, she would become more wary.

Now she's still your friend because she probably does like talking to you. But she's being wary. She's gauging you to see if you're really what that snake has told her.

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You made things worse by coming back. What the literal fuck is wrong with you? You come back and lead me on to think you're not going to cut me off again, and the next day you're fucking gone. This is the kind of shit that I don't let go, and that's probably why I'm still upset over it. I'm stuck, lost, confused, and lonely. I let you back with arms wide open and you do this, makes me angry to the point of wanting to say that I wish you fucking bled out that night.

ANON GET BACK AND MAKE A NEW LETTER-THREAD NOW

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>>17603099
I don't know who i am anymore, my opinions can be easily changed, I have two groups of friends whom i have to keep changing my personality to be around, I hate myself and I feel like as if all i am is a burden on others.

>>17611957
True. At the time we really didn't know each other much, spoke a handful of times prior. But R was already pretty good friends with her by then.

I don't think she really had the "guys just want me for my body" mentality, well at least until R planted the seeds (If he did) She just seemed to kind hearted for that, volunteering at hospitals, Special Olympics, as an EMT and other stuff. Though she did say that she was just coming out of her shell, so maybe she may have thought that. But who knows, unless she opens up with me.

But yea. I kinda get the feeling that she is still trying to figure if I am as I present my self, or if it is just an act to get in her pants.

I guess really all I can do is remain as friends with her, and hope that what ever the snake said is forgotten, or kinda overwritten I guess?

>>17603145
+1

I'm a fag and I gave into my horniness the other night and jerked off on cam on one of those random webcam things, knowing it would just be a bunch of other dudes. Even though I kept getting skipped (it seems to be straight guys trying to find women, lol) I still got a thrill out of it. I'm ashamed mainly because I've always had contempt for those kind of people, I've obviously lowered my personal standards; I've been depressed for three years and now I just feel more like human trash. I didn't even hide my face. Eugh.

my girlfriend just told her sister that I have feelings for her and I am patiently waiting to know if this family can stay together.

I have lost the trust of my best friend.

I have to trust someone with feelings i don't understand myself.

I am learning that no matter how hard I try things I will be betrayed. I am going to support myself more and expect less of others.

I feel that is ok.

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>>17612016
glad I'm not the only one

>>17610251

true that.

>>17611971
Are you me?

>>17612314
Fuck man, maybe. I shared my story, what's yours?

>>17603169
I deleted someone from a friends list because I was in love with him for years and I knew it would never work out.

>>17604320
I think it's because you have hope for change

>>17604375
I don't want you to kill yourself anon

>>17604429
Why would you though?

As I start the process of divorcing my husband, knowing that he's a good man that has never done anything but try and look after me to the best of his ability, I can't help but feel like someone like deserves to die alone.

I think I've found the person I want to spend my life with, but they truly deserve better than someone like me. Yet I'm still scared that someday they might finally believe me when I tell them this.

>>17612622
why are you divorcing him?

>>17603145
Sounds edgy

>>17611813
That's cool to hear

>>17612779
Well, it sounds to me like he'd understand your position. I'm sure you'd do your best to be polite about it, and not hurt his feelings. I don't know how much you've said to him, if anything, but I totally understand the guilt you feel. It's not your fault though, if you were forced into marrying him young because of some cultist religion shit, and it doesn't sound like he wants to take advantage of you, or anything.

What's important above all is that you now realize what's good for you, and that you're enlightened enough to know that you have the right to make your own decisions. You should express to him that you appreciate everything he does, and that you just feel the marriage is unnecessary. Honestly I don't know what I would do in your situation either, but perhaps it helps to hear from someone else that you have no reason to feel guilty about what you've decided to do.

>>17612830
well, your post is gone, but I hope you see this anyway.
I understand how you feel, anon, I really do. But you're doing the right thing, regardless of how it turns out.

I miss being your slut.

PLEASE JAYPE
Invite for a romantic night, I would gladly accept :( but physically You're probably not attractes to me, since I'm too tall and not skelly girl boohoo oh well

I lost my chapstick and my lips are really dry. It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have my fan running, but it's too hot to turn it off.

>>17612873
/jp/ only likes 2D, sorry dude

>>17612830
It does help a lot Anon, thank you. I think it will be a long time before I can be happy in my own skin, but I will try and remember that I am going to be able to be a good person again someday.

I think the hardest part is admitting that I am unhappy. I have always been the bubbly upbeat person to those around me, when my friends have struggled with depression or hurt I've always tried to offer advice and be there for them to help them. If I admit that I'm not strong enough to fix my own life, how am I supposed to help them?

I would like to fast forward a year and get past all this shit.

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I fucking hate my brother, I've had to sleep in a room that's smaller than a fucking bathroom my whole life because I was the youngest in the family, I didn't complain since I didn't need much space and I had hopes that someday someone else would move out and I would get some space for myself, but no, the fucker is almost 30 years old and isn't making any efforts of leaving home, the fatass spends all of his money on videogames, food and card games, he's never offered my parents any economical support, he doesn't help with bills, food and he doesn't even buy the goddamn clothes he uses for work, he never cleans his room so my mother has to clean it for him whenever he invites his gf home (she is just as much of a piece of shit as he is), the saddest part is that my parents seem to be afraid of him since they never say anything to him, they talk behind his back all day but when it comes to actually speaking to him they act all nice and look like they don't care that they have this fat fucking leech sucking away at their money.

He's the one fucking reason that I don't want to talk to my parents about how I might have depression because I don't want to stress them with another mentally deficient excuse of a son, the day he finally leaves (or dies from some hearth related disease) will be the happiest I'll ever be, and that thought is both joyful and really fucking sad.

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FUCK YOU MOM! YOU ARE A HEARTLESS SOULLESS BITCH! I WILL DANCE ON YOUR GRAVE AFTER YOU FUCKING DIE!!!!

pic very much related

I love you and i'm acting real dumb lately... I know i'm about to lose you, yet i can't do shit about it. You deserve better

>>17612907
Just don't fuck your husband over with shitty divorce court rulings, I guess.

I think I am literally becoming a female supremacist, and what's fucked up is I like it.

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>>17613065
The only thing women are good at is taking care of the home and having babies. Men invented everything and anything that is of value in this world.

I knew it was coming.
I knew you were going to break up with me.
And I even knew that it was because you no longer loved me like you did. That you only love me like a friend now.
I knew it.
But it's broken me anyway.
I feel like I'll never love again. All I want to do is cry.
I wanted to spend my life with you.
But I guess that won't be happening now.
Goodbye, my love.
My prince.
I'll miss you.

>>17613073
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>>17613065

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>>17613090
It's true and you know it.

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I'm in Uni to get a degree I don't essentially want...


>Middle-Class family, that is foreigners from post-communist country
>Living in USA
>Both went to college, but lazy father turned into stay-at-home father and pretends he is making money in stocks
>Mother obsessed with becoming rich
>Parents are pathological liars and exaggerate to make everyone think we are wealthier than we are
>Forced into majoring mechanical engineering because it brings more prestige to family, and forced to live with parents
>Had to cut-off some friends from my life to keep them out of this lie
>Lost my child-hood love
>Only continuing to amass debt from college loans

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>>17613097
>A two hour video of this guy
>On his website

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>>17613110
Don't worry, I'm not here to hijack your board. You guys are far more civilized than the majority of 4chan (specifically /pol/) and I respect that!

>>17613091
Even this is evidence that female supremacy is truth.
The person making this picture didn't go "the immigrants are bad because of things they are doing to society as a whole, or to men". No, they went "the immigrants are bad because they are harming our precious women with their evil maleness".
Women are valued in a way that men just aren't. Gynocentrism is real, and I am ready to embrace it. I encourage you all to do the same.

>>17613118
Woa that was deep

Every time we're making progress it feels like she does something silly that upsets me and I'm not a sensitive person in the slightest. I'm worried that we wont last because of this and it bothers me. However, I have no intention of leaving her because the thought of waking up without her in my life frightens me.

I'm just fortunate that I've been through what she's going through and the irrationality and silliness is something that I understand.

I'll go to sleep and feel better in the morning.

>>17613118
Women are valued because they are essential to reproduction. Science (MAJORITY MALE) is working on changing that. There will come a time when women aren't needed at all.

>>17613044
I'm literally just going to take my computer and my cat and leave. All of our debt is in my name and I'm willing to deal with the fact that he may not help me make credit card payments. I want to exit his life as quietly and painlessly as possible.

>>17613124
Initials?

>>17612401
I don't really feel like I do. A lot of my problems legitimately cannot be fixed - some of my health issues are incurable, a lot of my self-image issues stems from things that cannot be changed, and so forth. What CAN be changed, takes so much effort and energy that I can barely manage it for even a single month before sliding back into the shit. I feel like I can't do it alone, but I have no one - rightfully so, because it seems there is no one I actually care about enough to accept their support genuinely, without my mind instantly suspecting some bullshit.

In general, on a logical level I really don't have hope for change. I just wish the rest of me could just deal with that.

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>>17613146
ʇoƃ. ƃɐɟ

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>>17608575
A casualty of life it seems.

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This is a special kind of hell.

>looking for job forever and getting depressed, losing sleep too over stress
>parents and siblings on my back, giving me shit
>sibling starts using my toothpaste and such without asking while sick
>get fucking terrible cold from them that turns into bronchitis, laryngitis and a sinus infection
>went to doc, on all kinds of meds, got a breathing treatment
>finally get call back last week from a place while horribly ill (tissues shoved up nose, barely able to speak above whisper without coughing up wads of snot)
>ask to reschedule due to illness but let them know I really am interested in the job
>say it's okay and they'll let me know
>call back this week while feeling a bit better and voice is back
>"Oh, sorry anon we decided to go with another candidate. We appreciate your interest and wish you luck!"

And now my parents are breathing down my back again and my sibling called me a mooch.

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>>17613300
run away

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I understand that guys cant understand anything unless you tell them specifically to fuck off but really?
>You should find someone there.
This isnt clear enough? He knows im living 5hours away now. I told him i wasnt coming back ever except for family. Did he think I thought he wasn't being loyal? That i needed some fucking reassurance that he wasnt gonna leave? He know how I am. How I enjoy my independence. Thats why I moved so fucking far away. I told him i didn't want a long distance relationship. He never listens when we talk. He always ignored what i said.
>i dont want to be the same as alex
Fuck you. Alex treated me like an adult. You treat me like a kid who isnt capable of talking to another person. Then when I say something slightly "threatening" you shrivel up and call me a villain. I dont know how many times i have to tell you this. I don't hate anyone. I don't get pleasure from telling you to fuck off either.

>"i saw you alone in class and felt really bad for you"
You told how much me you pitied me even after I told you how i thought pity was the worst insult. I had friends in that class too?? Were you blind to all my friends? Because you so desperately want me to be that cute shy girl? Fuck you.

Your conception of me is just some small girl that can't do anything. You just want something to protect even if it means morphing me into something im not and ignoring what i say. Im moved away now. You're a community college dip shit living off of your rich parents. Congrats faggot. I dont hate you. I pity you so fucking much.

I'm failing classes for the first time and I don't know what to do. I'm just suffocating under all of the pressure and failure.

This is gonna sound like a big fucking whine but whatever. I'm a few weeks from 30. I've had 4 sexual partners in my lifetime, with an additional 3 that I did oral with and 1 additional I only foreplayed with. Plenty of repeat encounters, and my penis is adequate and slightly thicker than average. I consider myself average but successful in that department.

Yet I honestly dislike it, but I can't stop it. I'm bored of just having sex. I want to make love. I never was successful in relationships, my longest was a month and it stagnated within 2 weeks so I don't even think you can call them relationships. I could've fucked my latest one but I told her this and she was understanding, but we drifted apart before we got the chance.

And yet even on Tinder, I hit it off with a girl, we have an amazing first date and then it's always "I have these issues and I don't think I can handle being in anything right now". 9 times out of ten, the other 1 is when I get to fuck them, usually a tourist).

It doesn't even matter how well the date goes. Last one was especially great. We went to the beach at 9:30pm to stargaze, there was nobody but us for like 2kms. We stayed till 2am just talking about anything, watching shooting stars, sitting in comfortable silence for upwards of ten minutes a few times. Wrapped her in my big scarf cause of mosquitoes and the chill. It was romantic as fuck. And then the usual issues crop up, mysteriously after the date.

I just want to actually grow a nice relationship from scratch instead of either being turned down for pointless shit or having emotionless sex.

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I'M FUCKING UGLY
And fat too but I've lose 60 lbs and still going
At least I can be /fit/ and ugly

God damn do I like REM

Why does listening to them help calm me down so much? I'm not even sure if they're very good, but I love them so much

I want to shove third wave feminism up Black Lives Matter's ass and launch them all in a rocket headed for the sun. Fuck every one of you cry baby assholes who thinks that every white male on earth should apologize for existing.

Jesus Christ, I hate everyone but most importantly, I hate myself, how can I be worse than anyone I know at basically everything? I can't help but feel envy, I'm trying to get better, but I don't see a difference, and when I do I find something that basically is other thing to start fixing. Everybody always says that if they could travel through time they would correct their mistakes, the only mistake that I would correct would be my existence.

>>17609756
Guys aren't like girls, we don't remember or care about any of the random minor shit you do

We even forget your birthdays and which of your relatives died in a horrible snowmobile accident

>>17613363
>but really?
Yes really. If girls were direct and straightforward this thread wouldn't be filled with confused guys trying to understand mixed signals.

just tell me. just tell me what happened. i don't want to keep feeling like this.

L

>>17613891
>you should find someone else
This is a mixed signal to you? How could you possibly interpret this as "im still interested in you"

>>17614205
that line would give me about a half-second of doubt after seeing all the dumbass girls with low self-esteem on /adv/ asking if they should break up with their boyfriends because they think "he should find someone better" than them

but i didn't really mean to comment on your situation, just the general state of things
guys are not good at taking hints
anything subtle can and will be interpreted wrong
the blunter the better

After being NEET for so long and going to school for the past 2 years I still don't know what day or year it is half time.

i was under the impression that we might be going somewhere but it turns out i was just being used for sex.