I am becoming a shadow of myself.. I met the most amazing dude 3years ago and we fell deeply in love. I, being a fucked up individual, believed that something would ruin what we had or somehow it would be taken away so I ended up fucking up myself. I was just awful. Mentally and emotionally abusive really. I ended things because I couldn't stand being that person and he just kept taking it because he had never loved before. A few months later I got into a car accident (nothing serious) that really gave the proverbial kick in the ass needed to change my fucked up ways. So I went back to my love in hopes of repairing the damage and ultimately becoming one once more. However he was changed, more sore than before and just a totally selfish and short tempered individual. I knew that this was sparked by me so I was parient and understanding. I then got pregnant (accidental and against abortion) my emotions got harder to manage so I had a few slip ups. Nothing mean and fucked up like I had been before but he would react very very strongly to anything I would say. We decided (well I brought it up) that he was just too angry with me and that we should be apart. I then went through the rest (7months) of my pregnancy alone. We messaged a little just for him to have a basic idea of what was going on with baby. I had my boy 7weeks ago now and when that happened things sort of changed for us. His intense anger faded. He was there for the birth and the 4days I spent in hospital. I have been to his place twice (3 with this weekend) for 5 days each time. Things are much better but I cannot share my feelings because his reactions are still overly dramatic. I want to continue being patient and understanding but I feel like I am dying a little inside. I know that I wronged him so I need to take it but to what extent and for how long. When I was effed up I was aware and shared but could not stop myself. He is not aware and he is just defensive if I talk to him about it.
>>17501703
The way you started every sentence with "I" made me feel exhausted 1/3 on the way through because it was making me nauseous
I want so badly to be right for him but I am no longer sure that he is right for me.. I am still madly in love with him.. his touch his smell..
>>17501715
How else should it be expressed.
>>17501721
A summary of the key points presented in greentext form
If you can't figure out this accepted 4chan norm then I'm sorry you're going to have to leave
>>17501728
Okay thanks
>>17501703
Continue to be his little b¡t€h. It's a woman's role
green text it. 4chan has a very short attention span. This isn't reddit. >>17501721
>>17501840
Don't know how :/ and I have always been bad at summarizing. Will probs not post anymore! Danke
>>17501715
is OP a girl?
>>17502052
yes you dumbass how else would she get pregnant
>>17502079
Post is so long and not even broken up into paragraphs. She really expect me to read all that shit?
>>17502087
I am a total newb to 4chan and I be a girl so of course I talk too much. Also not very tech savvy. Won't happen again!
>>17502501
Good job. Now, show tits!
>>17502507
This isn't /b newfag
>>17502507
>>17502526
I came