the moment when you need to rant

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Tl;dr how to regain a believe that people can be genuinely interested in your personality and interests?

So
>had a friend with common interests
>developed a cringeworthy crush with a cringeworthy shit, we don't talk anymore
>i was angsting constantly at how we always joked and he never wanted to know anything else about me
>"common interests are overrated"
>undergo personality development, try to be a pleasant person to talk to, a good friend
>always keep silent about like 90% of my interests and explore them alone
>get supportive friends, everything is awesome, besides i can't joke anymore

>a crush asks about my interests recently, and in a serious way
>i always just give a short answer and this time a long one was expected
>i fucking realised i was never asked this question in my life and stutter

Oh god, this can't be called a serious problem but

I don't believe that anyone will ever like talking to me, when i don't maintain a normalfag public image.
And i just accepted it and i have no idea how to prove it otherwise.
I could've sucked it up, but it's slowly killing me somehow.
For some reason that "nobody wanted to know me better" thing is a very sensitive spot and even a berserk button at times.
I feel invisible and like a background character, even though i talk with people a lot.

>Okay, it IS some pussy whining, because at least half of people feel this lonely all the time.