I feel like the only reason I bother with my life, is to lose

Kind of, if the main Problem is that everything is temporary read Albert camu mythos of sysiphus or other existentialist philosophy it helps (confirmed by own Life)

>>17541876
Life sucks.
Escapism is the only thing you can do.

Either accept that fact and live with it, or off yourself.
Make sure to go out with a bang though, like shooting up a school or something.

>>17541876

Nope.

That was my original life goal, now after that happened my goals changed and now theres new things to aim for.

>>17542191
Kierkegaard is better Camus is depressing and defeatist in his existentialism.

>>17541876
Life's a garden dig it. Losing your virginity probably won't be great unless you fall in love first though because sex with someone who you love is so completely different.

>>17541876
you are temporary. are you a normal feeling for the planet to express?

>>17542209>>17542209
If you want something that is not depressing how about Nietzsches will of power and Kierkegaard may be less depressing but is problematic for extreme. Atheists