Say it, anon! Last thread: >>17574086

Well, after giving it two or three weeks for us tor randomly run into each other, I messaged her.

Took 25 hrs from my message to reply, but I think it went decent enough

I don't know if I actually saw her today, or if it was just someone very similar to her.

Who ever it was, we locked eyes for a few seconds in passing

It's comforting to know you'll never look at him and think "Damn he's hot". He could still slim down, but nothing will fix that face, hair or skin of his. And you know what? You like to boast about not caring about looks but you're just as vain as the next person, take no offense. One day, when the fire flickers, you'll wish you could say that about your husband.
This was your PSA, because I know exactly how this feels.

I was thinking of him and thought I saw him cycle by me 3 times in the last week, including today. I couldn't be certain though

>>17585262
Fuck. Same thing.

I was talking to the girl I am interested in last night, and today I think I saw her twice on Campus.

~20% Sure the first time
Second was like 95% sure. But I am not sure

I'm a fucking faghole, but I'm proud

if she is this stupid she deserves this, they are trying to pull the wool over her eyes and she doesnt want to see that. vent over back to lurking anons.

>>17585426
What's the story?

while the media is biased, and actually many hardcore republicans are pro-Hillary believe it or not, Trump says some of the dumbest things I've ever heard, and he flip-flops just as much as Hillary on every issue.
He literally said "Obama founded ISIS." Do you know how stupid that is? It was George W. Bush that invaded Iraq and destabilized the Middle East. And Trump's VP says he will model after that administration. He is an unbelievable hypocrite, and Hillary is too. If there was ever a time to vote third party, it is now.

I was in this place that I liked but many people were acting really strangely, and it made me wonder why it would seem strange in a good place

>>17585426
made peace with being a worthless loser. no where to go but up, or hell. whichever comes first. it gets easier. nothing left but a smile anon. let your nuts hang freely about in the summer breeze. it gets easier anon. theres no problem here. got to suck it the fuck up.

It's been exactly a month since they've been gone. Fuck.

I read an article by an anonymous female writer that said that most women get creeped out if you are not a very attractive, well off that guves them compliments, and that those are the kind of people they really want relationships with. Normally I would assume it's one female writer so that's her shitty opinion, but all of these screenshots of women writing articles, posting online, my own personal dating experience in sites, etc. seems to verify this. I don't mind that women have physical standards, but their standards are so unreasonable to the point where my entire existence creeps them out just for being average looking.

There really is no point in trying. When women in your league or below don't even want you it's time to give up.

>>17585537
I think what that woman said was bullshit, personally. Listen, I'm female and my view is this. If a man is attractive to me, it is something to do with his style, by which I mean the way he carries himself to some extent, and for me to actually fall for him, it's just a matter of chemistry between us and my experience has been that if that is there, I can't actually tell what he looks like, because it is there if that makes sense, and he is basically a 10/10 for me, and those scores are pointless anyway, because I could tell someone and they may not agree but I don't care, because what's important then is how we feel for each other

I'm in love with best friend who is straight, has gf and baby. Sometimes I think I should end it all but then I want to play too many video games and I enjoy food too much to die.

Girlfriend and I are about to move in together.

That's fine and awesome but she's leaving in 8 months to travel around the world.

I've never met someone who shares the same sense of humor, personality and someone I can talk to without feeling judged. She said I'm the best everything she's ever had and she even said she has never felt so comfortable around someone else.

I'm scared to move in with her but at the same time, me being scared has stopped some amazing opportunities from happening. It's just in this case, when we move in, I get experience living by my self, at the cost of getting attached to someone that's going to leave.

It's starting to look like I'll have a girlfriend for the next year or two at least. I'm so happy to not be alone.

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I never thought about it until someone mentioned it today. I haven't really contacted my family since I moved out over a year ago.

I appreciate them giving me a roof, but in reality I had to watch and raise myself. They were your stereotypical ignorant rednecks and pretty hateful toward a lot of people, concepts or things that were 'different'. Dad was a hard-drinking asshole, mom was judgmental, started drama every day, sister is a HS drop-out welfare kid-shitting mooch and my brother is a know-it-all NEET in his 30s that still doesn't have a license and has never had a job.

I just don't have any reason to contact them at all. The final straw was when I announced I was moving out.

>dad asks "with who?" since my job (that wasn't 'a real job' according to him) didn't pay well
>it's with my friend that came out as gay years back (I'm as straight as an arrow)
>dad immediately starts throwing insults, calling me names and insulting my friend
>mom and brother overhear, immediately start talking about how "those apartments are shitty, you're going to get robbed by niggers, etc."

Just...fuck them. I'm doing well, making money and finally have braces to fix my teeth. Fuck them and their way of life.

>>17585137
Why the hell everyone around me knows how to live but I struggle with basic things? Do they know something and refuse to tell me? Seems like everyone has an ambitions and dreams while it's vacuum in my head.
How can you be comfortable being naked around other person? I'd rather run than show naked. I cant wrap my head around how much you have to love a person that you'd want to be in relationship with him/her. I guess no one liked me that way and I permanently 12 at emotional level. What's the point of trying to improve yourself when 13-14 year old have more sexual experience than you. I'm so pure as the freshly driven snow in the middle of December and I'm 24. I'd like to say it's destiny because I cant tell other reason besides in the wrong place at wrong time. No one will know about it for sure except someone higher than me. If he's testing me - why I have to suffer through this lack of direction and misery? What's the point of being successful when you're +40? I wish I could die but I'd leave memories of me to others, so I wish there could be an option to erase myself from existence along with memories of me ever existing. It doesn't matter anyway as I'm the least impactful person onto others. People here talk about relationships like it's so simple and easy to achieve. I just cannot wrap my mind around this fact that you could 100% of yourself to other person and she/he can walk away any second after any amount of time. It's too big of risk when you'll lose everything and gain nothing. Too bad this rant will end up in data server and not in anyone's mind.

>>17585137
Please can someone tell me if im paranoid or something. Is this girl in to me ?

>sit in class, qt sits next to me
>bumps my knee several times
>it becomes too many times to be just accidents
>plays with her hair and overall is confortable (extends her hand to my elbow)

I dont know her, even though she caught my eyes twice in the past 2 weeks. First time talked to her, it was about homework but nothing more.

Im 20 in university

>>17585702
To rewrite it, when i talked she seemed to dodge eye contact.

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I want to kill and target females for ruining many lives

>>17585727
supreme gentleman pls leave

Today was bad. Real bad. And I don't even know why. I've been in a real bad mental state lately and it seems to be spiraling further down. I went to buy groceries after work and I found myself standing in the middle of the store about to burst into tears. It just didn't feel worth it to buy food. I left and went home and laid down on the bed and cried for an hour. Things are getting worse, not better. I just hope I can keep on hiding this from everyone.

>>17585137
I wish I was a virgin again.

I wish I was normal sized instead of looking like a brick wall.

I'm so alone all the time.

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The only reason I don't call a hotline or go to therapy is because everything about me is fake and I don't want people to get mad at me for making them worry once I'm "better".

>>17585781
Well if you're still here, anon, drink water, no sugary drinks, and if you can find someone to talk to that you know personaly call them or message them. If you can still try to go to the grocery to to in case you don't have food.

>>17585137
Will saving my pubes I sliced some of my dick off. Well I cut my dick in the part of the head where that big vein is you know? I cut that and now the skin is split.

I am going to rest it until October 15th. Right now I'm not thinking about anything no sex or masturbation. Me this mother fucker to heal fast and I will let you know how it is in a couple days. Anybody else experience this?

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you owed me a relationship. I dont care how /r9k/ it sounds and im tired of putting on a smile and saying anything else
we flirted and did the "dating but not really dating even though we're both acting like it" thing for months, we probably wouldnt have lasted with us both going to school but we could have had a pointless, fun summer relationship kids have but now we're both too old and about to start our careers so that window is closed and we're never going to get it back
any relationship ive had since then treads the line of being a marriage and at one point ill even cave in and do that but we could have had fun that one summer like every rom com and Disney movie ever made but you backed out and then started treating me like a leper without ever talking to me again
I hope youre doing well and im anything but perfect but I just want you to know I would have been good to you. We were kids but dammit that was a missed opportunity

>>17585477
I don't know who to vote for though...I mean in the green party...help please?!

>>17585737
I aint no fucking gentlemen cunt

I just want to go back to march 18th and change everything

>>17585727
Whole genders don't ruin lives. It would be great for people to stop ruining lives

>>17585817
Try online therapy or try talking going to 7cupsoftea?

>>17585819
I don't know anyone well enough to talk about these kind of things.

I might still go back to the store later. I'm too hungry to sleep.

>>17585882
All right...well drink a cup of water

Stop drinking cider or you'll kill yourself. You may sit there and call me a cunt for pouring that shit down the sink, but if I were such a cunt, I'd have poured you an extra glass instead, and contribute to your quest of self-destruction.

Every time I shout at you for this, just know that it hurts me just as bad.

>>17585856
What happened on that date?

>>17585681
Keep moving forward, buddy. You can do it.

>>17585691
You make it sound like everyone in a relationship is totally 100% comfortable with each other and give it everything all the time, like they've found the secret to human interaction. It's not true. Nobody is as comfortable with another human as they are alone. Some people are moreso than others, and obviously good relationships should feel comfortable, but it pretty much tends to an impossibility.

Everyone's winging it, like you. Every relationship is a product of people trying to figure eachother out as comprehensively as they can manage. Ultimately it's never enough, but for many it's better than loneliness.

I feel like a different person today, but as if I've returned to my normal self. Something is off. This happening is giving me anxiety.

I just feel like there's something I'm missing. Also what is wrong with me in general? Why can't I make the same connections with people that other people
do?

Feel really stupid. Left local corner show and proceded round a corner into my road and walked head first into the best looking girl i've ever seen. But we just both brushed off the encounter and I carried on home. All I had to do was ask for her number if she said no than that would have been it. Im such an ass

>>17585934
It's hard to explain without sounding pathetic. Let's say I got some very unpleasant news, but it was still something I could fix. Due to some personal(and personality) issues, I didn't. Now I bitterly regret it, to the core of my very being.

>>17585137
I know I messed up but seriously all I want to say is FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK but we don't roll that way so I can't say anything like that.
I love you even though you trust no one.

>>17585955
deep breaths anon, its ok. i have problems making connections with people as well some of us just arnt built the same way and also some of us can see people for who they truly are and it makes us want to distance ourselves from others

>>17585955
Maybe this is just that familiar feeling. I seriously am getting mad at myself
for the way I feel.

And, I can't seem to decide if this is the path in life I want to go in. It seems like socially, at my age, you must be more.. willing yet.. not. Talk shit, but only on the right people. Make decisions, but only the right ones. Have connections, but don't associate with certain people. Like fuck you guys. I'm so tired of this bullshit. Even people I work with. What's wrong with me? Why do people assume shit? How do I start being okay? I get myself so worked up. What do I need to do? Why do I feel like everyone hates me?

>>17585950
You're right but im talking about when you put effort into it and other half decides to leave you on ice. I just cannot understand relationship as a thing which is worth investing yourself. Besides you have a fake yourself to some degree before attaining it. Thats why i've never had one while others are miles ahead of me.

I want to bang an escort if only for the experience. Is 300 dollars good enough?

You're going to regret letting go of me

>>17585781
Dont hide it you compost heap.

Willpower, courage towards feelings and real, authentic relationships are the only things worth living for.

>>17585835
Go. To. A. Doctor.

>>17586138
trigun black lagoon pokemon model loveless etc. etc. mainstream manga and anime approved for the public and legal. available both online and in actual bookstores that guess what also cater to families. there are lines i dont cross i stand by that.

>>17585967
Really?? What did you think of her personality?

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>>17586138
>Willpower, courage towards feelings and real, authentic relationships are the only things worth living for
What a coincidence, the three things I'm lacking. My only solace is that nobody knows what a depressed, worthless, waste of space I really am.

>>17586196
The first two only take a choice.

Then the third might follow.

I keep trying to find some useful advice about my health issue, and I'm going to the doctor soon, but I need some temporary fix. All I get is "go to a doctor" or idk. Senpai I'm just looking around for help that could be done at home

>>17586234
what is your issue

Aside from work and drills with my unit I haven't left my bed in two months.

My gf keeps telling me "oh I have to study!" every time I try to set up plans to hang out. Then we talk over text and she tells me how depressed she also is, we only communicate through phones, been together 4 years and this is what we are.

I want to go back to the gym but I'm too anxious. I used to go every day. I get more and more anxious the closer I get to my shift every day.

I washed my sheets but I've been laying on a bare mattress for three weeks. I haven't turned on my TV or computer in a month. I don't know why I hit this wall but I'm not even suicidal, just a husk.

I'm 24 and might as well not exist, I'm angry because these are teenage emotions that I got over a decade ago, or at least I thought.

You won't, ever again, wake up and just stare at your boyfriend's face, admiring it. Thinking to yourself how beautiful he is. Or how good his body is, or how his dick feels in you.
That's a sad way to go on. But there's no return from this. He can't do better, and neither can you.

>>17586308
Bad stomach/lower belly issue, idk if you're still even here

Hahhahahhahhahaa
It actually came true.....

We met yesterday to talk. I wanted to lay it out for her, say that we can work this out. I actually think that there is a chance.

But after three months of being lost in this shit, I think I have to come to terms with myself and admit it's a lost cause.

But I'm pretty sure that I can't hold on anymore, not without her.

When will somebody actually care for a change

Fucking go out on a limb and ask to hang with a girl. She says HAHA YEAH COOL WE CAN AS FRIENDS

fuck me sideways, I hate this bullshit. What little confidence I had is shattered to bits. This may not seem like a huge deal but I've been working so hard to do something like ask a girl out... makes me feel worthless as FUCKKKKK

>>17586441
You are being an entitled little shit.
Go out w/ her as friends and have fun. Thats good and be happy she aint leading you on from the start.

I really want to talk to this girl but everyone in my dorm is constantly having sex and I kind of don't want to. The more sexual my relationships get the more toxic they become. I haven't lost my virginity but I've been with a few girls. I'm 18 and I want to get into a real relationship but I'm worried about her sexpectations.

You know what? Fuck it. I don't care anymore.

Go away. Kiss who you want, fuck whoever the fuck you want to fuck.
I will not be your miserable puppet for your "bad times" again

Just leave me here and go be happy with some other cunt.

I DON'T GIVE A SINGLE FUCK ANYMORE.

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>>17585973
What if I told you that few things in this world can't be fixed, and that hope is the last thing to die?

I'm starting to hate my best friend because she has a perfect body and I don't.

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Everybody else is living their lives while I'm trapped in myself in this cage of fear. I can't approach anyone I don't know, I can't express my feelings to others, I don't accept help, I can't take risks, I can't tell some people just how much I think they are assholes. I wish I had the power to choose my company and to shun those who bother me instead of relying on the "fate" of destiny, which has been surrounding me with people who bother me. I may not be physically alone but I feel alone and have felt alone for at least 6 straight years. There's no other person existing in my head other than myself. I cannot think of others, there's no one left for whom I truly care, I don't have any more connections to no one. It has been long since I've felt love of any kind for anybody else and it has been even longer since I've felt any kind of love. The only value I place in others is always entirely material - what can they give me? And as soon as they don't have any more use I stop caring. I don't know if I will be able to get out of this rut. I have low self-esteem and what appears to be a deep depression. I have been trying to improve my confidence but it's almost impossible to do so without meaningful connections; at the same time, I think it's impossible to form meaningful connections without having self-confidence myself. I'll be trapped in this hell forever. I imagine myself living completely alone once I move out of my parents' house and remaining that way until my death, which nobody will notice.

>fem
>hairy as fuck

Wish party city would call me back, I need a job so I can save up for laser hair removal.

>>17586516
I'm all alone too anon, you are the cunt in my eyes.

Is it bad that I blame my parents for everything that has left me in my current emotional state? I know that most people who will hear this will say something like "you need to take responsibility for you life," but honestly, I just feel like it makes sense to blame my parents. I am this way because I'm trapped in a place that brings out the worst in me, and I'm trapped here because they want me trapped here. They can't stand the idea of me living anywhere else unless it's under their roof. That's the way I see it. And plus, by telling myself that it's not my fault and I will have the chance the turn my emotional state around once I get out of here is just enough to keep me from falling into straight-up depression.
I can't leave; I don't have the money. I'm just going to ride this out and cross my fingers that my time here won't have any long-term effects on me.

>another one of D's friends randomly adds me on facebook
Seriously these are the only fb friends i've made in 6 months, and i'm not even in the same country anymore, what's up?
D, you know i don't do subtle. If you have something to tell me, just say it!
My number's on my fb page, text me or something.

>>17586424
Nobody cares about people like us, anon. Sorry, but that's the truth.
All we got is ourselves and each other. Make the best of it.

>>17586386
Are you a guy or girl?
Either way, try drink 8oz every morning with your lunch and dinner. Try boiling water and pour in a bottle and wrap in a thin cloth and put it near your lower abdomen. Drink chamomile/apple tea? don't hold in your gas/farts?

What you said on January 21st was your biggest lie

>>17586810
Remind me.

>>17586810
Remind me too, i don't remember what the hell i did on january 21st either

I get gassy when I'm anxious and around people I don't know well or make me anxious

I don't know if it's me or you who's changed, but you've become something i can't love.
I hope you're not hurt when i cut you out.

I really liked this girl, thought she liked me too. She'd hug me when she'd see me, and act really happy and nice around me, I was gonna ask for her number or something Wednesday
Turns out she has a boyfriend
Fuck, such a fucking mood shot and disappointment for me, she was the first girl I had genuine attraction for since my ex

Don't know how much longer I can keep this up. I feel like I should just pick up and go. Keep going until I can't make it any further. It would hurt you so much, but no matter what I did it would hurt you. I think maybe if I just go you'll only hurt for a little while and forget about me. It hurts me, too. I couldn't care less about myself, though. I should be the one who hurts, not you. You don't deserve that anymore. I'm sorry. I'll keep trying to hold on as long as I can for you. I just hope you find something to make you happy in life, for once. It's what you deserve, what you need. Forget about my happiness and find yours first. I'll be around as long as I can.

That's it.

I hate myself. I tried to be a man, I really did. I had my fair share of girlfriends, I never really were into men in the first place. But deep down, I'm not a man... . I fucking cry all the time. I like girly things. When I was a child, I was jealous of my sister because she was a girl and I wanted to be a girl too. I used to put on makeup when nobody would notice. I wanted so hard to be a girl. I wanted to be a princess too.

All of my life, I was jealous of girls because I want to wear cute clothes too.

Right now, I'm 24 and confused. At least, things are getting better. I went back to college. I'm making new friends. Some people really love me. And I love them too.

But I can't stop hating myself. I'm tired to try acting like a guy when... I don't feel like a guy. I want to wear dresses. I want to wear pink and I want to be pretty. I want to be a girl, and I want to take care of someone that will take care of me in return. Be it a girl, be it a cute, girly boy... I don't care.


Once I'm done with college... and putting my life back on rails

I'm going to make the leap. And I won't be going back. I'm going to get gender surgery.

That's all.

Lara,
I don't understand how anything i do could hurt you.
You don't love me and i don't love you.
Just let me go and stop guilting me into coming back.
It's over
You've changed
I've changed
You don't need me and i've never been enough for you.
(I'll never be enough for anyone but that's not your problem)

Stop trying to make me love you if you don't want to love me back

-S

Jeбeм ли ти мaтep y пичкy мaтepинy, вoлeo caм тe кypвo pacпaлa

>>17586663
how old are you anon? if you still live with your parents im imagining you to be about 20 - 22. and if that is the case you still have plenty of time to fix things. dont give up yet.

>>17587145
Russian?

Or Bulgarian maybe

>>17587136
You can even do it now, anon.
I know a freshman in one of my classes who seems to have started very recently, still far from passing but she'll get there eventually, i'm sure.

though that reminds me of how someone else was relating this story of running into an over-the-top racist at walmart and she commented
>oh my god, it's like 4chan escaped from the internet
feels bad man, not all of us are assholes.

>>17587188
My only fear is that it turns out wrong and I end up ugly af... How did things turn out for your friend?

No one will talk to me. No one will even give me the time of day.

>>17587192
hello

>>17585477
jill stein

>>17587192
It is 7:57 am Paris time.

>>17587189
Not friends (as if i have any, kek) and she's right at the start of her journey. Looked 100% male to everyone at the start, but she kinda declared it online.
My instincts knew what was up from the start though, subconscious had her pegged as a girl even though eyes said "that's a dude".
She started wearing girly clothes and nail polish so it's more obvious now.

If you turn out ugly, well at least you can take comfort that there's a lot of ugly girls in the world
And after 35, we're all ugly anyway. Time takes our looks, but it can't take our style.

I need a wife

How the fuck do I become not skinny fat jfc

I feel so tired and hopeless. On the outside, everything looks great. I'm 24 and I live with my parents, but they're very supportive and I love them. I've got a college degree in mathematics, but it I couldn't find a decent job with it. I'm incredibly close with my old high school friends and I love every second I spend with them, but outside of that I have no real social circle.

It doesn't feel like I have depression so much as a lack of willingness to live. I enjoy my hobbies and spending time with my friends, but it all seems pointless at the end of the day. In my youth I had drive and ambition, and by the end of university it was all gone and I just don't see the point in moving on anymore.

My therapist is nice, but none of it seems to help. I'm so self-defeating and nothing anybody does has managed to convince me that I'm anything more than garbage. They all say I'm so smart, I'm capable of anything, things I'd been hearing my whole life as a "gifted" child and in the end it all came to shit.

Even if other people actually relate, it always feels like they don't. I feel so lonely.

YEEHAW

i really need to take a weed break. it's not summer anymore.

i'm basically i'm out of weed now though so i guess now's a good time to start.

>>17587317
>go to /fit/
>read the sticky
>commit yourself
>>17587327
Find something or someone you genuinely love
I you're sill having trouble, ask yourself what your really want

>>17585477
He literally said "Obama founded ISIS"

Do you know anything about why he said it? He said it because it's partially true. Sure, Bush set up the conditions. Obama had a chance to fix it. And what did he do? Fuck up everything even more. He literally just said fuck it, withdrew ENTIRELY from the region, and let ISIS come in and take over. The actions his administration took did nothing to help or slow down ISIS, and he was definitely a part in letting them get to power.

Of course he's going to say "He founded ISIS." However, you need to lack a brain to actually not understand this statement is called "Hyperbole."

Many hardcore Republicans are not pro-Hillary, the fuck are you talking about.

And also, the third party candidates are jokes. Stein and Johnson are proposing the most ridiculous agenda I've ever heard of in my life. I got soured as fuck on Johnson when he had that "ILLEGALS ARE HEADS OF HOUSEHOLDS" meltdown with the reporter, the guy isn't even a fucking Libertarian.

Trump is the sensible choice if you're a moderate, he's not proposing shit that will literally fuck our country over due to the prevalence of Islamic terrorism. Western Civilization is fucked if we don't have some sense of self-worth and pride, and we can save it by not shilling to these fucks who come in and demand we assimilate to their culture. Fuck off with that shit.

I think I'm catching feelings for my fwb and it's been stressing me out since I left his house earlier today. I didn't talk to him about anything yet because it didn't hit me until he was getting ready for work but for some dumb reason I started thinking about him talking to other women and started to feel really jealous/insecure. I don't want to have feelings for him because I don't want to be in a romantic relationship at the moment but it's happening for some reason.

I don't know how/if I should even mention this to him. But I'm afraid if I bottle it up I'm just going to end up getting hurt without either one of us intending for it to happen.

Fuck. And after typing this out I still don't really know what I'm feeling. Part of me just wants to be closer platonic friends with him + the sex and another part of me wants to meet his parents one day. This probably seems like such a trivial issue but I lost my appetite over it earlier and just can't calm my mind at all.

>>17587341
>ask yourself what your really want
Not that anon, but what if the answer is "nothing" or "suicide"?
How do you start wanting things again?

You make me feel like I'm never going to find anyone as good as you were. You're the most perfect girl I have ever met. I don't deserve you. Even though you just kinda left me, I still don't deserve you. It's been two months and I can't get over you. I feel so soul crushingly alone without you. Every little thing makes me think of you, but I know you'll never come back. And that's what hurts the most.

I want to ask you how your morning is?
I love you, and I need a husband

>>17587368
Hug a loved one, go somewhere beautiful, treat yourself to something fun, or eat something really, really good

I've been on a million prescriptions and seen too many doctors. I've always hated myself, even as a kid. I've practiced self harm/punishment since I was about 8. I have never felt happy or "full".

I've learned to accept this, but I experienced drugs (those kinds, yes) that made me look away from the self hatred for a good while.

It felt incredible and I'm scared that if I continue I'll turn into some disgusting fucking junkie. When I was high as balls I felt motivated, more social, and was almost happy with the world. I've never been a happy person despite a cheery demeanor and I don't know if this is how I'm supposed to feel or if my mind is starting to rationalize addiction.

Tl;dr, think I may be becoming an addict.

I want a new best friend :( I don't even really know why.

>>17586594
It'd be comforting but I don't want to keep my hopes up, it's just painful. Thank you though.

I'm tired of people telling me I have to prove I'm tough. I don't want to go around being angry at people or trying to intimidate everyone I run across. I met people who see what I look like and think I'm supposed to be hiding a tough guy under this nice guy persona. Then when I finally snap, I have a temper and I need to calm down. So tired of this...

I just want to meet a girl that's girlfriend material. But because of bad past experiences and my fear of the modern "progressive" horseshit I'm too scared to meet, talk and make moves towards women whom seem interesting and attractive and I keep making excuses like a dumb shitlord.

>>17588146
doesn't help that I'm in university

I need help. But, I don't know where to turn to. I tried internalizing it but the emotions are just to strong. I really don't know what to do. I know I need to rebuild my life but my inside are just fucking everything up. I don't mean to complain but I just don't know what to do. I guess I just need someone to talk to that I can trust but I have severe trust issues now.

They came back into my life, he's offline right now, I don't know what I'm going to say when he's online.

I'm at my breaking point. I tried so hard but I can't take it anymore. My life is shit, I don't even care about anything anymore.

Is there any point in going on when you know things won't get better for a long time?

She pops into my fucking head constantly.

I keep thinking that I see her, even when its not.

>>17588591
It's just that I'm scared of what he's going to say to me.

It's so frustrating to be around you. I like you so much but I always have to tiptoe a bit because I don't want to offend you. Sometimes though it just slips out and I need to make a recovery somehow. I cringe just thinking about it. I don't know how I can get over this.

>>17585137

I moved in an other city to study, but I know nobody there. I just realised that the degree I'm after doesn't offer good job opportunities. Mom and Dad are going to rent a room for me in an area that is way too far from pubs, bars and districts where people in their 20s socialize. But I choosed the room, since I didn't wanted to be stuck in traffic jams.

But before making that decision, I didn't wanted to socialise and improve my life in general.
Long story short, I've spent the last 4-5 years of my life with very little if not non-existent social interaction, besides family (I also should mention that my family isn't working properly, Dad find more enjoyment in his professional activities than in his family and friends, Mom is depressive).

So this is it, I'm starting a Master degree that is probably going to led me nowhere and in the mean time I'm trying to socialise and get rid of my creepiness while I'm stuck in a rural area with nobody to talk with after university.

I'm here for you if you need me. I have my life, as you do, but I will always find the time for you. I'll listen as long as you want, and fill the talking gaps endlessly as soon as I'm into comfort zone, if you like. I think you're worth it, I can feel the love in your soul. When I'm not feeling well, it doesn't matter because I know I can still help you if you need it. I'll keep you company, I really want to share my life with you if you would like. I'm not this with people in general, yet for you it's a different story

>>17588809

Thank you anon, you are the kind of people we need over here.

I did terrible things in my life and i feel like a demon now

WHY THE FUCK DO I BORROW STUFF TO PEOPLE

I BORROWED YOU SOMETHING, NOW DON'T FUCKING TELL ME YOU LOST IT

YOU are the one who decided to get back into contact with ME. Why did you act weird while we were talking, I know time has past since we last talked, I know you used to sometimes give short answers but this felt weird. Where is ___? Does he not want to talk to me? Are you aware of how upset I was?

>need shit together to get gf
>need gf to get shit together
fuck

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>>17589164

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Twenty One Pilots' cover of Cancer made me cry. End these feels

>>17589159
What's the story? What's wrong anon?

>>17589287
You're probably not here still, but fuck it. I got ghosted for an unknown reason by two close friends. That happened about a month ago, and today one of them reached out to me. The original post I made pretty much describes how the conversation went

>>17589401
Does the other friend start with A?

>>17585137
I used to be in a relationship, for about 2.5 years, with a brilliant, attractive, but very shy girl. We got along well but she had severe social anxiety. We are both very highly-paid professionals. I own my own business now. She broke up with me because she said she couldn't handle the stress of being in a relationship anymore at all. That was 8 months ago. We're both 25. We both went to MIT together. I can't seem to care about anyone I've dated since then. We still keep in touch and she isn't interested in dating anyone at all anymore. It seems as though the probability of ever finding anyone that smart and interesting again is very low. It depresses me that every single girl I go out with can't keep up with me in conversations, and I can't help but compare them to her. I feel like a divorced 50-year-old. I even have almost enough money to retire already, theoretically at least. It's like life is over already though it's barely begun.

Fuck it. I'll join my local FD.

I've been saying it for years. And now a friend joined hers as an EMT. She is taking the initiative, and what am I doing? Sitting on my ass.

Today I found out that girl I was interested in, and was so sure was giving me all the right signals that she is too, is a fucking lesbian. I feel like a goddamn fool for even getting my hopes up. I went out with my last gf for 5 years and it took me a long time to recover from that breakup. I didn't give a fuck about women for so long. And now when I finally try and put myself and my feelings on the line i find out shes gay. Im such a fucking idiot

>>17589483
Actually, the first person starts with A

im worried about you my friend

I have no job and I'm quite afraid of trying to get another, as in my first job ever I couldn't hold up against pressure and cried at home and because I have to constantly help father with stuff and I don't feel like leaving him with it. Lack of experience and certificated doesn't help
.
I fucked up II semester of I year of mechatronics college due to mix of laziness.lack of motivation and being bad at math and mechanics, I'm trying now to change to enviromental engineering, probably starting from I year again. My parents think I change because I feel that it's too hard to be comfortable with, not because I screwed up.

I'm often insulted by closest family as useless shit and I'm being compared with more successful people.

I surf the internet/play games most of the day because nothing else is exciting enough to be an alternative, going cold turkey lasts for few hours. I cannot just admit that I'm addicted because I will be insulted, threatened with sending to asylum and compared to drug addict cousin, who was sent to said asylum once.

A girl I like says she is not interested in a relationship, but says that we should hang out asap, She likes everything I post on social media, things I tought no one will- new Doom, dank memes and such....

Any possibility I might be on to something after all? I really, REALLY, like that girl

I'm just fucking up so bad. I really need to ask her out this weekend. Even if her response is not what I want, I would still feel better just saying it. But at the same time I'm scared. If she says what I think she'll say, then what's next? What's after her? Who knows. I'll just have to see.

>>17589612
Do it. Rejection will rip you, but the constant stress from the unknown will just fester inside of you. Hey, it might even go well!

Well don't be mad when you find out I'm screwing somebody. Thanks

>>17589655
I will. She works a pretty busy schedule on the weekends but got this sunday off. Asked if she wanted to hang out and get dinner. She said yes but I don't know if she has any feelings for me romantically. She's said no to my friend asking if she did but that could just be because she knew it was my friend. Who knows.

>>17589661
Initials for?

There literally hasn't been a night for the past 2 months that I haven't thought about you, or thought about how I messed up, or tried to rationalise it and come to terms with it and forgive myself (largely to no avail) or entertain futures where we meet again. I think about when it's acceptable to message you. Whether it's appropriate to send you a fucking Christmas greeting in 3 months. Every night there's something, some epiphany or regret or hypothetical scenario. I'm sure none of this comes as a surprise. You know how much I like to ferment my feelings until they fuck me up, and I guess they fucked you up too.

I've done this before, not with a relationship but with friends that I've wronged. I feel like it will destroy me unless I talk to you again. But I just don't even know where to begin. And the more time passes, the more I feel like this is just going to sound like a fucking joke, that it's laughable I'm still even hung up on you.

dear fucking world
i used to contemplate suicide. I would go on somewhere like here, see people saying how they are done with life, and would think, why would anyone want to end their life? Isnt there so much to live for and improve? I was being abused, and just wanted comfort. somehwere to go or someone to go to. I would contemplate suicide because of hurt or slightly wanting attention.
Now I have even more problems, and I am considering suicide because it really does feel like a way out. I can definately see the appeal of death. Its not necessarily a sad thing. I know now exactly what someone means if they were to say that they want to leave the earth because they cant wait until all this nonsense is over. I hate the family I was born into. I will probably not be able to get cosmetic surgery. I will never have a boyfriend that loves me and I will never want to be good at math.
I think that I will do it in the next 3 months, just need an easy way. Any suggestions?

.... yeah.... i noticed. i hope your alright.

>>17589753 yea i don't mind the Christmas greeting it'd show thought but I'm moving soon so on you (not like you're who I hope you are but oh well lmao)

i'll never be in a relationship. I will never love myself and no one should either. I will never find my self worth. I don't believe I have one. I deserve to feel the pain of lonilness. Why do I even bother doing anything? I'm not noticeable, I don't even matter to myself. --But if you ask I'll tell you I'm fine

YOU ARE SO FUCKING STUPID! Jesus fucking christ.

>>17589822
Who is?

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>>17589822
this is what stupid looks like

K
Uni could you take a look at this, it didn't work girlie ill be up until 9 check the thread. I really want to play this game TT-TT checked my old book and nothing xD
J

ps network could you let it be .-.

>>17589829
A person I know. No one in this thread, don't you worry.

Also fucking hell, I just found out this person just got engaged to this shitstain of a person who earlier this year was saying they hated their guts. This is unbelievable. Either they're gonna split sometime before the wedding or immediately after.

>>17589858
L?

Eat a bag of dicks, Dana. We don't fucking like you. You changed my aunt into something bad. You're the reason why my family's relationship with her and your now step daughters. Fuck you. The only good thing that came from you was your one year old son, I hope he doesn't grow up to be like you, asshole.

>>17589871
Nope.

i will leave u be. your obviously not wanting to talk right now.

Please don't leave for Matt I'll stop being clingy

Please come out of that dark corner in my mind and escape my head so I don't have to deal with the thought of you.

c- i miss you.

You don't care, you're always pissed if I'm sad. You're never on my side, and then you tell me we have a good relationship??? Maybe for you, but for me it's giving and giving, and never receiving anything. I have to beg for contact, or simple vocal affection. Then I try explaining why It's driving me crazy never receiving any affection and you simply say that it's not true. Seriously wtf. I could go on and on and rant. You just don't listen and I feel stupid.

I don't think I'm okay with just being friends again after we kissed.
I know you like me. What is it that you're holding back? Please just give us a chance before dooming it to fail.

I've been reading a bunch of famous books lately. Not because I enjoy them, but because I feel it's the only way I can do something important now. Until a month or two ago, I spent all day on this site and it made me incredibly unhappy. Now I'm off of it and only visit /adv/ every other day to vent, but I still don't feel happy or fulfilled. I just spent my entire afternoon wrapping up Blood Meridian and if it weren't talked about so often I would rather have not read it at all. It's not bad, but good writing doesn't do much for me like it does for the critics.

Still, I read because it gives me something to chew on in my mind, like maybe I'll stumble upon something that will transform the way I see the world. I guess for now I'll just have to put up with life and hope it gets interesting somewhere down the line.

i am redpilled on the male gender. should i just give up?

I just want you to be open with me. I just want you to tell me if you're cheating on me. I know I have trust issues but some of my worrying about you is logical. I really like you. You make me feel happy which is more than I can say of most people. I hope you really are just "going to the store tonight"

sydney was looking so goddamn hot, just sitting there in front of me with those thicc f*cking legs. "i'm going to tell her how good she looks after class, but i have to play it smoothly." she was literally 3 feet behind me and i didnt go up to her. at the time i thought she was too far away for it to be "natural". i now realize i missed the best chance i had or ever will have to bang sydney...maybe next week ill have balls

I just wanna watch a dude jack off live but I don't want to have to show myself and preferably I do not want to have to give a personal skype or something.
Pretty sure there was a website for this, like chatroulette but actually specifically for lewd shit.

Envelope came today but missed it. Wonder if there's anything other than what I think it is... Hopefully there is...

I need the succ

>>17589522
Oh fuck, this is what my future looks like, isn't it?

>>17590013
Kek, no.
Remember that all that redpill stuff last applied perfectly somewhere between 200,000 and 2,000,000 years ago, and humans have evolved significantly since then. The evolutionary pressures that select for those behaviors have weakened dramatically, greatly enabling the survival and success of other behavioral traits and social strategies in the human population.

The "redpill" theory of women is not so much a theory as a classically-based strategy for reproductive success: it relies on the fact that it works in enough cases, not in all cases.
I'm not sure what exactly you're referring to for men, but if it's similar, then you may have seriously misunderstood its purpose and explanatory power.

There's other "redpill" theories but most of them are essentially conspiracy theories about how the jews, reptilians, asgaardians, or god-knows-who secretly control everything, and if you believe in any of those you probably should give up on coming here and see a psychiatrist instead.

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>>17590036
just realized I took a picture, i really never do creep shit like this but she was just looking too sexy today

>>17585137
My only irl friend's girlfriend has stage 4 ewing sarcoma (it started off in her leg, she beat it, but it came back in her lung). I'm honestly scared shitless for them. I've been reading studies and all that I can see that it has a poor prognosis. She's a cool person; likes anime and vidya and visits 4chan semi regularly. I don't want her to die. I hate seeing people suffer like she's suffering. I don't think I'll be able to handle my friend, who just came out of a bad period of being a depressed NEET, being left broken by her death. I imagine him just sobbing in a hospital chair and I feel terrible. The only glimmer of hope is that the chemo that she's on is working and the tumor has shrunk significantly. But I wonder for how long, if the next scan is going to show growth, or she's going to get a bacteria infection or something and die from that. He's the only friend I've got, I'm afraid of losing him too if she goes.

I wonder what would have been like if that whole thing never happened. I think we would have even closer than we were. I know how you felt about me, and I never told you how I felt. You are one of the most beautiful human beings I've met. I haven't seen a boy like you.

>>17589753
Initials?

I hate most things about myself. I can't work up the nerve to talk to my friends and family, and have generally shut myself off. Everything sorta feels grey and I can't stand it. I can't understand what I'm feeling, or even what I feel about others. I had a chance with a really nice girl, but I feel like I messed up several times. I am socially anxious and constantly worry about how others perceive me. I want to talk to others, but it feels physically, and mentally painful. the last time I tried to convey my feelings for someone, I panicked and ruined something that could've been great

I know i dont need it, but people tell me "oh itll get better" or "you dont need a relationship right now" but all i want is for someone to actually give a shit about me. I get told that my family and friends love me but thats not the love i need. I want someone who can just look at me and make the pain go away, a reason to wake up in the morning, because right now i have nothing. Of corse my physical objects and drugs and thoughts are great but like people say "you cant take those with you" and i know i should appreciate what i have, but fuck that, i want someone, not something. I wake up every morning not physically tired, but emotionally, because I know once i see a couple pretty girls and talk to a nice girl ill get disappointed by how i cant be with her or have someone like her to depend on. Im slowly going insane too, i think about hurting myself every day, i think when people laugh behind me, theyre laughing at me and i feel like everyones against me. I was told today "you kind of close yourself off, not getting attached to anyone" WELL FUCK DUDE I DONT WANT TO GET HURT, I WISH THERE WAS A NON SPOKEN AGREEMENT THAT WE DONT HURT EACHOTHER IF I OPEN UP but everytime i get attached i end up getting hurt, so fuck opening up, you dont fucking deserve to know me, my story, or my life. Its a fucking privilege for me to open up to you, dont take me for granted

>>17590399
I feel the exact same man. You aren't alone. I wish I could offer some advice, but I have none to give

>>17590407
At least i know im not alone...

>>17590301
Chemotherapy alone has less than 1% survival rate.

I lost someone close to me to cancer and went on a crusade to find a way to beat it during and afterwards. What I found is that the only way to beat it is through starvation. If she has already lost more than 10% of her body weight though it is most likely too late for her to try.

Cancer cells will continue to grow no matter what even while your body is starved of resources. Your normal cells will go into a low energy hibernation mode while the cancer cells will continue to consume resources at 4-5x the rate your normal cells do if they were operating under normal conditions. If starvation is continued long enough autophagy and apoptosis can result and an immune response to clean up the debris will occur. If autophagy and apoptosis do not occur, then starvation can be pressed to the limit where your body will consume all important tissue in your body unnecessary for survival, including the tumor. It has been shown that the human body will not consume organs critical for life until it the very end. This is the most dangerous method of beating cancer but if the cancer is going to kill you then you will have to risk death in order to beat it. If she is already on chemotherapy it is most likely too late to try. Starvation will need to be carried out early on while the body is still strong. If she attempts it while she is weak she will most likely die before the cancer killing process takes place.

Please note that while cancer patients look like they're starving they are being affected by a condition called cachexia which is a chronic wasting syndrome fueled by runaway gluconeogenesis.I know it's a lot to wrap your head around and taking cancer treatment advice from someone on 4chan is ridiculous I implore you to do research and look into it.

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Whenever I see a picture of any person or character displaying a negative emotion like being scared or sad, it low key makes me sad. I hate that shit.

>>17587121
initials?

>>17590368
Ive had something similar happen to me, i dont know your situation, but i suggest you let this girl go, take some time to work on your social skills, and then try talking to some other women. To be honest usually when you're really invested into a female, you're invested in the "idea" of being with her, and not actually her. Sometimes you can like someone so much it blinds you and gives you a false perception of them, when they're really not all that, so pick back up buddy i know you can do it, its a hard road but the destinations beautiful.

>>17589753
Hello.
Feel free to contact me whenever you want or feel it's convenient. A Christmas greeting would be a sweet gesture, although it might surprise others.
Don't over think, don't play out hypothetical scenarios. The odds were slim before, now they're close to non existent, if not already.
You're always welcome to reach out.

>>17590053
Chaturbate, son. Go be a fag.

>girl I like works at the bank I go to
>I think she likes me
>nervous when I go to the bank
>if insecurities aren't enough she knows my bank balance
>not good
>she doesn't seam to care
>I can't stop thinking about it
>do I ask her to go out sometime

I don't think I *get* it you know? Like how do you know when the time is right, that you've met the right one? Maybe it's because I've been on a serial dating binge recently. Some were nice, some lasted for months. Some one offs, but it's so wierd. It always boiled down to the first one who cares loses. That it just became a number's game. Roll enough dice and you'll eventually get double sixes. But how do you know when you roll it? It's like... everyone is utterly replaceable. That there isn't such a thing as fate. So everyone just ends up settling for what they perceive as best...

Maybe I'm just getting bored with the entire game, but it is getting a bit hard to ignore when you're one of the few singles in the friend group and social media is exploding with marriages of folks you went to school with :/

I know people say that one should focus on one's own self. Love yourself before you look for another, except. I don't think that will ever happen. I got a serious mix of imposter syndrome mixed with the feeling of that my best will never be good enough. I feel like I deserve the right to be happy. The right to even have the possibility of a happy ending. That my ending is just a one off line. No chapter. Just "... and then he died. The end."

I guess I'll keep up with my original goal. Keep going until I physically cannot do another, and then I kill myself.

(It's kinda funny, all of my non-active friends try to write off my endurance races with the whole "have fun needing knee replacement surgery when you're 30." Jokes on them, I'll most likely be dead by then. Except. You know. That doesn't really bother me. I feel like it should. But it doesn't.)

Sorry for the rambling. Just wanted to get some of my thoughts in line. Goodnight and stay classy.

>>17589753
Initials?

I'm incredibly anxious and nervous to be starting at a new school tomorrow. I'm one of those people who shudders at the thought of change, and transitioning from a community college to an actual school is wearing me down so hard. I've put this day behind and now its finally here. I don't know what to do, where to go or how classes/etiquette will work since I didn't take the transfer orientation because I just wanted to ignore this change. I'm going to be so lost and its going to feel so terrible tomorrow. Fuck I wish I wasn't so scared of change

>girl who I've been good friends with over the internet for serval years travels farther away from my place for her studies
>had some drama here and there but it worked out in the end
>one day she asks me of a pic of my face in exchange for a pic of her legs
>figure why not dont really care for her legs
>she sends me the pic
>doze legs man
>mentions that shes only wearing a shirt for some reason

God I want to ask for more but something keeps me from doing so. Probably I would come off as a creep if I do but I don't know what I should do

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I'm infatuated with a girl who confessed her feelings to me a few months ago and I turned her down.
Basically she had just broken up with one of my best friends, and I turned her down because I didn't want it to be weird with my friend - he means a lot to me. And honestly at the time I didn't like her that much. I mean I definitely liked her as a friend but nothing more. I helped her with their relationship a lot because it was kind of a train wreck.. and I noticed that I felt so comfortable with her, but I didn't think about it that much.
Now like 7 months later after spending more time with her I'm totally infatuated, I swear we would be great together.. but I turned her down after she said that she liked me for basically a year and a half. And now she lives 4 hours away from me because of different universities. I fucked up and I feel like shit.

>>17585137

Attention all you deplorable degenerates whom continuously treated me like dogshit at work: You may have personally gotten away with it, but your company will suffer a rather expensive and public lawsuit as the result of your actions. I sure hope the trickledown-theory of responsibility lands on some of your individual plates and that you get fired as a direct result of it because your actions cost this company more than your actions have benefited it. And I hope it serves as a blackmark on your professional record for all time. And should none of any of that happen, I still hope karma bites you in the ass in some way. I hope the bird of paradise shits on your head, and young hoodlum home vandals pee in your ice trays. I hope your car tires melt under extreme head conditions in the summer. I hope your dogs give you fleas. I hope you experience a magnified case of jock itch and can no longer resist the natural urge to scratch at it for weeks upon weeks no matter how much gold bond powder and anti-fungal medication you attempt to heal it with. I hope you go bald at an early age and you get an incurable case of athletes foot that rots your toes right off. I hope your friends and neighbors look at you and just shake their heads and walk away wanting nothing to do with you ever again. May your toilet paper always be scratchy and uncomfortable, and your cars always be 2nd rate pieces of shit that barely run. May your homes be washed away by floodwaters, blown away by hurricanes & tornadoes, or sucked down into the earth by a sudden sinkhole. I hope you get runny noses.

>>17590661
I'm incredibly anxious and nervous to be starting at a new school tomorrow. I'm one of those people who shudders at the thought of change, and transitioning from a community college to an actual school is wearing me down so hard. I've put this day behind and now its finally here. I don't know what to do, where to go or how classes/etiquette will work since I didn't take the transfer orientation because I just wanted to ignore this change. I'm going to be so lost and its going to feel so terrible tomorrow. Fuck I wish I wasn't so scared of change

kevin hart was a good guy

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Pretty sure I wasn't meant to have friends.

This semester I've been ignoring my studies so much I'm sure I'm going to fail the midterms, I've also distanced myself from my uni friends (my only "friends") because of this, it's very hard to hold any conversation when you don't know almost anything about the things others are interested in. Also I've been lying to my parents, telling them my studies are going well, I shiver at the thought of them finding out about how I waste the money they send me every month, and it will be a total waste if I end up having to repeat the year, they would be so disappointed. Also, I feel like I'm keeping behind, each one from my initial group of friends has started to get to know so many other people along the year, some of them have even befriended the professors, and yet I've only associated with the same people the entire year.

I wish I could text her without feeling like I'd be bugging her

>>17590779
If she's still talking to you and replies positively you aren't bugging her. Just don't spam her constantly and you should be good.

>>17585137
I love you but if you won't fuck me I NEED a vibrator!

I never understood how terrible people did it. The Hitlers and televangelists conning people and nurses abusing old people. Always just seemed sick to me so I wrote it off as mental illness.

Then life worked on me. I did my best and failed. I tried to be good and ended up nearly going to jail for something I didn't do. I worked hard to get a degree and couldn't get a job. When I did it never went anywhere or paid better. I went back to school and worked even harder on a better degree. Now it's been 14 months since I had a job. Over 3 years since I had one that paid me enough not to be on EBT. My daughter needs better. My wife deserves better.

And all I can think about lately is how I wish those terrible people had done even worse things. I'm a man in my mid 30s that can't even get an entry level job to feed his family and I see all these shitty people doing great. I don't need to be rich or famous or even have an easy job I enjoy. I just need work. I can't get a call back to deliver fucking pizza. Fuck everybody.

>tfw currently have a crush on someone I'd rather not
Why? I barely talk to him yet he's always on my mind. Is there any way I can make these feels go away without having to find someone else to push them on?

You sure are pretty damn autistic and retarded.

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>>17590761
that's ok, i have friends but im still pretty sure i wasn't meant to live in this world

why can't shit just be more simple, everything is so fucking civilized

an autist like me is only good for 3 things eating, sleeping and fighting

I can't fix myself but>>17585137
there's got to be someone out there who can.

>>17590813
>Why? I barely talk to him yet he's always on my mind. Is there any way I can make these feels go away without having to find someone else to push them on?

Same feel here, like, why? the personality of this girl is not special in any way, we barely talk, but she is always on my mind and i get jealous when i see her talking to other people

if you find a way to make this go away let me know

>>17590813

I know this feel.

Then again, I purposefully avoid getting too close to her. She's married. I don't wanna be that guy.

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I'm not staying by our cat's side when she's put down because I want to. It gives me the worst possible pain imaginable to see her piss herself and shit herself already so close to death. I'm staying with her because it's the least I owe her for being so faithful to me, and all of us, for twelve fucking years. We owe it to her to be there when she finally passes and be surrounded by people who love her. And yet you selfish, disgusting idiots don't seem to understand that. Apparently being sad about it is an excuse. Dying is upsetting. Get the fuck over it and don't let me or her be alone in that fucking room when she dies. I thought we were more than a shitty inconvenience. For fuck's sake.

If you can't even recognize when someone isn't taking part in a conversation, don't be so arrogant to assume you know them. Hold your tongue rather than making assumptions when someone is busy doing something else. Jesus Christ

I sure wish I could quit being a lazy fuck and do the shit I wanna do instead of playing videogames in literally all my spare time

I'm trying, but that don't count for shit. My body is probably fucked. Everyone fucking hates me for whatever reason. It's hard to find a reason to do anything. Yes, that's life. You should do it for yourself all that other bullshit. Fuck whoever did this. Fuck you. I'm probably gonna die from a heart attack or some shit for being awake for a week. I didn't even do anything.

I moved across the country with my boyfriend and his family and the trip, personally, was amazing. I got to see things I wouldnt have otherwise seen and experience travelling from coast to coast.

Right now I could not want more space from everyone than I do now because I've been crammed in an RV with 6 people for EIGHTEEN DAYS and we're finally here but still living in the RV until he and I find our own place and I buy a car.

Until then we have to help them renovate the fixer upper house they bought and I really just want to find an apt now and start working at my new job. I feel like my partner isn't making it a priority to look for places and I've been stressed sick looking for a place and a vehicle.

I can't wait till we've settled in the city we wanted to live in because I've had enough of family for a while.

The physical and mental are now one and I'm burning up. I'm burning up. I'm not repressing my emotions I don't think. Call me crazy but literally everything I said would happen fucking is happening. Well, I didn't say everything so there's that. I'm not pointing fingers. I'm just getting thoughts out. I'm not going to make sense to anyone because this doesn't make sense to me. Only a little bit

>>17585727
Thot patrol

That was an odd fucking dream.

I dreamt that I was at my college trying to find lost cellphones to cell (out of character for me) and as I am moving to the next building, I see the girl is am interested in running past, while holding a DJI phantom controller, with out a phone in ad the display. I chase after her to talk, and I fail to catch up. At one point I see the controller disappear.

School starts this week
I hope I stay focused.
I hope I actually progress towards getting a job
I hope I don't crumble under depressing thoughts and stay okay.

I've been cam whoring. I hate that I encounter people like you every single day..it makes me think of you like I think of them...lowly and desperate. I don't think you've noticed the far gazes in my eyes yet...I'm numb.

>>17591247
Also, another girl I know was with her, and constantly tried to get my attention.


I suppose it could be meaning that I am chasing the wrong one, while the one for me is there already?

You know, I never approach you because you made it pretty clear you needed your space. Last time we spoke, you left me hanging (as per fucking usual).
That's alright, I guess. I'm over it, you're over it. Now we go on with out lives, separate ways. But that's cool, right? It's what you chose. Well I guess this is goodbye. You won't talk, and I certainly won't start a conversation, not after being ignored and left in the back burner for so long. There's a difference between "not a priority" and "well fuck you and everything regarding you".
Buh bye, sweetie. May our lives intertwine again in another lifetime, preferably one we can fully trust each other.

>>17591347
It's a job that pays money if you want a job change get it you pretend like you're some forced labor eastern EU whore when in reality you get big bucks for no touching.

So it looks like I did see her the other day. Twice.

Saw her without a doubt in the same spot. Eh. Not really enough time to go over and talk for a couple minutes

But in general I feel that we are on good enough terms to just go up and talk

Dunno what to make of this.

The girl was quite close friends with a guy, and they would hangout constantly.
Then comes September, and I ask her if she's seen anyone from class.
She hasn't but I have. And it happened to be her "friend".
She asks how he's doing, I mention about why they haven't spoken, even though they are/were decent friends.
She claims that they were both busy. (So they had no time to text, or hangout? I don't buy that, I think something happened between them, causing them to fall out. Maybe she saw that he was a scummy individual after he did something?)

>>17591483
Let me tell you the real truth. You're right that there is a difference between Not a Priority and Fuck Your Shit Famiglia, and you're also right that the way I acted showed the latter rather than the former. I'm sorry, but I know apologies aren't worth anything. Sometimes I think about reaching out, but I know this is how you feel now, so it deters me. You're in the right, but there isn't going back. I disappeared for a million reasons, only one of them having to do with you. You don't know me as well as you think you do. Just because we had a beautiful time together doesn't mean that we built a healthy or enduring relationship. I was never opposed to doing that, but I wasn't in a position to. I've been heart sick and head sick, you didn't deserve that. I wanted to grow and better myself, come back to you a full person, emotionally available. I'm sorry that I hurt you and I hope you don't spend any energy thinking about or raging about me. I care about you and I hope you find happiness.

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>finally make a good friendship with another girl
>she starts getting petty because our coworker has been hitting on me
i just wanted a friend. i didnt do anything.

i developed another crush on another one of my husband's friends

it's getting real tiresome, why is this even happening? i try and distract myself, bury myself in other pursuits but they just pop up in every idle moment

>>17591745
Hahahaha I wish this was really the one I meant this to. You're not, but thanks. Really.

>>17591609
Stop

>>17591774
Nah, Just venting. That's the point of this thread

>>17591781
Same

>>17591790
So why are you telling me to stop? assuming same anon that is

I heard from a friend that the girl I like thinks I'm boring.

On our date I definitely was boring. Had no idea what to talk about.
When I'm with my friends, it's a different story. I don't blame her though.

I've been thinking about asking her out to the movies, but after hearing that, I don't think so.
I wouldn't want to waste her time boring her.

>>17590149
KYLE WHAT THE FUCK

You know what pisses me off?

You have these people who claim to care about the future/humanity. About global warming, about resistent bacteria, even nice things like factory farming and environmentalism. And they're all left wing. You know what that means? They are all anti-Western and the one thing that trumps all this shit, is shilling against the West.

Yeah, you know who doesn't care about this shit? The non-Western world. We're it. We're the only ones. But instead of showing some fucking loyalty, you're all saying how we're the worst people in the world and imagining these people who don't give two fucks are your allies. And here I am, trying to convince the right wing that this shit is actually important.

If you cunts didn't hate the Western world, I'd be one of you. But now I get to look at your self-important waffling while you do NOTHING. And god forbid someone points out there are maybe too many people in the world, and we shouldn't take in more immigrants, or artificially support third world countries, because in the end too many people is the root cause of every problem on the list. And without your sick saviour complex, all those places would still be Western colonies, with Western law, Western technology, Western culture, and yes, Western idealism, all of which is objectively superior.

And if you do really hate the West, remove yourself from it and adopt the idealism of these superior, non-Western societies. At least you wouldn't be a fucking hypocrite. But don't sit on the internet pretending to be enlightened.

>>17592047
shut up kike

"JUT MUUUVE AWAY IF U HATE IT HERE"
yeah it's that easy

9:37 am and I'm already drunk on whiskey. I hate my life so much. X,D

Actually. That may just be the way for me to get some time face to face with her.

As I am looking to join my department, I may see if we can meet up some time prior to dropping off my application, so I can ask her some stuff about what she did prior, and what the EMT class is like. Chances are it would veer off a bit to some person shit also

>>17585137
Okay man. you didn't had the thoughts you usually had when you fapped today. Just continue with this. Like you didn't thinka bout Linfeng or Anjhiuh...you did good. Just go in this pace.


Urges come and go,. It;s you who has to overcome it. Do it
Tomorrow college is there...just don't fall for it again.

I really want to die.

Why is everybody acting fucking weird? Maybe it's just me. I'm not coming back here anymore. Even though that's probably a lie I'm going to use every fiber of my being to resist. I'm now a crazy person.

Don't worry about what I say. If I don't say it to you directly then it's irrelevant babble.

All I can say now is I'll get better, do better, and go back to saying less. And you, I think about you every fucking god damn day. I don't think I'll ever stop. Anybody can say whatever I don't care anymore. I'm grateful for my real friends and hope to make more but we'll see.

Hopefully I don't die. Why would I die? I don't know. I'm a retard with bad luck.

>>17592076
Watch this, please

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BT4Riju1uBY

>>17592192
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BT4Riju1uBY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BT4Riju1uBY

>>17585137
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BT4Riju1uBY

>>17591798
There could still be a chance. Ask her out, see if she says yes, and plan something a bit more engaging or exciting rather than the movies. Something like a nice bike in the park or rock climbing or hiking. Stuff like that. It's easier to engage with other people when you're doing fun activities like those rather than staring at a screen for an hour and a half not saying anything.

Just as I was gradually starting to get some confidence and being less afraid of sex, on a whim of your bad mood you went on and said

>Ugghh, just cum and let's get this over with

When I couldn't perform qute well. I've had some succesful times, but that phrase just punched me in the gut and made me a whole lot more anxious for future times.

>>17591798
Take her on more of a hobby type date. Something you both can do that is a bit stimulating?

>>17592439
Any idea why he's ghosting you?

>>17592465
I don't know, if you're wondering why I deleted the post, I made a post somewhere else and didn't want to spam it. I'm so fucking angry, I feel like he ripped my heart out and stomped on it

i don't know whether to fight for her back, give her space, or move on entirely

i believe in us more than anything. i've never been more sure about something, and we were so close to making it work

>>17592467
>>17592445
Hey I think you made a thread about this too but I couldn't respond before it was taken down. I was in a misunderstanding with a friend so I can relate with how maddening it can be when they pull stuff like this. You want to ask them whats wrong or find out whats wrong but they stop talking to you. And of course the distance can come off as way more cold and threatening than it really is.

Some really good ways to cope are to challenge the assumptions about the situation that are making you feel upset. Like for you, try to think of an alternative reason for why this is happening that isn't as hurtful as what you are thinking it is right now. Like, "My friend wants to tell me something is bothering them but they need more time to open up to me about it. I will wait for them to calm down and i'll be there for them when they want to talk to me."

When my friend did this I thought he was like 10x more upset with me than he really was. When I finally got around to talking to him he had said he had missed me and it wasn't bothering him nearly as much as I thought it was. So try not to let your imagination run away with you on this and assume its way worse than it actually is and stuff like that.

Wish you the best on getting this misunderstanding cleared up and I hope you feel better soon

>>17592503
I just made a new thread on the topic, don't want to clog up this thread. Thank you anon.

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Some things could be better at the moment.
Some things could be worse.

But overall, everything is Ok.

>>17589753
Are you me ?

>>17589775
talk to someone

>>17591483
>>17591745
Thanks to this exchange my resolve is strenghtened.
Thank you both.

>>17592503
I know I said I would use my own thread but I need to get this out, I'm more upset about the fact that people I cared about left, then came back, then left the next day

Sometimes, I stare out my window and contemplate death. The pain is gnawing at me from the inside out. I'm so tired that I can hardly move. I feel like I'm going to vomit but there's nothing there to throw up. I want to weep and scream at the same time. My head aches and my throat gets dry. The world is spinning now, everything a blur of emptiness. The world is empty, but worse that that, I'm empty.

Then I eat a sandwich and I'm full and everything goes back to being normal and good.

Anyone else get really depressed when they're hungry?

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I'm finally free. I have my tomorrows back. I have my life back.

Mom, Dad, H, me, thank you. You kept telling me to hang in there and I did.

I have my fucking life back.

Thank you so much.

>>17592582
Anytime.

Ive turned into a huge douchbag after me and my long term gf broke up. it was a really messy break up. I used to be kinda a pussy before we broke up. Like i cared about her feelings, and how i made her feel and all that. Like i genuinly cared. But now i just dont give a shit about other peoples feelings. Im not in a rut, ive fucked 3 other females after we broke up. One of them became my fwb for a month. My fwb stopped talking to me because she said i was a huge asshole. Im not losing any sleep over that anyway. But now im starting to realize that i treat people like shit. Ive turned into the stereotypical chad when i talk to girls. Like if they try to compliment me on something, ill just tell them to shut the fuck up cause i dont really give a shit what they gotta say. I genuinely did not give a shit when the fwb said i was an assshole and she didnt want to talk to me again. How do i make myself be a caring person again? How do i genuinely care about other peoples shit again?

i forgot the name of the only girl that loves me

>>17592551
Same anon

>>17592192
not an option anon, keep going

I feel empty and dehumanized. I just want to remain in a completely idle state and sit there.

I feel like everything that wanted to achieve or do was only to get acceptance and love from others. I've been trying to detach myself from other and seek what I really want to do in life. It seems like what I truly want is absolute void.

For example I quit work when I realized I was just striving to impress my ex. I quit my 9 year career as a bass player because I thought it was just to show off and impress others. I've lost interest in politics since it's just to pretend I'm intelligent.

People say you have stop relying on others for approval and meeting your needs but I realize that when I take everybody else off of the equation there's nothing left. I'm an empty shell I have no needs, goals, feelings. I feel like everything I do is just a defence mechanism formed by traumatic experience.

I hope i get to talk to you soon.

>>17592685
omg i am the same way, ive never done anything just for me and now that all my "friends" have abandoned me i dont know what the fuck to do with myself anymore. i wonder if we should just keep up the act at this point.... like maybe its to late to start over? idk

>>17592709
reminds me of this song(track 11)

The lyrics are
>Benign virus
>On the verge of solitude
>Malignant cure
>On the brink of extinction

>A flawless black
>With an endless wrath
>A tainted white
>On a cleansing path

>Both shackled by the face of red
>A shadow of aggravation and indifference
>An entity of desperation and short-termed bliss
>The schizophrenic emptiness flowing through my veins
>Burns and stings like a venomous bite
>Abysmal loathing for the inner gemini
>Catalyst for the final struggle

>The mind floats between a two-dimensional world
>Dividing the body, straining it's movement
>Only one can reign this organic paradox
>I need to shed my mirrored self

>I am the final and the absolute
>We are the just and the unjust
>I am the beginning and the wavering
>We are the irony of ourselves

>The logic of this realm is clear
>Yet distorted with no sense
>It's purpose both revealed and hidden
>Depending on the angle of sight

>Bouncing violently in a vortex of tranquillity
>A vivid calm showers me, leaving me dry and withered
>Now a moving stagnation, forced to a standstill
>Due to the imminent failure of the soul

>Benign virus, on the verge of solitude
>Malignant cure, on the brink of extinction

>I am the final and the absolute
>We are the just and the unjust
>I am the beginning and the wavering
>We are the irony of ourselves

>I am the final and the winner
>We are the end with no beginning
>I am the final and the loser
>We are the reversal of the living

>>17592725
forgot to post link
https://youtu.be/T87pHBJ1Bt4?t=34m21s

>>17592685
>>17592725
Reminds me of this song
https://youtu.be/WAGAoy5WZWY song reminds me of my own situation, now that I think about it.

Word got out about myself and another guy hooking up ... trying to pass it off as a malicious rumour. Feel like shit, don't want to come out, filled with regret

>>17592740
pretty accurate to mine too. Also that horrible feeling that the person I loved the most in my entire life was a narcissist and never had any feeling for me whatsoever.

>>17592765
That's awful. I'm sorry, anon. I was abandoned by two friends who helped me through shit, and I helped them through shit. I was already afraid of being along because after a while, my mind practically tears me apart

>>17592779
do you have skype?

FUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKK! Ok now that i got that off my chest.... i don't know what the fuck im going to do.

>>17592783
I don't :c but you could tell me here, it's ok.

>>17592779
im in the same position, people always say "im there for you" but then when i need them they are no where to be found or they ignore me. like i dont exsit. it hurts.

>>17592790
I wanted to be friends and things since seem to have things in common.

Otherwise I'm starting to think just now that maybe my purpose is to be an entertainer so I need people. Playing music.

>>17592802
It's fucked up, that's what it is. If they don't pull their heads out of their asses, then I hope what they did to me, happens to them.

>>17592809
I recommend maybe visiting /mu/, since it's all music, maybe you can gather people

>>17592816
Thanks for the advice! But I'M currently with 3 different bands at the moment and they are on hiatus partly because of me.

>>17592820
No problem, I hope the situation that you have in common with me gets better, and that you have success with getting people to listen to your music

I just got rejected, and you know what it ok, because i went to this shit hole school and i made it out as a big diamond and you know what that fine. I know the sense of my self worth.

Even though I didn't say much, I feel I've said enough to give this snake more ammo.
I don't trust him. I don't like him. Yet I'm too nice and talk to him like he's a friend.
I just want him to fuck off and leave her alone and leave me alone.

I don't want to leave you, but you telling me last night you think we can have a fulfilling relationship without sex was off putting. I don't know what to say back you tell me you love me and you want me to come visit you after work but come on this is ridiculous gas money, date money, & time are being evaporated . Do I stay with you and keep someone who is only emotionally available and not physically available. If I leave I am single but if I stay I am having the sex life of someone who is single and lonely but with repercussions cause I have urges to fuck. I don't want this to cause a stir but I am horny. What do?

>>17592553
Apparently not.
I dreamt about her actually. I can't really remember it now. But I remember that I slept really fucking unusually well.

I wish I could spend more time with my parents

>>17592741
story time?

>>17593236
then tell him to fuck off

Honestly guys I don't know. Hope you're all well. Everything seems like a mess now.

>>17592670
It's ok anon, you'll remember

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Why did she ghost me?

Basically I met this girl online, and we started chatting and hit it off massively. We would talk every day for 5 hours non-stop. Then it all abruptly stopped. (We do live an Ocean apart)

This is our last exchange. I tried to make contact twice after, she would read them, but I never get a response.

>>17590817
Thanks...

I HATE YOU SO MUCH YOU POSH FUCKING CUNT

>>17593418
Are you ok anon?

You probably drank it all wrong you fucking noob. Lurk more then buy another and drink it the correct way. And don't even ask me what the correct way to drink it is. If you can't figure it out then you'll never make it, bro. And by bro I mean never my bro, you fucking idiot

Fuck You for cheating on me. Fuck you for reducing it to the word cheating. As if this were a card game, and you sneaked a look at my hand. Who came up with the term cheating anyway? A cheater i imagine. Someone who thought liar was too harsh. Someone who thought devastator was too emotional. The same person who thought, oops, she’d gotten caught with her hand in the cookie jar. Fuck you. This isn’t about slipping yourself an extra twenty dollars of monopoly money. These are our lives. You went and broke our lives. You are so much worse than a cheater. You killed something and you killed it when its back was turned.

I'm not really a horse, I'm a broom.

>>17593498
What? Are you drunk anon, this made me laugh thanks!

im sick of feeling like i unlovable

I'm pissed. been awhile, I was on a pretty good happy streak. guess it's time to burn some things again.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HORkT4a2MhQ

>>17593441
yea i just think about her sometimes

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>>17585137
I think I have aspurgers.

It would explain my behavior to lots of things that I have done in my 19 years. I always thought it was severe depression and social anxiety but have taken a bunch of tests online and all say I have aspurgers.
[spoiler]I told my boss and a few friends for sympathy[/spoiler]

Its just not officially diagnosed

>>17585137
I smoke pot/weed/whatever doesnt make me sound like from /r/trees to help me cope with life. Live in a biblebelt state. I only tell a few close friends. It helps me cope. It has never interfered with my friends unless I do it with them. I have severe anxiety and I dont have panic attacks anymore and dont have the bad side effects of others. It doesnt make me lose interest in things or just forget my emotions.

One of my relatively close friends tried to kiss my girlfriend of 6 years. She told me after 2 months. She says she didnt know how to say it. During those 2 months, we hanged out a lot in big groups. He stayed at our place etc. I'm thinking about his punishment. Is this really the time to beat the shit out of someone?

>>17593597

Was he drunk, being stupid or being forceful? Can you trust her testimony?

Beating the shit out of him risks legal trouble. That said, if your gf told you it's due to awkward guilt and her possibly not feeling comfortable when he's around if he's still got a boner for her.

I'd just dial down the 'buddy' time with that friend immediately. Don't let him crash at your place anymore. He'll get the message and if he asks just be stern and let him know you 'know' and you are pissed. If it has to escalate to violence I hope you know how to knock a nigga out.

This the first time I've thought about suicide in 10 years and I just feel so overwhelmed by everything.

>>17590689
Fuck and now I feel bad after fapping to her. I feel like the lowest scum on earth now after she talked to me about her past relationships and stuff. She's actually pure and that makes me sick. More sick than I already am. And when she still sends me pictures of herself I feel like I don't deserve to talk to her because of my dick doing the thinking. I feel like some kind of rapist but I'm not one and that's also making my stomach turn around.

I don't want this penis anymore,anyone interested?

>>17590689
>>17593708
holy shit kys

>>17593712
Not again

Oh jesus I need to vent. (female, localized in Australia for this story, sorry about the wall of text)

I'm saving up for a house of my own, so in the meantime my parents have let me rent their old house, which isn't the cheapest option but it's n great condition, fully furnished, good area and I at least know the landlords.

So my brother's best friend came over from Japan with his barely-speaking-English wife and they're renting out 2/3 of the house, which is cool. I have a job which has long hours so I only come home in the evening to shower, maybe get a bite to eat, and sleep. I'm in charge of all the bills, so when they come we go thirds in them and it's my responsibility to pay for them and upkeep of the house, no biggie.

I thought living with Japanese people would be fine, because... I don't know, I assumed they'd be clean and polite and stuff? But they're doing things to drive me absolutely bonkers. They're actually pretty messy, to the point where they've claimed all the other rooms of the house including communal areas with their shit. I can't even eat at the dining room table because they've turned that into their little living-area? The wife spends all her time at home in front of the gas heater instead of putting on an extra sweater, so the gas bill came and it was three times the normal amount, which I had to argue not to pay my even third for because I'm never home.

The husband is doing a cooking class because to get citizenship in Australia you have to study to do a particular profession, and he chose to be a chef, but that means he's also taken over the entire shared fridge with his experiments. Every time I have to put my foot down to get my living space back, they agree with me and are super polite about it and the problem is fixed for about three days, and then the cycle begins again.

I've just found out that they're planning to move out early next month, which makes me feel so relieved you can't imagine, but if anything their behavior.
(1/2)

>>17593771
(2/2)
Duh, sorry, last sentence got cut off.

If anything, their behavior is getting even more obnoxious, selfish and rude.

Their new place is apparently unfurnished, so they've decided to buy a ton of second-hand furniture from randoms through Gumtree (sort of a Craigslist here). Now there's cheap, shitty furniture in every inch of the house that's falling apart, full of dirt and cobwebs and smells strongly of mothballs and curry (I'm assuming that it came from an Indian household, and hey, I love the smell of curry, but mixed in with the other smells? Not so good).

Last night the guy decided he wanted to practice for a practical cooking exam so he bought a whole leg of lamb and cut it up, and used (once again) the whole fridge. I just came into the kitchen to grab a banana before my run and the entire place smells like a slaughterhouse. The fucker cleaned his precious knives but left blood all over the counter-tops and sink. I nearly had a heart attack, I thought I stepped into a slasher movie. His wife's done the same - she's baked a birthday cake for a friend, and the next evening I come into the kitchen and the place is a bomb-site, frosting and cake mix and dishes all over the place from a day ago. They're literal trash monsters.

I know I'm being a whiny little bitch, but Jesus, this is my living space too and just because I'm not living in it as much doesn't mean I don't deserve my space respected too. I've kept my parents up to date on their shenanigans for landlord-knowledge's sake, but I guess I just need to hold out a little longer and hope their moving out goes smoothly.

TL;DR my two housemates are filthy, selfish pricks who have no respect of our shared accommodation, and I need somewhere to whine about it.

fuck this i changed my mind im definately not going to major im computer science fuck this i dont even wanna do the basic math prerequisite FUCK COLLEGE I DONT WANT TO TRY CAN I JUST BE DONE

Beung NEET actually seems really appealing to me at this point, with shippuicide a close second. I am not liking college, should I just drop out? Can someone please tell me some benefits of being neet so it appeals to me enough?

why isnt there a country thats not the us, not new zealand or austrailia, and not europe or the uk where they have english accents

>>17593333
Not much to say anon. Sneaking around with some guy, he told some people and people saw us. I'm not in anyway ready to come out and just regret the whole ordeal, so I'm passing it off as a rumour. Honestly, it's been really distressing. I thought I was in the clear for a while, then some friends mentioned it to me and I was shocked. Mentioned the 'rumour' to a close friend and yep, they knew about it too. Luckily, they didn't know if it was true so I could tell them it was a rumouf. I don't like lying to my friends but I feel it's my only course of action

I'm realizing she was just using me. She told me just enough to keep me going , just enough to make me feel special. She told me she loved me. It's been 2 years.

Remember kids
> we burn the fat off our souls

>>17585250
that like barely made any sense
what good is a hot husband when the fire's out?
why don't you ask tiger woods what good is a hot wife for that matter?

If they boast about not caring about looks then the key thing is that they probably don't give a shit about a hot spouse contributing to their social status. That's usually the case when someone makes this claim.

So then it doesn't really fucking matter if you come in here saying this, BECAUSE THEY DON'T FUCKING CARE.

only you care, you fucking bimbo retard.

>>17593873
Canada?