Am I a pedophile?

You sound like Michael Jackson, he didn't get to have a childhood so it expressed itself as wanting to be a kid again. His older brothers would bring girls back to the hotel room and tell michael to hide under the covers while they fucked the girls, his dad beat him, etc...

Do you have sexual attraction to boys? If yes ur a pedo with issues. If no you just have issues

in any case if you find the right therapist that can help you immensely

No, I don't think you're a pedophile. It makes sense that you'd feel this way. It's fine as long as you never act on it; that would be weird and not ok. I can see why you'd develop an emotional thing like this given your childhood.

Yes. Stay away from little kids you scum.

>>17596915
You should delete all pics of children you have and never look at a child again before it escalates into CP you fucking psychopath

>>17596929
What if the therapist has to report him for potentially being a pedo?

>>17596915
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>>17596946
Therapists will only break confidentiality if you have a plan to hurt yourself or another person

they won't report you for having borderline or full on pedo thoughts. that's what therapy is for, helping fix them

>>17596929
>Do you have sexual attraction to boys?
No, unless that desire for affection is somehow seen as sexual attraction. But I definitely would never want to fuck children. I'm sexually attracted to women and regularly fap to your standard everyday porn.

I can definitely see the parallels with MJ. I pretty much feel the same way as him, except I've successfully repressed it all my life.

>>17596944
I don't have "pics of children". This was one of the first images that came up with a quick google search.

>>17596915
>So I basically have this great fondness/affection for young boys

That's all I read, didn't bother with rest you fucking degenerate

>>17597174
So why did you bother posting then?

its hard to say. we cant even trust your own claims because you could be lying to us, or even just lying to yourself.

but on the flip side of that, i think that there is a very unhealthy trend where we instantly think 'pedophile' about anyone who has any interest in any kid ever. men are kind of expected to not like any kids at all until they have their own, and suddenly fatherly emotions come from only that.

frankly i think its normal to want to ahve a son more so than a girl, and wanting to hug your son isn't a bad thing. we live in a time where you cant hug your friend without a gay joke, and god forbid it unironically last more than ten fucking seconds.

there are only two types of love: platonic no touching, and sexual.

so its only natural you'd assume ur a pedophile even if hteres no sexual attraction. its really sad that this is the world we live in.

similar issue, many guys, though not sexually attracted to males, still think they might be gay just cuz they want to hug a guy, cuddle a guy, or even just kiss one on the cheek. even though its perfectly normal as far as animals are concerned or even in other countries.

>>17597190
Well one of the reasons why I wanted to hide these feelings even when I was growing up was exactly because I thought people would think I was gay for possibly wanting to show more affection towards other boys.

But I guess that doesn't really explain everything since, like I said, I've longed to be closer to other kids since very early childhood, before I even knew or cared about what gay was.

I don't believe I'm lying to myself btw.

>>17597211

you may be genetically programmed to like kids. that is a real thing btw. evolution dictates that someone who is fond of children is more likely to see his kids through adulthood. whereas running away means more likely to have kids elsewehre but also more likely for each kid to die wiht only a mother blah blah.

what i mean to say is, its normal to want to be affectionate. it could be biology. it could be psychology. it could be both.

im pretty similar, and thankfully i have a great nephew i get to let all that out on once a year.

>>17597211

pedophile or not your feelings are inappropriate. longing to be affectionate with little boys goes against what most parents would want for their kid and what most kids want. i've never met a kid who wants to cuddle with someone who isn't their family.

>>17597457
I do realize that of course, which is why I just block this stuff out and rarely think about it.

But I'm wondering now, isn't there any way I can find a healthy outlet for my feelings? I mean, I guess having kids of my own that I could be affectionate towards would be the most obvious thing, but I've become so emotionally detached from people over the years that I can't even have the kind of healthy relationships necessary to even start a family.

It's kind of like, in the process of repressing this I've repressed my ability to love or show affection for anybody at all.

>>17597457

with a stranger, no, but with soemone who isnt family, ur dead wrong. there are many uncles who aren't biologically related after all

>>17597509

just wait til your friends have kids and be the fun uncle

>>17597513
I wish I even had "friends". All I have are people I know who I occasionally talk to but I'm not close to at all.

You sound like a pedo to me. Its inappropriate yo hang around kids, even if your intentions are good.

You can never do these things because
A) you will probably get beaten or even killed by the father or a stranger and
B) people will automatically assume you are a predator and you will go to jail.

Let go of the past dude. Its time to move on. When the going fets tough get tough. Stop being a little girl and over thinking life. Do shit...get busy.

Just find a woman, marry her, have a kid. Cherish that kid.
If you're truly not sexually attracted to kids, then no, you're not a pedophile.

>>17597526
I don't think it would be appropriate to use a nephew or son like this. Yes affection to them is normal, but you're using it to fill a hole in yourself, not for their benefit. You could easily step over the line, or make them uncomfortable.

Making friends is a start. A gf too. Touching is easy to come by when we're young, i would bet since you're not getting affection now, it's easy to romanticize being young again. because when you're a kid, you don't need to try so hard to make friends or a gf. it's expected that everyone will be loved and touched.

you should make a friend, OP. in real life. a therapist can help you sort this stuff out too, i went to one for my social anxiety

https://therapists.psychologytoday.com/

a good search engine to find one by you

These people are ignorant

Just ignorant

You need to dress up like Peter Pan, find some boys, and then enjoy a night of games & jesus juice

hee hee

We all have to live with the fact that life is passing us by and there are things we can no longer do. One of these things is being children again. That's just the way life goes.

I will tell you this, within the gay community you often encounter people that are obsessed with twinks. Twinks are young men on the cusp of adulthood, they look and are more boyish than they are men.
The reason some are so into them usually fall into two categories.
The first group experienced their first intimate and sexual relationship with another boy when they were that age. Its normal for some kids to experience with each other growing up. They then idolize that experience and want to replicate it over and over.

The other group are people that never had that experience and they feel like they missed out on something by not having it. Because of this they have a idealized version of it in their minds and wants to experience that.

What you are saying sounds very much like the last group and even tho you say there is nothing sexual about your thoughts it shines through here and there in the cuddle things, and that being very cute.

I'd say you have some thinking to do and I want to ask you what it is you think young boys do, that you can not experience in friendship as an adult man?

>>17598032
>I want to ask you what it is you think young boys do, that you can not experience in friendship as an adult man?

I think it just comes down to the fact that I started bottling up these emotions when I was very young, so ever since then I feel like I've missed out on so much and wish I could experience that time again of being an innocent child, but actually get to enjoy it and be emotionally connected to other people.

Now as an adult I'm just completely emotionally detached from everything and everyone. I'm not even capable of showing any affection towards my own parents anymore. I don't hate them or love them, I just don't feel much of anything to be honest. The same thing goes for anybody else, which I think is why I've never been able to have relationships with girls.

Also, when I say "cute" I really just mean it in the same sense anybody would use that word to describe children. There's a clear distinction between sexual attraction to me - as in wanting to fuck a girl, and wanting to hug a child - but I will say that even though they are distinct, both of these things are fairly strong feelings for me. I'm not aroused by pictures of young boys, but I do feel a profound sense of both sorrow and longing for *something* when I see a picture of (or see irl) boys doing things that boys do. And on the odd occasion that I've seen actual cp posted here or other places, it's just really grossed me out. I don't even understand how somebody could want to fuck a child...

But of course I recognize that this is probably still seen as creepy by most people, which is why I've always hid it so well. I have a cousin who has a 4 year old boy, and I think he's the sweetest, cutest thing ever. I would so love to spend lots of time with him playing/tickling/hugging/etc, but instead I avoid him as much as possible because I'm so uncomfortable having these feelings deep down inside and wouldn't want people to ever find out.

>>17597697
>a therapist can help you sort this stuff out too, i went to one for my social anxiety

I actually did go to a therapist for a few months a couple years ago for social anxiety, but I was too afraid to ever talk about this particular subject. I don't think any of it really helped me.

>>17598314
OP, i think what you need is to find a girl, a good girl, if you end up marrying you can have some sons and cuddle them and kiss them on the cheek for a while, until they see it as uncool of course, but thats a good 11-12 years worth, but anyway, maybe you have a desire for that and its just presented in your own mind all weird-like

>>17598328
That sounds like such a perfect kind of life that I don't think I will ever be able to have.

Maybe what you seek is a child of your own op, I mean you can cuddle with them in a non-sexual way and it's completely normal when they are small. I like to cuddle my nephew too, he reminds me a lot of myself when I was younger. Maybe there's a certain care you never got you'd like to give back? As long as it's innocent there is nothing wrong with it.

>>17596915
You want children op. Thats what that means

>>17598368
>>17598382
I'm beginning to realize this more and more as I read the thread. I've never really cared or even thought about getting married or having kids until now.

But I feel like it's just never going to happen :(
I'm turning 30 soon and like I said I'm not even capable of opening up to anybody, let alone a relationship with a girl.

>>17597566

thats the dumbest thing i ever heard. thats like saying you cant be friends with guys just cuz you want male bonding, or date a girl just cuz ur attracted to girls.

>>17598394
Just try, it cant hurt, dont focus on the future, just focus on a nice girl for the present


But otherwise, you could always adopt, there are a lot of children that would love to have a caring parent with affection to give freely, and you might fit the bill, who knows