depression

>>17503733
I used to hide all my feelings too. Now I'm trying to change it slowy because, while I could still entertain myself, I felt horrible inside.

I'm not sure if that would be the best route for you though. Why do you feel like you're dying inside? Does something seem to be missing?

Sit outside, look at some flowers. Go for a walk. Watch a documentary about crocodiles. Shit man, just get your mind in a peaceful place. Try some ASMR videos. Do a sudoku puzzle. Make yourself a real nice sandwich. You know, one that takes time and care, don't just slap on a slice of ham and some mayo. There's so much stuff you could be doing, you've got no need to be shut up alone with your thoughts.

>>17503776
I don't feel horrible but I don't know what it exactly feels like. Something could be missing, yeah. A good friend or example. I think I have to get my shit together- Thanks

Same, I want to kill myself, have for years but I don't have the guts to do so

>>17503824 You're right guess Thamk you very much

>>17503733
You has literally described the best way I´ve found across the years to deal with sadness/depression. It´s almost like a state of enlightenment if you are skilled enough to stay in it.

>>17503824
Cooking actually cured my depression. Not sure if it was the improved nutrition or just the relaxing nature of it. Both, probably.

>>17503733
I think you just accurately described middle generation depression in the 21st century. You are not alone.