Alright /adv/, I'm a first time poster but because I apparently

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Alright /adv/, I'm a first time poster but because I apparently can't talk with the people I love, I turn to reality.

So, I've known I've had ADHD or autism or dyslexia or 3rd-grade-Alzheimer's or the ADD that no longer exists or something since I was a kid, when the kids that were like me started getting medicated, and I believed my parents' view that there was nothing wrong with me. I'm now 23 and and going painfully into what will be my 11th semester of college to complete the Spanish course I failed to complete 3 times and the 2 remaining basic history classes I failed as a result (I am a history major, capstone completed). I know Adderall and Vyvanse helped me a lot because I've taken them from friends on special occasions maybe 10 times in the last 4 years. I know a 15mg just makes me feel weird, a 70xr makes me feel like a meth-head, but the 30xr makes me feel like a human. Lately, I've been given a Concerta of unknown dosage, after which I really felt nothing, and today was given a 20mg Ritalin which made me feel shaky and extremely stressed/depressed. I know for myself that a prescription of a daily 30xr of Adderall or Vyvanse will fix me, but because its so controlled now (?), how can I get it to help myself?

I've had a great long-term relationship with a great girl since 2008, I get along with my younger sister and parents, and I have no readily identifiable enemies, and I would say a good deal of people that would identify me as a friend. I just cant do day to day human stuff as well as I could, to the point its destroying me. I hope I worded this accurately.

What to I do at the doctor's? Truth? Feign ignorance? I know what I want, need, and what will help me.