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How to feel passionately 2016-08-22 02:29:33 Post No. 17484850
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I want to start out by saying that I'm a reasonably well-adjusted individual in his mid 20s. I'm pretty social and have a large group of close-knit friends. I have a steady job, am putting myself through school, and have a pretty bright, optimistic future ahead of me.
I say all this so that I can hopefully avoid sounding like an edgelord when I explain how literally the only thing that seems to excite me is violence. I don't mean that I jerk off to violent imagery or anything like that, but I mean the actual act of causing violence to someone is the only way I /really/ get my rocks off. The last fight I was in was probably 4 or 5 years ago, I don't go around picking fights.
This by itself doesn't bother me, anymore. I've been fascinated with fighting since I was a kid, and I'm a competent enough adult to not let it interfere with my life. It's just a part of me that sits in my chest and waits patiently for some asshole to ask for it. What concerns me is that I feel nothing when it comes to sex.
I definitely feel sexual /attraction/. I find most women beautiful, and ones that are my type I feel like I want to lift up and take a bite out of. But when it actually comes to the passion, it's completely absent. I hardly get aroused at all. If the contrast wasn't so strong with the way my blood gets going when facing down a dangerous situation, I'd just assume I watch too much porn and have become desensitized (which probably still doesn't help, and I've stopped).
But what if that's not enough? The best sex I've had in my life was about 'as good' as the worst fights I've been in, and it was good sex.
TL;DR I only feel passion when I'm in an altercation, which I'd be ok with if I could feel passionate about sex whatsoever. But I can't, and I don't know if I'm just maladjusted or just a crazy person doomed to feel nothing unless he's hurting someone else.
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sex is overrated by our society, the companionship is the best part
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>>17484850
join a boxing gym, mma, or other fighting sport.
Passion is hard to define in different things, different reactions to diffrerent things. its okay if thats just you, but sometimes we trick ourselves into believing something that wasnt true from the begging. ex: i thought i was bad at math, i thought that from middle school to end of 2nd semester of college. I wasnt bad at it, i just never tried at it because i thought i was bad at it
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>>17484860
I've had enough one night stands to come to this conclusion myself. But, if I'm going to enter a relationship with someone, I'm going to want them well-fucked. I dated a girl recently. Things were going very well, and I had an awesome time lying in bed with her and cuddling. But, she wanted to fuck. Like, really fuck. And I just /didn't care/. That's not normal. (I still got her off because I'm a gentleman but you get the idea)
>>17484874
That was actually my plan. I'm entering a career field that will provide me enough danger and violence that I hope will fill this particular niche. I was going to look for a local mma gym soon, now that I just moved. I'm hoping that if I expose myself to enough things that I AM passionate about, that it'll carry over into other aspects of my life.
I'm also really worried that it won't, and this is just -who I am-.
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>>17484888
I should mention that this girl was the first person I even tried to date in like 4 years, which is why the problem comes to mind, now. I had figured that once I got cozy with someone, that I would become passionate about having sex with them. But it seems that's not the case.
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