I've never had a girlfriend before. I was ugly as shit in highschool before I decided I needed to at least be doing the bare minimum to care of my appearance. Now as an adult I've had girls interested in me fairly regularly but there's always a certain something that sticks out about them that I can't get over. Too fat. Too conservative. Too bland. Too shallow. Too shy. When *I'm* interested in a girl, I somehow always act like a desperate, overly romantic creep and turn them off quickly.
There's a part of me that wants to give in and compromise my standards but there's another, stronger part of me that views this as complete betrayal to my self worth. I owe feel like I owe it to myself to wait out for a girl who I think is cool, not unattractive, and shares my values but being single any longer seems too painful sometimes.
Don't be needy, be attractive. That's what I learned from the book 'Models: Attracking women with honesty' by some guy name Mark. Read/Listen to it and thank me later.
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I've heard that book recommended before and it does sound appealing. Perhaps I'll order it today.
Check out The Charisma Myth, too. I'm barely getting into it, though, but it seems alright. So far, it's gone over some practices on how to keep calm and minimize anxieties. It's already starting to help me out a little (I work in sales).