Friends

I feel your pain anon. I've had the same issue. Even when I found someone with the same interests I couldn't really get that deeper connection.

I've come to realize that your just can't rely on others 100% of the time. They are almost always just temporary distractions made to help you forget your faults.

My only advise is to try and get yourself into a small circle of friends. That way if one lets you down there is always another to fall back on. Just make sure you don't get excluded from the group and left behind. That's a really shitty feeling.

>>17590213
>to try and get yourself into a small circle of friends
this is one of the things I was looking for but I still can't find one person, let alone a whole group.

And if I have to act aloof among this circle, it's no different than acting aloof with everyone else.

I have a 'group' with my roommates but they gossip, are loud and it as if I'm in middle school again.
Maybe I'm approaching the situation wrong.
I don't want to sound arrogant about that. I just know those that gossip often gossip about you. And they don't have much for you other acting as
>temporary distractions
which I completely agree with you on. I was just wondering whether I should still try, even though my hopes are dim.

Thanks for advice

anyone should be considered lucky to have even a couple of good friends by the time that they are old

Genuine people will avoid fake people, so fake people end up in groups where they just bitch behind each others back.

Of course genuine friends exist, don't you even vaguely know anybody? Friendships aren't born out of neediness though.

>>17590260
I understand that friends shouldn't be kindle out of a need, but out of a mutual benefit.

Under this definition of friend: I've never had a mutually beneficial relationship. I don't know if I'm expecting too much from people because of that.

Sometimes I appreciate the situation presented, for it forces me to focus on myself.

The people that I find even genuine I'm afraid of saying any more, for I do not want to tarnish what seems to be a untainted friendship.

I don't know what is acceptable to say to others anymore. I may as well be another phony person

>>17590253

I've heard that quote before.
To have even one genuine friend through out a lifetime is considered luck.
I guess I fell for the whole "more true friends are in college."

Gonna tell you something that took me 6 months into college to learn.
No one who you befriend will actually be your friend
I envy the lucky people who find true friends in college because that is the hardest task. You seem like a really friendly guy, so let me tell you this. Dont. Trust. Anyone. Ive been fucked over so many times, until you find those true people who actually dont have an agenda then just keep looking out for yourself. Fuck all those kids who all decided to go to the same college and wont let you in their clique of friends, you probably have friends from HS so keep in contact for support and try getting laid some more, its a huge confidence booster

>>17590536
a woman is the last thing on my mind

I just want a genuine connection but I'll take your advice.

Maybe this desire is just a manifestation of my dissatisfaction with myself.

Sometimes I sit in bed and feel my body, but it's as if it's not mine, for I haven't done anything with it other than abuse it.