Pursued by notions of suicide

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Pursued by notions of suicide 2016-08-30 07:33:55 Post No.
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Pursued by notions of suicide Anonymous 2016-08-30 07:33:55 Post No. [Report]

I'm relatively certain that I'm going to die by suicide, unless something like a car accident or unexpected health issue takes me out first. It's not really a matter of if. It's when.

Tonight the feelings are very stromg, and seemingly out of nowhere. My life has been hard, but then who's hasn't been? Everything feels like a mess. I don't know how to handle any of it.

Should I start putting my plan into action? It will take a few weeks to get everything set up and ready to go, and I feel like maybe I should write a few letters to friends and family. Maybe by the time everything's ready I'll have changed my mind again, temporarily. I do know I won't be doing any more attempts. My research is done and the next time will be the last time.

Or should I try therapy and medication again? It never really leads to anything positive. Or hasn't yet. Best case scenario I get back on lithium and the suicidal feelings are quelled along with my sense of self.

I really don't know what to do anymore.

Anonymous 2016-08-30 07:45:55 Post No.17513744
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Anonymous 2016-08-30 07:50:21 Post No.17513754
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Anonymous 2016-08-30 07:50:21 Post No.17513754 [Report]

i dunno man, is that what you feel like doing? are you absolutely certain that this is what you wanna do?

Anonymous 2016-08-30 07:51:41 Post No.17513757
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Anonymous 2016-08-30 07:51:41 Post No.17513757 [Report]

Get help. Reach out to someone. You're worth it.

Anonymous 2016-08-30 07:56:44 Post No.17513777
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Anonymous 2016-08-30 07:56:44 Post No.17513777 [Report]

>>17513754
Dunno if it's what I want to do, but I'm definitely compelled to do it.

>>17513757
What's the endgame here, and how do I get there? I've done so much fucking therapy with nothing to show for it but medical debt.

Anonymous 2016-08-30 08:00:09 Post No.17513786
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Anonymous 2016-08-30 08:00:09 Post No.17513786 [Report]

Pick the top 3 people more important to you. Imagine each of their reactions after you've gone through with it. Can you really do it knowing how much you've hurt them?

Go to therapy, get medication, go to the gym, find new hobbies. You are worth it OP, even if your depression doesn't think so.

Anonymous 2016-08-30 08:09:20 Post No.17513804
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Anonymous 2016-08-30 08:09:20 Post No.17513804 [Report]

>>17513786
My best friend would be hurt a lot, but I know she would move on with her life and make new friends. Eventually she'd only think of me occassionally and the pain would subside. I've had friends commit suicide and know what it's like.

Family might deal with it poorly, especially at first. But they would get used to me not being there anymore eventually.

Guess it didn't make sense to even post this thread. Whatever I'm looking for won't be found here.

Anonymous 2016-08-30 13:17:32 Post No.17514311
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