>Be half white half Japanese
>Dated white women, yet I'm more attracted to Asians.
>Love Prince, Bootsy Collins, Sam Cooke, Parliament and Billie Holiday etc.
>Walk down the street.
>Eavesdrop on some young black guys
>"Ayy yo you don't like eating as Jubal? Shit I eat ass."
>Oh my god their talking about eating ass in the middle of public...
>"Tell Martin I joined the Asian club to get some of that sideways pussy!"
>...All that's running through my mind is "NIGGER NIGGER NIGGER NIGGER."
>Oh god I'm so fucked up.
>3 hours later
>Black woman is walking down the street, she's eating a sandwich. Smacking her lips while walking. That food is all over her lips. Oh god...
>In the back of my mind I hear it again "NIGGER NIGGER NIGGER NIGGER."
I hate myself for these thoughts... Is this rational? I don't hate people of any race. But when I see a ghetto person I want to just get up and leave.
>>17496371
I think everyone has a rascist thought every now and then. As long as it doesn't turn into harmful action, who cares. Also, don't you think it's more of a class thing than a race thing? People of all races seem degenerate when they are poor. Black rich people have class.
Black people actively make an effort of being annoying in order to assert themselves culturally. It's not your fault.
Yup, you're racist. The best thing you can do is try to counteract those thought processes logically. What would you think if the same events happened with a different race? Why is it different? Where does this thought process come from? Try to figure out where those preconceptions originate, analyze them, and dismiss them.
>>17496371
Everyone is racist up to some degree. May I recommend you some reading?
https://www.amazon.com/Hi-My-Name-Loco-Racist-ebook/dp/B006Y11TXG
If anyone tells you they aren't racist then they're lying.
Don't worry I'm secretly the same way. Just never tell anyone
>>17496371
Stop trying to deny to yourself that niggers are sub-human. You know what the truth is.
>>17496407
>black people actively make an effort of being annoying
No, their inferior nigger genetics predispose them to this.
You're absolutely fine. There's black people, and then there's NIGGERS. Nothing wrong with black people or any race of people so long as they're civilized.