do i have depressions?

>I suppose i just like the self pity? But then again i really hate people who say they have depressions just because they are attention whores

First of all, depression is a very real illness. Educate yourself about it.

In my non-professional opinion (there are several people in my life with depression, and I have had a mild case of it in the past), what you are going through does not sound like depression. Depression usually doesn't make you feel sad; it usually makes you feel slow, lethargic. It strips away your energy and ambition and enthusiasm. Things that used to make you happy no longer do. You're tired and bored all of the time, and summoning the energy to do anything requires a huge effort, way more than it should.

Honestly, what you're describing sounds more to me like puberty. Which doesn't mean it isn't real or serious, it just means that it's common and temporary.

>>17518761
I didnt say i dont think it exist, i just ment that some people i knew just said they have depressions because they just want attention.

I dont know, i just feel there is no point in living, we are going to die anyways. All the stuff i did until now just feels not really boring, but not really fun anymore. It all just feels like a waste of time. Class is very hard for me then because i cant concentrate on the teacher...

>>17518778
Look, if you think you might have a mental illness, the best thing to do is see a doctor. Does your school have a counselor or someone you can talk to about this? Other people diagnosing you over the internet is not reliable.

I was like that through high school, summer before my last year I decided I was done trying to ignore the torment, which was really everything you said. Ended up in a psych ward which was the last place to be, but none the less they told me I had major depression and got meds. The meds made me so fake and lose my creativity and personality so quit them after 3 months. All that is just over a year ago actually. Therapist was a waste of time and money. Only person who understood me killed herself 5 months ago.

A clue is deal with it. If you feel like its something "really ruining your life" see a professional at least. My friend's death still has me seeing superficial images of her and talking to myself and crying. I wouldn't want that on anyone.

So a solutions might be find yourself, find what makes you smile alone and let it consume your thoughts. A note is I never thought I would survive this long, and now its not so bad.

>>17518747
>putting a not on a vending machine.

Most people don't read the note and just assume it means "Out of Order".