Be my psychitrist for a day

Im 23 and we are the same before the part where you mention the weird stuff you did to those two girls but I see that's probably how I'll end up as well.

You're disgustingly lonely and because you're an inherently bad person, you're now on the path to becoming a rapist. You're welcome.

>>17513436
It's a very dark place. You don't ever want to be there. I've never told anyone about these endeavors. It's horrific!

Depends what you mean by "quality", is it about looks?
If yes. You got low self-esteem so you look at people in superficial way, rejecting them because they aren't "quality". You still want to be close with women though, so you do weird things to those "quality" girls you want, even though you know they wouldn't let you do that normally.

Let go of that "quality" thing, people aren't to be judged like that, to be in a relationship you need to make a connection with somebody, and if you're not good-looking you gotta deal with the fact the older you get, the less chances you have to make the said connection with somebody hot because they'll write you off, perhaps similar way you've written off those opportunities you've had.

>>17513426
Serial rapist with sociopathic tendencies. You assault those you know can't resist as a means of getting back at someone you once knew. A woman, perhaps. Was it a teacher? Your mother? A sister?

You don't feel anything towards the conscious because it is ingrained in you to dissociate from people. You distrust woman because you were once hurt by one. And that pain was enough to traumatize you.

>>17514618
This.

>>17514618
In my defense. I more open to someone more down to earth, but I think the last girl I pushed away was probably the best life was going to give me and everything beyond that has been pretty bad.